A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.
A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.
A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.
A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.
A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A reall friend asks you why you took so long to call.
A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.
A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.
A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend calls you after you had a fight.
A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Thursday, December 15, 2005
- it isnt easy after all-
OoO.. It isnt any other simple choice, it is= giving up tons of important things in my life
yea, i should be happy.. years and years of bottled up stuffs-[ all my anger+ sadness + fruastrations+ disapointment, hurt] are once and for all broken.. no more hiding, no more pretending, no more acting as some idiot out there, just to please them, hoping that i could be part of them, hoping that ppl would care to notice my presence.. i can be myself once again!! to have the right to be myself all over again, no more a clown, no more a nobody, i want to be able to stand up tall and tell myself confidently and proudly that "i am lanli" LANLI- a name that ought to be respected, not a name to be mock at, to laugh at.. im gonna to make "LANLI" a beautiful name..
bt it isnt this simpe- i cant imagine how i will go on, what other consequences i would face, other than a set of a very very very long friendship.. in fact, the longest friendship i have ever lasted bahx... giving up it, its simply difficult, after trying for years and years to be nice to them, to be friendly approachable, to bring up things to discuss with them, trying to stay connected with them, to be part of them, bt now?? getting sick and tired of it.. finding it useless act... i feel like i hv wasted every of my effort, i hv fail something which i hv tried sooo hard to achieve... and most importantly, God! is my relationship with You gonna to suffer becuase of this? is this risk too big, is it worth it?? i doubt soo... Lord, would you hv a path for mii? show mii the way that is gonna be good to all... is there suppose to be some kind of solution? or can i juz do by avoiding the problem, hiding the problem away 1st..
since that day, nothing is gonna to be the same with us ever again... i wish all of you a merry chiristmas!
yea, i should be happy.. years and years of bottled up stuffs-[ all my anger+ sadness + fruastrations+ disapointment, hurt] are once and for all broken.. no more hiding, no more pretending, no more acting as some idiot out there, just to please them, hoping that i could be part of them, hoping that ppl would care to notice my presence.. i can be myself once again!! to have the right to be myself all over again, no more a clown, no more a nobody, i want to be able to stand up tall and tell myself confidently and proudly that "i am lanli" LANLI- a name that ought to be respected, not a name to be mock at, to laugh at.. im gonna to make "LANLI" a beautiful name..
bt it isnt this simpe- i cant imagine how i will go on, what other consequences i would face, other than a set of a very very very long friendship.. in fact, the longest friendship i have ever lasted bahx... giving up it, its simply difficult, after trying for years and years to be nice to them, to be friendly approachable, to bring up things to discuss with them, trying to stay connected with them, to be part of them, bt now?? getting sick and tired of it.. finding it useless act... i feel like i hv wasted every of my effort, i hv fail something which i hv tried sooo hard to achieve... and most importantly, God! is my relationship with You gonna to suffer becuase of this? is this risk too big, is it worth it?? i doubt soo... Lord, would you hv a path for mii? show mii the way that is gonna be good to all... is there suppose to be some kind of solution? or can i juz do by avoiding the problem, hiding the problem away 1st..
since that day, nothing is gonna to be the same with us ever again... i wish all of you a merry chiristmas!
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Genting competition??
wahhaha... they just came back from genting- for band competition!! with secondary skools and JC from both malaysia and singapore bands!! they've gt a silver.. hearing sooooo much of their stories, so envy worx!! whhaha.... if onli im still part of their big family, go on such trips with them... afterall such chances and experience dun come easy, the chance the build up a stronger bond a stronger relations with each others, hv fun!! wahaha... i wanna hear more of their stories!!!
guys: if you've gone to the genting trip too, pls care to share your stories with me!! always welcome!
guys: if you've gone to the genting trip too, pls care to share your stories with me!! always welcome!
Thursday, December 08, 2005
The Chronicles of Narnia
The Chronicles of Narnia- The lion, The witch and the wardrobe
i would sae it's a realli nice movie.. a five star movie, i dont mind living in a world of fantasy like it!!
Aslan the lion- king of Narnia, is willing to sacrifice himself for the sin of man, without any complaint, any defence for himself (although he would hv the power to do so ).. lay in the hands of the white witch!
The witch - claiming to be the queen of Narnia ( obviously she's not).. deceive edmund, making him to betray all his brothers and sister, causing alot others to fall into the hands of the witch.. the witch also makes Narnia always winter, but never christmas!
Peter, Susuan, Edmund and Lucy- the 4 siblings who accidentally found the land of Narnia, fight in the war for Aslan, save the land of Narnai.. become the kings and queens!!King Peter the Magnificent, Queen Susan The Gentle, King Edmund The Just, Queen Lucy The Valiant.
The Wardrobe- the link way from the usual, normal life to the exciting world of Narnia!!
The significance:
Aslan: Aslan represents Jesus. He acts as Jesus because he dies on Edmund’s account. Jesus was known as “The Lion of the Tribe of Judah.”`
Stone Table: It represents two things. First it represents the Ten Commandments because it has the deep magic written in it. Second it is the cross because that is where Aslan dies.
Edmund: He represents the people that have sinned because he was a trader.
The White Witch: She represents the devil. She convinces Edmund to sin like the snake had done to Adam and Eve. The White Witch had convinced Edmund to sin using the addictive Turkish Delight. She then told him to bring his one brother and sisters, but he didn’t so his blood belonged to her.
Aslan’s army: It represents the followers of Jesus (Christians).
The story is simply exciting and fantastic.. how i wish i can live in the world of Narnai..
a fantasy, a dream..
Friday, November 25, 2005
a dae @ marina
thursdae: went for bowling with beverly, chaimin, kaserin, alan, nicholas and xiao qiang @ marina bay.. wahhaha, it's some fun cuz it had realli been a long time since i last bowl.. im nt realli a gud player either, haha, most of the ball went inside the drain most of the time!! whahaha.. i can realli clap a hand for those ppl who bowls well siax!!..
then we go arcade for short games, nonono... should say SEE PEPLOE play bahx, whahah... nvr can understand those chim chim games da guyz play... haha, im nt in to it either ( dat creates quite a big gap wif mii and those guys, cuz all they know is games, and i know nothing abt those ) how i hope can somewhat i can connect to them somehow... we share no common interest, no common topic..no connection.. somewhat im out of the place..
went steamboat in the evening.. hv a realli big dinner, all the prawns, fishballs, crabmeats, soups, burnt chickens, sotongs... everything!! whahaha... so nice, i realli like all the soup siax... haha
then we go arcade for short games, nonono... should say SEE PEPLOE play bahx, whahah... nvr can understand those chim chim games da guyz play... haha, im nt in to it either ( dat creates quite a big gap wif mii and those guys, cuz all they know is games, and i know nothing abt those ) how i hope can somewhat i can connect to them somehow... we share no common interest, no common topic..no connection.. somewhat im out of the place..
went steamboat in the evening.. hv a realli big dinner, all the prawns, fishballs, crabmeats, soups, burnt chickens, sotongs... everything!! whahaha... so nice, i realli like all the soup siax... haha
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
another busy week
holidae: a period for us to rest, to relax and hv some fun?? bt now it seems, too much fun isnt realli that good too.
sundae: bbq (@ compass height)
mondae: skool ( chemistry)--> movie ( the excism of emily rose ) --> buying skool books--> borrowing bks (recipe, story bks)
tuesdae: band --> analysing recipe
wednesdae: baking
thursdae: band ----> movie ( harry potter)
fridae: band
saturdae: pop excel (tuition)---->concert ( @ victoria)
sundae: concert ( @ singapore conference hall)
so may i know where is my holidae for REST?? haha..
sundae: bbq (@ compass height)
mondae: skool ( chemistry)--> movie ( the excism of emily rose ) --> buying skool books--> borrowing bks (recipe, story bks)
tuesdae: band --> analysing recipe
wednesdae: baking
thursdae: band ----> movie ( harry potter)
fridae: band
saturdae: pop excel (tuition)---->concert ( @ victoria)
sundae: concert ( @ singapore conference hall)
so may i know where is my holidae for REST?? haha..
Monday, November 14, 2005
hlodidae...
this whole week of holidae = skool everydae
from morning to evening: every morning school, most of the afternoon gt cca...( busy preparing for the performance on saturdae)..
haha, the contition of the performance is nt very good either, haha, dun even have much space to breathe... there are alot of ppl, seniors coming to watch also, ( although they are still hving their O level).. haha, btw: thanks for all your support!!!..
to elena: hee, dun feel bad abt your solo part anymore.. i think you are great, you've gt the courage to do it!!... ( many many people don't, including mii).. so im sure you will do even better de!!! dun be discourage... hee
from morning to evening: every morning school, most of the afternoon gt cca...( busy preparing for the performance on saturdae)..
haha, the contition of the performance is nt very good either, haha, dun even have much space to breathe... there are alot of ppl, seniors coming to watch also, ( although they are still hving their O level).. haha, btw: thanks for all your support!!!..
to elena: hee, dun feel bad abt your solo part anymore.. i think you are great, you've gt the courage to do it!!... ( many many people don't, including mii).. so im sure you will do even better de!!! dun be discourage... hee
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
family day
todae is deepavali... haha, hv a small family outing wif my mummi, brothers, sister and uncle.. juz a simple one, went to changi hv a lunch> went to changi beach for fun, relax, taking some photos , competing who's photo taking skills better, sleeping, talking, finding sea shells> went to expo for metro warehouse sales > shop around, get nothing much also> went for dinner at 85 market, we had realli a lot for our dinner, stomach gonna burst soon> send sister home > home sweet home...
so happy deepavali!!
so happy deepavali!!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
what a wonderful day
early in the morning, had the greatest breakfast ever!!!
- an egg- : although it seems to be realli minor, nothing big at all... bt know what?? it's the 1st time baosuan frying an egg... and it's nt for anybody bt miii!! wahahah... im so proud to be her 1st customer!!
-BaND- : fun... practicing hard for the open house on wed. hope it would be a success, dat everything would go smoothly on!!.. and everybody would play their best! hiax... im nt realli keen on taking over roystan clarinet ( his lao po), i think my is already the best le!!! whahah... compared to the rusty, dirty and smelly instrument i 1st had, im realli realli satisfied with this nicely polished, newly clarinet!!..and hope roystan can pass his N level, and come back join us next year!!! we need you wrox!! gud luck! miss ten is also one conductor dat is realli committed to the band, dat realli care abt the band, makes sure all the things are in the right place.. unlike other conductors i had ever known, all that do is "teach", all the minor details are not their problems... they dun even care abt the arrangement of chairs, the polishing of instruments, the uniforms, the scores...all those are taken care by the president, the QM... and manii manii other committee bt nt worried by them... so, she is reallii quite a good conductor le, she looks down into all those details, worried all those stuff for us!! whhahahhaha... thx!
- an egg- : although it seems to be realli minor, nothing big at all... bt know what?? it's the 1st time baosuan frying an egg... and it's nt for anybody bt miii!! wahahah... im so proud to be her 1st customer!!
-BaND- : fun... practicing hard for the open house on wed. hope it would be a success, dat everything would go smoothly on!!.. and everybody would play their best! hiax... im nt realli keen on taking over roystan clarinet ( his lao po), i think my is already the best le!!! whahah... compared to the rusty, dirty and smelly instrument i 1st had, im realli realli satisfied with this nicely polished, newly clarinet!!..and hope roystan can pass his N level, and come back join us next year!!! we need you wrox!! gud luck! miss ten is also one conductor dat is realli committed to the band, dat realli care abt the band, makes sure all the things are in the right place.. unlike other conductors i had ever known, all that do is "teach", all the minor details are not their problems... they dun even care abt the arrangement of chairs, the polishing of instruments, the uniforms, the scores...all those are taken care by the president, the QM... and manii manii other committee bt nt worried by them... so, she is reallii quite a good conductor le, she looks down into all those details, worried all those stuff for us!! whhahahhaha... thx!
Friday, October 28, 2005
mOvIE
Todae went for our " weekly movie" with bao xuan, whahaha... if we go on like this, mostly we will be broke in the near future!!!.. haha, we watched the mandrain show, " all about love". quite a nice show lahx, i will give it 75/100... wahhaa, haix, onli if i could find a husband who will be as caring and concern as the character in the movie... some parts are touching and some parts are romatic, haha... another romance show bahx!!
yea, there should be sectional todae.. bt heard dat our section onli jia jing went, such a poor news!! [ but jia jing: keep it up!!! thanks for the effort you have put in for band] why would i willing to skip band?? hiax.. also dun noe leix, juz wanna find ways to escape things bahx, sch open house would be coming soon, gt to dig up alot alot of scores [ a total trouble with 80% difficulties] + [ all the sec 2 section members hv gone missing, unwilling to attend regulaly { a super big headache}] onli if.... one dae i can get away with all those heavy responsibilities and truely enjoy myself in the band, the band dat i onced know...
if it's not for the damai bandmates, for joanne, for y.y, for him and for all the good budds, i would not hv struggle through all these.. i would hv juz quite! [ thx them for discovering my passion for music, keeping mi alive in band].. even if todae i hide away frm all the duties and tasks, tml i would still hv to face it!!! can somebody pls pls pls spare mii off!!! help...
yea, there should be sectional todae.. bt heard dat our section onli jia jing went, such a poor news!! [ but jia jing: keep it up!!! thanks for the effort you have put in for band] why would i willing to skip band?? hiax.. also dun noe leix, juz wanna find ways to escape things bahx, sch open house would be coming soon, gt to dig up alot alot of scores [ a total trouble with 80% difficulties] + [ all the sec 2 section members hv gone missing, unwilling to attend regulaly { a super big headache}] onli if.... one dae i can get away with all those heavy responsibilities and truely enjoy myself in the band, the band dat i onced know...
if it's not for the damai bandmates, for joanne, for y.y, for him and for all the good budds, i would not hv struggle through all these.. i would hv juz quite! [ thx them for discovering my passion for music, keeping mi alive in band].. even if todae i hide away frm all the duties and tasks, tml i would still hv to face it!!! can somebody pls pls pls spare mii off!!! help...
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
pOst- ExAM Activities
post exam activities: hiax, sounded fun but then actuallii is the opposite way..
going to school is realli doing nothing but sitting in the hall or parade square, watching people or listening to speaker, and nothing else.. haix, now den understand, acutually hving nothing to do ( without sleeping, watching tv, playing computer)... even study, can be so killing!! now i understand what it means to be bored to death!!!.. haha
[ to all my friends: hope can see every one of you pass the exams with flying colors and being promoted next year!!! good luck]
going to school is realli doing nothing but sitting in the hall or parade square, watching people or listening to speaker, and nothing else.. haix, now den understand, acutually hving nothing to do ( without sleeping, watching tv, playing computer)... even study, can be so killing!! now i understand what it means to be bored to death!!!.. haha
[ to all my friends: hope can see every one of you pass the exams with flying colors and being promoted next year!!! good luck]
Monday, October 17, 2005
fInallii over
it has been a realli long time since i use com le... haha, long time no update!! exam is finalli over, dis time sure fail le.. **Sob sob**.. manni nice teachers will be leaving us, haix.. also dunoe who wil be takin us next year le..
haix... waiting for the dec holiii!! wanna meet the idiot bear and all our buddies!!! it has been realli a long time since i met up with them le, since i moved away bahx, almost 3 years le.. looking forward in seeing them.. hope they will still be cool and funky friends i once know (^^)
exam over> holi coming> more outing> more movies> less MONEY!!.. wahahah
haix... waiting for the dec holiii!! wanna meet the idiot bear and all our buddies!!! it has been realli a long time since i met up with them le, since i moved away bahx, almost 3 years le.. looking forward in seeing them.. hope they will still be cool and funky friends i once know (^^)
exam over> holi coming> more outing> more movies> less MONEY!!.. wahahah
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
soo many happie birthdae so happie
1 happy 15th birthdae to gek min!!, 2 happy 1st dae birthdae to my dearest twin counsins!!
welcome to the world, you had onli come into this world at abt 6pm at Mt. Avernial hospital todae, although i can't be there to witness your arrival, i can imagine how adorable are the two of you!.. hope can visit you two soon, and hope your daddi and mummi would be able to think of a perfect names for you!! can't wait to see you soon...
baby boy: you are going to be the most handsome, most charming baby boy ever!!
baby girl: you are going to be the cutest, the most adorable baby girl in the world!!
visited mr chua's house todae with the clarinet section: roystan, elena, vera, baosuan, angie, jieqi, rachel, jia jing... although we din do much things there, eating, chatting, watching tv, flipping through some of the photo albums ( wedding albums, baby albums...), playing around with bb jon, i missed them soo much!! i miss the smile of bb jon, i miss the conversations we had, i miss the memories we shared!! hee, also learn to care for a baby more, to carry a baby, to feed a baby they sound so simple, yet it requires so much skills..
bb jon: get well soon okie!! no more tears, we want to see the sunshine YOU!!
wahx!! i knew 3 of the luckiest baby in a single dae!!
welcome to the world, you had onli come into this world at abt 6pm at Mt. Avernial hospital todae, although i can't be there to witness your arrival, i can imagine how adorable are the two of you!.. hope can visit you two soon, and hope your daddi and mummi would be able to think of a perfect names for you!! can't wait to see you soon...
baby boy: you are going to be the most handsome, most charming baby boy ever!!
baby girl: you are going to be the cutest, the most adorable baby girl in the world!!
visited mr chua's house todae with the clarinet section: roystan, elena, vera, baosuan, angie, jieqi, rachel, jia jing... although we din do much things there, eating, chatting, watching tv, flipping through some of the photo albums ( wedding albums, baby albums...), playing around with bb jon, i missed them soo much!! i miss the smile of bb jon, i miss the conversations we had, i miss the memories we shared!! hee, also learn to care for a baby more, to carry a baby, to feed a baby they sound so simple, yet it requires so much skills..
bb jon: get well soon okie!! no more tears, we want to see the sunshine YOU!!
wahx!! i knew 3 of the luckiest baby in a single dae!!
Sunday, September 11, 2005
cleaning up- sundae
haix.. it's already the last sundae b4 skool reopen le (arHxxxX!!!).. dis holi seem to pass in a blink of an eye... went over to baoxuan hs the whole afternoon, hee... we did a mass cleaning of her room!!.. yea, it's both tiring and fun, throwing alot alot of " hello-kitty", pinkish, cute and girly stuff to my sis, even look through some of her childhood picutre, report bk, lurve letters etc. wahahha... it's cool~
Saturday, September 10, 2005
pop excel tuition
todae went for pop excel tuition as usual.. bt it's a different this time, we brought vera and bao xuan along.. it seems dat dey do enjoy the tuition dere ( i hope so..) .. i hope dey would continue to join us every saturdae for pop excel, maybe one dae dey will come to know christ through it.. who knows??
mOoo- vie
todae went to watch movie " one more chance" with bandmates- baoxuan, kok tong, levon, david, hwee yong and qi wei at plaza sing.. hee, quite a nice show lahx, oso gt no much commend abt it, coz gt to fetch my sis den i hd to leave early ( sorrie if i do spoil any fun!!).. hope to strenghten our friendship with the bandmates : )
Friday, September 09, 2005
music exchange programme
LoL.. I realli enjoy myself lotzie during the music exchange todae, especially with the jurong ville sec!! they are realli friendly and approachable, and also can learn the ways they organise their band.. it's cool. it's also the 1st time we hosting a music exchange, so it's a bit messy bahx, even we the "tour guides" are nt sure of wad we suppose to go or do... the instructions were all last minutes, everything was in confusion, the major was asking us to lead the group this way, yet the instructor was asking us to lead the group another way...LOL, bt nevermind, we pull it through ( at least no body gets lost or wad, and the programmes were still running smoothly).. i hope all the schools enjoy their dae with us!!
Thursday, September 08, 2005
new computer doesnt mean better!!
haix.. at first still thought changing a computer would be a good thing, can finally get rid of that lag lag dun noe pentium what computer le... bt now it doesnt seem dat good any more.. waiting for the arrival of this new computer, it means sacrificing dun noe how many dayz of nt using the computer, almost the whole week le bahx... even now, the computer has arrived, i cant use it much often oso... mummi lock the internet here and there, scared that we would download too much rubbish to lag down the whole comp!! this thing cannt, that thing cannt... treating the new comp like a precious more than a tool for us!!! so wats the use of it mahx??!!!.. we cant even use it, it's far more worse than the old one.. at least dey are more useful!!!
i have waiting to update dis blog for dun noe how many weeks le, now... it seems too much things to sae le.. so shorten the main events bahx..
1. singapore poly concert- a realli realli nice one... although had a slight misunderstanding wif baoxuan over this event, still can't miss it... they've gt abt 10 or 11 tubas!! how amazing,although their clarinetist is onli abt 14.. which is almost the same as us, they hv gt such a nice and powerful section!! i wonder when can our section be half as good as them.. their freshman- join the band for onli abt 2 months, yet dey are able to learn all the songs.. i can salute to them siax! y.y- i realli admire you for your playing.. you are my superstar niex!!! pls do not care wad wynn dey all sae abt being my "stead" any more... it has been 3 years le, dey wun let you go!!... whahaha...
2. music exchange- tml is the music exchange le, with total of 4 schools- punggol sec sch( hosting sch, oso my skool), jurong view, green view, clementi town.. quite busy dese few daes, having difficulty to even " begging" them to come nt saying to organise them as one... todae our section attendance is pretty good.. so hope everything would go well tml bahx!! we will juz hope for the best!!!
i have waiting to update dis blog for dun noe how many weeks le, now... it seems too much things to sae le.. so shorten the main events bahx..
1. singapore poly concert- a realli realli nice one... although had a slight misunderstanding wif baoxuan over this event, still can't miss it... they've gt abt 10 or 11 tubas!! how amazing,although their clarinetist is onli abt 14.. which is almost the same as us, they hv gt such a nice and powerful section!! i wonder when can our section be half as good as them.. their freshman- join the band for onli abt 2 months, yet dey are able to learn all the songs.. i can salute to them siax! y.y- i realli admire you for your playing.. you are my superstar niex!!! pls do not care wad wynn dey all sae abt being my "stead" any more... it has been 3 years le, dey wun let you go!!... whahaha...
2. music exchange- tml is the music exchange le, with total of 4 schools- punggol sec sch( hosting sch, oso my skool), jurong view, green view, clementi town.. quite busy dese few daes, having difficulty to even " begging" them to come nt saying to organise them as one... todae our section attendance is pretty good.. so hope everything would go well tml bahx!! we will juz hope for the best!!!
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
- sweet company-
[ in my deepest night He is the guiding star; in my sinfulness He is the forgiving heart; a willing ear for each silent prayer, a shoulder for burdens I cannot bear. Sweet company from now through all eternity]--- the daily bread
He is the sweetest companion, the most faithful friend i have, the one who keeps His promise!
Shermin: i think He has a purpose for you!! he brought justin into your life and do wonders in your life!.. continue seeking God, you will find the true meaning one dae!! i'm so sorrie datz im nt a good witness, i dun noe how to put Him in a good word to describe, i dun noe how to spread the gospal, when you ask me about the history of it, i dun noe where to start the story.. the onli thing i can tell you is about the experience, realli.. knowing Him, it's the most beautiful thing that has happen in my life!!
He is the sweetest companion, the most faithful friend i have, the one who keeps His promise!
Shermin: i think He has a purpose for you!! he brought justin into your life and do wonders in your life!.. continue seeking God, you will find the true meaning one dae!! i'm so sorrie datz im nt a good witness, i dun noe how to put Him in a good word to describe, i dun noe how to spread the gospal, when you ask me about the history of it, i dun noe where to start the story.. the onli thing i can tell you is about the experience, realli.. knowing Him, it's the most beautiful thing that has happen in my life!!
Sunday, August 28, 2005
- An unhealthy cell?-
Is our cell progressing?? the ans is "NO", worse still, it's going backward!!! why?
we should realli do some self- reflection to find out the root of this.. Actualli to realli think about what our cell leaders have been scolding us about for the past few weeks, it's true.. we are realli abit too much le.. we've brought down the image of our cell..a cell should bring us changes in our life, positive changes.. i want to be a Children of God everydae of my life, mondae to sundae.. nt juz on Saturdae alone when i go to church, [ maybe datz the reason why sometimes i feel so close with Him, yet sometimes i feel so far away from Him]... i want to love You everydae of my life!
come across one very meaningful phrase when i was shopping around in tampines, especially for all teachers:[to teach is to touch lives]
we should realli do some self- reflection to find out the root of this.. Actualli to realli think about what our cell leaders have been scolding us about for the past few weeks, it's true.. we are realli abit too much le.. we've brought down the image of our cell..a cell should bring us changes in our life, positive changes.. i want to be a Children of God everydae of my life, mondae to sundae.. nt juz on Saturdae alone when i go to church, [ maybe datz the reason why sometimes i feel so close with Him, yet sometimes i feel so far away from Him]... i want to love You everydae of my life!
come across one very meaningful phrase when i was shopping around in tampines, especially for all teachers:[to teach is to touch lives]
Saturday, August 27, 2005
where is my channel 8 & channel 5!!
sob sob!!! todae no tv watch!! how come arhx?? i miss my channel 8 show... haha, cannt miss it lahx, so went to my right hand side neighbour house to watch.. [ left hand side neighbour oso lost channel 5 and 8], haha, 1st time went over their house leix!!! [ although hv been neighoburs for amost 2 1/2 years le]... haha, so the whole gang of kids.. my brothers, sister, neighour kids all went over his house watch tv!!! whahaha.. lucky mummi go call de dun noe wad to check, den found out actualli the whole block of our dis 2 units had problems wif tv cables.. i wonder how the neigbours downstairs can live without a few channels!!! the onli channels left for us are channel u, channel newsasia, art central and some indoneix channel... so poor thing!!!
music exchange seems realli near.. juz few more practices left.. can we make it??? punggol band, we muz work hard worx!! to show other skool dat we are SOMETHING!!
music exchange seems realli near.. juz few more practices left.. can we make it??? punggol band, we muz work hard worx!! to show other skool dat we are SOMETHING!!
Friday, August 26, 2005
It's over
wahahah!!! so happie niex.. it's all over.. no more geo test, no more S.S project!!!.. hooray!! bt still cant be too happie yet, tml still gt emath test, next mon still gt chinese test,dun noe when still gt a maths test, den still gt physics project.. haha.. still gt soo much to do.. whaha...
for him: i know you wun be reading dis anyway... bt i muz realli thx for the nice time you hv created for me.. i realli treasure those times!! still remember you saying wanna go back primary skool toghether during teacher's dae.. [ last last year: our only meeting dae and place after we parted].. although i know this year wun be much possible for this to come true, bt still thx for the broken promise.. miss ya!
for him: i know you wun be reading dis anyway... bt i muz realli thx for the nice time you hv created for me.. i realli treasure those times!! still remember you saying wanna go back primary skool toghether during teacher's dae.. [ last last year: our only meeting dae and place after we parted].. although i know this year wun be much possible for this to come true, bt still thx for the broken promise.. miss ya!
Thursday, August 25, 2005
- social study= headache-
social study project.. wad function wad thingii is making me headache!!! haha.. i dun even noe wad am i suppose to do exactly... so all my slides are all..erm.. out of points, or should i sae..haha.. dun noe spend how many weekdaes and weekend doing it, until i no time to do my blogging and stuff.. actualli yesterdae completed all my slides le lorx.. den todae?? half of my presentation dun noe gone where le!!! have to redo another 7 slides!! damn angry de lorx.. yesterday i do till 12 + de leix.. now = nothing!!!
Friday, August 19, 2005
-back-
a few daes nvr come update bloggie le.. haha, not much time and energy bahx.. bt nvm, im back!! ytd yun jie and me gt 1st for the cooking competition leix!! im realli surprise by it lorx.. it's the wosrt cooking we've done, it's suppose to be a failure.. bt it turn out getting the 1st prize... we actualli spilled the whole blender of fruit drinks on the last min,; in the end we need to borrow fruits frm our neighbour [ thanks: sarah team!! without you i dun tink we can make it] and bought some from the canteen.. and we cant get any peach frm anywhere, so we onli hv honeydew juice added... it's pretty messy!!! haha...
haix... dis few daes, gt homework homework, test and test.. so busy!! yea.. my bro went for their PLSE oral todae, hope it would be all right!! [ GOOD luck andy and yong sin]!! study hard and do well for your PSLE okie?? get into a gud skool!! nt punggol!!!>.. hahah...lol
haix... dis few daes, gt homework homework, test and test.. so busy!! yea.. my bro went for their PLSE oral todae, hope it would be all right!! [ GOOD luck andy and yong sin]!! study hard and do well for your PSLE okie?? get into a gud skool!! nt punggol!!!>.. hahah...lol
Saturday, August 13, 2005
- I've gt a FEVER-
haix..yesterdae early in the morning abt 3.30a.m already hd a slight fever abt 37.5... in the end still went to skool ytd, bt in skool later is realli tired and the fever went on to even 39.4.. Den realli nt feeling well, one moment feel like freezing, the next moment feel like burining!!! haix, den will find any possible chance to sleep in class.. also dunno wad is happening in my head, although outside me, im still playing and joking around with my friends, everything seems normal.. bt inside me, im like living in my "lala" land, everything seems like...erm.. dreaming?? after skool went cp with other 2B guys and yun jie to find other recipe.. datz when i feel realli weak, i dun even hv de apetite to finish my bowl of porridge, i dun hv the energy to feed myself either, in the end onli gt a few bites out of the big big bowl.. i try to minimize my movement, my talkings to save my energy.. haha, in the end we also din manage to find any.. after going home, bathed, i went to sleep.. from yesterday 4.45p.m sleep till dis morning 11.45a.m, wake up twice 30min to hv my meal and medicine..
todae: my mummi insist i shouldnt go skool and should go see a doctor even though im feeling better after such a loooong rest.. so i spent my dae sleeping and sleeping and sleeping like a pig at home..i did nthing else bt sleep.. i hope everything in band would goes well, elena and vera would be able to take the section, kai ting would be able to cope with the scores and clarinet section would be able to learn, to play...
todae: my mummi insist i shouldnt go skool and should go see a doctor even though im feeling better after such a loooong rest.. so i spent my dae sleeping and sleeping and sleeping like a pig at home..i did nthing else bt sleep.. i hope everything in band would goes well, elena and vera would be able to take the section, kai ting would be able to cope with the scores and clarinet section would be able to learn, to play...
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
-NaTioNaL daE-
haha.. ytd is national dae leix!!! dis year i din miss the ndp parade.. i watch it through out!! the show is so nice, yea.. since becoming a singaprean 3 years ago, i haven't realli felt soo much for singapore until national daes. haha, there's so much i wanna thank singapore for.. thank you singapore for providing me a chance to pursue for education. after waiting and waiting for a skool for dun noe how many years, it's onli then i truely understand how fotunate is it to be able to study.. [ so guyz: do study hard okie?? the opportunity to study dun come easy.. there are many many others who would wish to study don't get a chance.. i used to be one]..and thank you singapore for giving us such a nice living environment.. i felt so secure living in singapore, there is no riots, no war to disrupts the peace in singapore.. all the systems are well- organised: the transport system, with the SBS buses, MRT, LRT, taxis, planes, ferries etc... you can get to anywhere around singapore, around the world easily.. in the past, had always focus on our tiny little problems too much le, never realli think on the gud sides which we should be thankful for..
national dae = when all the people in singapre gather together with the celebration spirit in one voice!! [ happie 40th birthdae singapre]
national dae = when all the people in singapre gather together with the celebration spirit in one voice!! [ happie 40th birthdae singapre]
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
- national dae Eve-
count down:> 1 more day to our singapore's 40th birthday
> 1 more day to Justin's 1st year leaving singapore
> 1 more day to shermin's and Justin's 1st anniversary
skool: national dae celebration is realli boring.. the onli thing we do is sit and watch them play netball and N.E quiz!! haha.. my sis skool sounds better, at least they got to sing and dance.. haha
after- skool: haha, went to cook with yun jie.. haha, no taste one!!! bt fun lahx, another new expereince, at least i learn to appreciate my mummi's cooking even more bahx!!
bev- chatter: wahaha.. i realli feel so angry for you niex!!! if i were you, i would sureli get realli pissed off de lrox!! haha, i can't stand ppl nagging here and nagging dere de!! next time if you going FOP yourself muz call me worx!!! haha, and i would nver nver go play pool de lahx..haha, sounds weird for me, i can't imagine myself playing pool bahx!! wahhaha..
> 1 more day to Justin's 1st year leaving singapore
> 1 more day to shermin's and Justin's 1st anniversary
skool: national dae celebration is realli boring.. the onli thing we do is sit and watch them play netball and N.E quiz!! haha.. my sis skool sounds better, at least they got to sing and dance.. haha
after- skool: haha, went to cook with yun jie.. haha, no taste one!!! bt fun lahx, another new expereince, at least i learn to appreciate my mummi's cooking even more bahx!!
bev- chatter: wahaha.. i realli feel so angry for you niex!!! if i were you, i would sureli get realli pissed off de lrox!! haha, i can't stand ppl nagging here and nagging dere de!! next time if you going FOP yourself muz call me worx!!! haha, and i would nver nver go play pool de lahx..haha, sounds weird for me, i can't imagine myself playing pool bahx!! wahhaha..
Monday, August 08, 2005
- FestIVe mood lingErs-
it has already been one day past the festival of praise, the songs the beats are still lingering in my heart... i can't seem to keep them off, i wonder did bev go for todae one oso?? i would realli want get that experience once more, get that feel one more time.. [so sweet, so loving, so majestic, so powerful]?? they dun seem to be the right word to use, i don't noe how to discribe, it's just too _______... [ if any one noes the answer, pls fill it in for me] i miss that 3 hours.. realli lotz, i dun noe why time seem to fly so fast... haix, only if i would get one more seconds of these, i would be realli grateful!!! - praise the Lord-
Sunday, August 07, 2005
-Festival of Praise-
yea.. yesterday went to the Festival of Praise @ indoor stadium with cell group friend!! Beverly, chai min, jaq, aunty jessica, jackson, shie chiat, eric, wee loon, wee sian.. haha, realli disappointed at 1st, the cell officially is not going at the last minute, so only left the few of us who die die oso must go.. that's why alan, ronnie, yu zhen and others din join us... realli disappointed as we thought we wun be going either... bt in the end, in turn out pretty good!!! ALthough the quee is realli realli long, we manage to get in with a good seat. although the concert only start at 7.30... ppl already queeing up at 1+... so we are realli lucky to get in with a nice seat!
Festival of Praise: the people are able to speak in tongue... we had a realli powerful praise and worship session!! although i dun realli know the hillsong and dilirious songs, but i manage to blend in quite well..with thousands of ppl praising God, the sound is sooo strong, as if it is going to tremble the whole place.. with angels, WE EXALT YOU UP HIGH LORD... i can realli sense the voices in unity, raising up to You.. we praise Your name Lord, as we sing with a grateful and joyful heart.. haha, for the 1st time, we ( bev+ chai min+ lanli) sing and jump up with the Spirit without feeling " paiseh".. it's realli a great experience!! it's realli a great joy to praise You Lord..i dun feel my burden anymore, it's all casted away by the power.. You are Majestic, Lord!!!
Festival of Praise: the people are able to speak in tongue... we had a realli powerful praise and worship session!! although i dun realli know the hillsong and dilirious songs, but i manage to blend in quite well..with thousands of ppl praising God, the sound is sooo strong, as if it is going to tremble the whole place.. with angels, WE EXALT YOU UP HIGH LORD... i can realli sense the voices in unity, raising up to You.. we praise Your name Lord, as we sing with a grateful and joyful heart.. haha, for the 1st time, we ( bev+ chai min+ lanli) sing and jump up with the Spirit without feeling " paiseh".. it's realli a great experience!! it's realli a great joy to praise You Lord..i dun feel my burden anymore, it's all casted away by the power.. You are Majestic, Lord!!!
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
- nothing much-
dere is nothing much todae.. went for a dentist check up todae, it's sooooo scary de lorx, dun noe wad " drilling machine", with the sharp sharp noise cutting through your teeth and gums.. wahx!! dun wan to think of it anymore.. thinking of it onli make my hair stand saix!! take up almost 45 min!! cut away my recess somemore!! later heard dat our class gonna booked 2 times?? dun noe is it true.. oso cannt blame mahx, i onli expect it to be 15 min, den come back for lesson le mahx, how i noe they so slow slow slow de.. haha!!
i dun wan join cooking competition!!! everybody know im the most terrible cook ever... and you still dare to ask me to go with you?? whahaha, i dun wan to poison all the teachers niehx!!! and your championship? it would be gone becoz of me!!! i can ruin everything you know???
understanding my junior: haix, im owaes nagging them to go band, but never realli had a good chance to understand them.. i dun even noe they got sooo much problem getting along, soooo much difficulties, i do want to help you.. just give it a try?? things will get better de... trust me, we would give you fair support de, we are not going to stand on any side or be bias or anything!! we realli hope to see things get better for you! smile (^^).. face it girl!
i dun wan join cooking competition!!! everybody know im the most terrible cook ever... and you still dare to ask me to go with you?? whahaha, i dun wan to poison all the teachers niehx!!! and your championship? it would be gone becoz of me!!! i can ruin everything you know???
understanding my junior: haix, im owaes nagging them to go band, but never realli had a good chance to understand them.. i dun even noe they got sooo much problem getting along, soooo much difficulties, i do want to help you.. just give it a try?? things will get better de... trust me, we would give you fair support de, we are not going to stand on any side or be bias or anything!! we realli hope to see things get better for you! smile (^^).. face it girl!
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
- A lOng lONG bLoGgIE-
the whole weekend never update my bloggie le.. no time bahx, everyday get home abt 11.45 or 12.00 le.. whahaha
- saturday-
a night at the deyi concert.. the realli noisiest concert i have ever went to.. it's not that the performance is bad, i admit they are quite good, some of the pieces are realli nice, esp the alumni- band.. it is the environment!!! The whole gang of friends being late, making as much as noise as possible, choosing whatever seat they like. the supporters making cat calls, cheers, kids running around.. wahx!!! really the worst concert environment other than the free outdoor concert bahx.. but one thing i must recommend is the special item by the main band.. they are realli a good one, it realli amaze me alot!! the 1st time i see a drum major throwing the mace high up, the 1st time i see such beautiful formation by the band, the powerful beat.. no wonder they would win the best drum-major award.. they are realli a good one!!! it's worth the money..
- sunday-
a day at my favourite shop; IKEA!!! wahha.. i just enjoy seeing furniture, just seeing it make me soooo happy and satisfied.. i promise myself when i realli get to move in my new home with my loving family, i will surely get my house beautifulli renovated. i want to make home the best place for my family... shopping around IKEA, makes me imagine, wonder about my home.. my future home- the niceli designed halls and rooms, each with special character and mood.. wow!! i can't wait to move in to my dream!!
FOP IS COMING UP REALLY SOON!! IT'S THE BIGGEST EVENT IM LOOKING FORWARD TO!!! Lord, please please please clear away all the difficulties and blockage on the way and let me really experience YOU for once!
- saturday-
a night at the deyi concert.. the realli noisiest concert i have ever went to.. it's not that the performance is bad, i admit they are quite good, some of the pieces are realli nice, esp the alumni- band.. it is the environment!!! The whole gang of friends being late, making as much as noise as possible, choosing whatever seat they like. the supporters making cat calls, cheers, kids running around.. wahx!!! really the worst concert environment other than the free outdoor concert bahx.. but one thing i must recommend is the special item by the main band.. they are realli a good one, it realli amaze me alot!! the 1st time i see a drum major throwing the mace high up, the 1st time i see such beautiful formation by the band, the powerful beat.. no wonder they would win the best drum-major award.. they are realli a good one!!! it's worth the money..
- sunday-
a day at my favourite shop; IKEA!!! wahha.. i just enjoy seeing furniture, just seeing it make me soooo happy and satisfied.. i promise myself when i realli get to move in my new home with my loving family, i will surely get my house beautifulli renovated. i want to make home the best place for my family... shopping around IKEA, makes me imagine, wonder about my home.. my future home- the niceli designed halls and rooms, each with special character and mood.. wow!! i can't wait to move in to my dream!!
FOP IS COMING UP REALLY SOON!! IT'S THE BIGGEST EVENT IM LOOKING FORWARD TO!!! Lord, please please please clear away all the difficulties and blockage on the way and let me really experience YOU for once!
Saturday, July 30, 2005
- happie bdae-
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! SHERMIN turns 15 on this dae.. hope you will hv all your wishes come true, may u hv the most blessed birthdae ever!!! smile....
wahaha.. im saving these few daes for the big FOP coming up next saturdae.. no matter wad, i would'nt miss it!!! even if it means telling white lies to mummi!! no way, im gonna to miss it! i wun let anybody spoil my dis great dae! it's gonna be the greatest event im hoping forward.. with my crazy friends, cell members.. wahx!! i can't wait to spent the whole night messing around with them, most impt in the presence of YOU!!! i want to feel you...
[wiLL u sTil GivE mi a ChanCE foR waT i dId to u iN thE pAsT?i wIsh We cAn sTarT oVEr]
guardien angel says: i dun hope dat the " u" to be me, i juz hope that you could be happie.. you will get her back de!! hope you can pass dat test of yours!! to prove yourself, you are not a flirt, you are someone who is special...
wahaha.. im saving these few daes for the big FOP coming up next saturdae.. no matter wad, i would'nt miss it!!! even if it means telling white lies to mummi!! no way, im gonna to miss it! i wun let anybody spoil my dis great dae! it's gonna be the greatest event im hoping forward.. with my crazy friends, cell members.. wahx!! i can't wait to spent the whole night messing around with them, most impt in the presence of YOU!!! i want to feel you...
[wiLL u sTil GivE mi a ChanCE foR waT i dId to u iN thE pAsT?i wIsh We cAn sTarT oVEr]
guardien angel says: i dun hope dat the " u" to be me, i juz hope that you could be happie.. you will get her back de!! hope you can pass dat test of yours!! to prove yourself, you are not a flirt, you are someone who is special...
Friday, July 29, 2005
-MARIA!!!-
haha, im becoming a philipino maid todae!!! can you belive it?? earli in the morning, gt to serve the class, the madm nt veri happie coz i walking too slow... in the afternoon, gt to serve baoxuan.. cooked mee goring for her, the madm nt very satisfied oso, washed up the dishes for her, bt i think the madm very happy with my todae's performance!!! give me a cheeze den sent me back to philipine!! whaha... later gonna eaten by brother andy!! haha...
thinking of tml band den sianx ready!!! i dun wan to get involved in any scores scores thing!! making me headache onli lorx!! im going crazy.. 5-7 scores lei, without cooperations frm the commitee.. wahhaha!! haix.. onli if im free of trouble and responsibilities!!! i dream..
thinking of tml band den sianx ready!!! i dun wan to get involved in any scores scores thing!! making me headache onli lorx!! im going crazy.. 5-7 scores lei, without cooperations frm the commitee.. wahhaha!! haix.. onli if im free of trouble and responsibilities!!! i dream..
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
-AnOtHeR fRiEnD fOuNd-
im so glad to hear from elena dat she can really relate to me!!! yea, i walked her home todae from baoxuan house to punggol den frm punggol walked back senkang (my home), and we talk all the way, and get to know her quite a bit more.. i owaes thought dae she would hate me de leix, maybe because during band... im almost complaining to her every seconds!!, i thought she would get sick and tired of me.. annoyed by me or wad de?? bt instead, we turn out quite well.. we actualli talk quite a bit on the way home..
our school team robotics: jia you worx!! take another chaimpionship back for our school.. wahaha, another honour and pride!! do your best okie??
leave me alone!!!
our school team robotics: jia you worx!! take another chaimpionship back for our school.. wahaha, another honour and pride!! do your best okie??
leave me alone!!!
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
-cloThES-
wahhaa.. todae at baoxuan house gonna force by her to try clothes.. well, found out one thing!! wearing clothes? it's not as simple as people think!! it needs quite alot of things.. [CONFINDENCE, ATTITUDE/CHARACTER, FIGURE] hee.. gt ranking the horx!! haha, and found out dat i actualli gt zero out of the three! whaha... and we updated together a bit on our sistar bloggie.. it's realli fun, we shared about our past memories from a stranger to a sista.. and it's nt realli easy things, we went through so much toghether.. ( for more information, pls visit our sistar blog!!)
after, yesterdae's crying.. yea, i learnt one thing about myself!! acutally im also quite a spoilt ger.. i'm not spoilt for being wanting materials thing, not the physical stuffs, if i dun get upset if i cant get my mp3, or cd player or wad.. i'm realli spoilt for freedom!! i do get realli angry and upset,when i can't get my freedom.. i want to go wherever i want to go, meet whoever i want to meet, well.. it's my life after all!! i can't stand ppl restricting me here and there.. maybe, it's because of the way i grow up bahx.. i do everything by myself, i plan everything my ownself, i dun get ppl to disrupts it, i dun get ppl to control me, bt now... yea, now i learnt to grow up bahx, no more a kid who crys for whatever he wants , bt a young ppl who learnt to earn respect, and trust to fight for freedom.. yea! i want to grow up!! how i wish i am 21 now!!
after, yesterdae's crying.. yea, i learnt one thing about myself!! acutally im also quite a spoilt ger.. i'm not spoilt for being wanting materials thing, not the physical stuffs, if i dun get upset if i cant get my mp3, or cd player or wad.. i'm realli spoilt for freedom!! i do get realli angry and upset,when i can't get my freedom.. i want to go wherever i want to go, meet whoever i want to meet, well.. it's my life after all!! i can't stand ppl restricting me here and there.. maybe, it's because of the way i grow up bahx.. i do everything by myself, i plan everything my ownself, i dun get ppl to disrupts it, i dun get ppl to control me, bt now... yea, now i learnt to grow up bahx, no more a kid who crys for whatever he wants , bt a young ppl who learnt to earn respect, and trust to fight for freedom.. yea! i want to grow up!! how i wish i am 21 now!!
Sunday, July 24, 2005
- SundAy, my meeting dae with God-
well.. muz sae im sorry Lord for being absent for our meeting, my reason: the same old one!!
people: dun sae that im a saddie, instead, show me the way to a brighter thinking..
todae went ntuc to market for mummi coz her back pain.. whhaha, long long time nvr had a nice tour around ntuc le, almost take 1 1/2 hour to buy all the stuff!! later,went out with bao xuan to top up card, to buy new school shoe and sher's birthdae presents and take neo prints.. whahaha, i like taking neoprints with her alone, at least we dun fight for the screen like others, we get a chance to decorate and get a fair share.. hee, sistar forever!! yea, our sistar blog is coming up!! visit us at www.sistarever.blogspot.com!! remember to drop a msg for us.. im so exicted abt this..
people: dun sae that im a saddie, instead, show me the way to a brighter thinking..
todae went ntuc to market for mummi coz her back pain.. whhaha, long long time nvr had a nice tour around ntuc le, almost take 1 1/2 hour to buy all the stuff!! later,went out with bao xuan to top up card, to buy new school shoe and sher's birthdae presents and take neo prints.. whahaha, i like taking neoprints with her alone, at least we dun fight for the screen like others, we get a chance to decorate and get a fair share.. hee, sistar forever!! yea, our sistar blog is coming up!! visit us at www.sistarever.blogspot.com!! remember to drop a msg for us.. im so exicted abt this..
Saturday, July 23, 2005
-DeAr BlOgGiE-
Dear bloggie,
you are suppse to be my story keeper, to keep all of my story, all of my events.. bt sorrie dat i've made you into a soul keeper instead, to keep all my feelings, all my emotions.. why?? it's easy to tok abt happy events to everybody, even to 'not so close' friends, so i've forgotten to tell bloggie you.. bt when it comes to complicated things such as feelings- anger, sadness, sorrow, confusion etc.. whom can i turn to?? no more venting my anger on others, who will listens, who will care?? well, i dun noe... i dun wan to bottled things up in myself, so where can i truely be myself to express it?? well, bloggie.. dat's you!! so you've gt so much of those unplesant stuff, i have change you skin now, hope you will look as cheerful and bright on the outer appearance bahx!!
haix.. so nobody stand by me, everybody pointing finger at me.. ronnie, physically sitting in my "group"( suppose to support me) went on and on "nagging" at me just like the others!! juz wanna tell you, if you are with dem, den you go sit with dem, nt by my side!! kok guan, toking to me alone.. so it's all about those stuff?? saying i mixing with bad company or wad?? and the announcement you made are just shooting right into me!! saying "it's defeating the purpose of coming to church,", " dun mix with bad company", "just do wad your parents said"... wahx!! wad is all of these lorx, sometimes i juz feel like " well, must well as dun go church at all the best??!!, like dis, i wun hv to upset my mum, i wun hv to cause so much unhappiness for dem..it's juz like all in one!! izint dat the best?"..and i realli wanna tell you lorx, dey are not bad companies, dey are my FRIENDS okie?? wad " im being brain-washed by the ppl in church?",well.. im not lrox, it's my free will to go dere to find my comfort to find my joy lorx.. you tink wad??
JeSus: i love you.. why is it so hard to remain in you?? why is dere so much of things dat prevents me getting closer and closer with you?? i really want to know more about you, to learn about you, why do i not even have a chance.. sometimes, i feel like being so close and so close with you till the state where i found dat i can't stand in your presence because you are too holy.. yet sometimes, i wonder where are you, you feel so far so far away frm me.. like now!can you pls pls pls help me clear all these trouble?? show me the way to you..
you are suppse to be my story keeper, to keep all of my story, all of my events.. bt sorrie dat i've made you into a soul keeper instead, to keep all my feelings, all my emotions.. why?? it's easy to tok abt happy events to everybody, even to 'not so close' friends, so i've forgotten to tell bloggie you.. bt when it comes to complicated things such as feelings- anger, sadness, sorrow, confusion etc.. whom can i turn to?? no more venting my anger on others, who will listens, who will care?? well, i dun noe... i dun wan to bottled things up in myself, so where can i truely be myself to express it?? well, bloggie.. dat's you!! so you've gt so much of those unplesant stuff, i have change you skin now, hope you will look as cheerful and bright on the outer appearance bahx!!
haix.. so nobody stand by me, everybody pointing finger at me.. ronnie, physically sitting in my "group"( suppose to support me) went on and on "nagging" at me just like the others!! juz wanna tell you, if you are with dem, den you go sit with dem, nt by my side!! kok guan, toking to me alone.. so it's all about those stuff?? saying i mixing with bad company or wad?? and the announcement you made are just shooting right into me!! saying "it's defeating the purpose of coming to church,", " dun mix with bad company", "just do wad your parents said"... wahx!! wad is all of these lorx, sometimes i juz feel like " well, must well as dun go church at all the best??!!, like dis, i wun hv to upset my mum, i wun hv to cause so much unhappiness for dem..it's juz like all in one!! izint dat the best?"..and i realli wanna tell you lorx, dey are not bad companies, dey are my FRIENDS okie?? wad " im being brain-washed by the ppl in church?",well.. im not lrox, it's my free will to go dere to find my comfort to find my joy lorx.. you tink wad??
JeSus: i love you.. why is it so hard to remain in you?? why is dere so much of things dat prevents me getting closer and closer with you?? i really want to know more about you, to learn about you, why do i not even have a chance.. sometimes, i feel like being so close and so close with you till the state where i found dat i can't stand in your presence because you are too holy.. yet sometimes, i wonder where are you, you feel so far so far away frm me.. like now!can you pls pls pls help me clear all these trouble?? show me the way to you..
-another entry-
haha.. todae too many things happening le arhx.. haha, juz another entry for todae bt a short one i think, todae skool gt the " i love punggol" carnival run by the sec 2, i realli wanna go support dem de lorx, to support the skool too.. bt den gt band todae too, so the whole gang of us realli wanna skip band de lorx.( elena, baoxuan, mi , vera).. haix, bt den the 3 great major frm band come down catch us niex.. whahahaha, den of cuz gonna caught lor, haha.. wahx, still threathen to punish us, to pump us or wad de, den still "bao dou" us to miss ten, wahahah.. no choice go to go up le.. at 1st still very scared scared de, so requested a huggie frm jia hui to cool me down, den she volunteer to sent us up.. hee, at 1st dot ms ten would face black black one and sure scold us de.. bt den so surprised de, we juz greeted her and she said nth.. not a single questioning, no scolding, no punishment, nothing... so surprised!! whaha.. so the wole section onli gt the 4 of us + jia jing.. so happie to hear dat we gonna to hv another music exchange, with bedok green.. haix, hope can met some pri skool frends dere bahx, how i wish we can hv a music exchange with DAMAI!! i miss the band mates dere.. i miss everybody dere!!
Friday, July 22, 2005
- A dae Of parting-
first.. bao xuan: you can start to prepare me a glass coffin le, i drank a cup of bubble tea todae!! whaha..den muz sae gud bye to mr chua le, *sob sob*.. muz sae he is realli a good teacher lor,( although he dun teach me), bt he gave me moral support, listens to me and guide me, being a frinedly and approachable teacher, well.. maybe the first cher whom i share almost everytihng bahx?? every idea, every confusion, every memorable event..haha, there is a period of time when i realli share EVERYTHING with him niex, cheers me up when i feel down, answer all my questions, and teach me to look on the brighter side of life. haha,, the most memorable was when i realli realli feel upset and stupid abt myself for being such a useless SL, i realli feel like crying and screaming all over, i expected him to sae sth to remove dat feeling off me, maybe" it's onli the start, you will get use to it de" or maybe "dun feel so bad abt it" all sorts lahx, bt know wad he said?? " glad you know it!"... wahx, after hearing this oso dun noe how to react anymore, dun noe to laugh or to cry, whahaa...( hope he wun read dis, abit oso mushy-mushy.. )
well, partings?? i hate it.. i realli hate it!! i remembered..
- many many years ago, when my mummi parted me, i cried for two daes; without sleep, without much food and drink,(although daddy and granny inisited i shuld eat somehing, bt i juz lost dat appitite) two full dae and night of tears..
-2000, when i parted with daddy and granny to go singapre, agian i cried.. wad am i suppose to do?? do i realli hv to made a choice btw dem?? maybe datz y i dun lyk making choices, im afraid of making the wrong choice.. im nt even sure if coming to singapore was a right choice.. the disappointment, the sadness is all shown in their eyes,how can i ever forget dat?
-2002, when i leave damai..i have onli been dere for six months, i dun expect anyone to do anything for me, after all,im nt realli the kind of popular ones in the class,im nt those pretty ones either, 6 months of friendship, how strong can dat be? yet dey do sth so sweet for mi.. the whole class , and i mean the whole class of 40 ppl and the teacher stay back after skool to bring me a surprise! with my best friend, holding my hand side by side, dey sang me " friends forever".. with voices in unity, we cried, together we cried..
" and as we go on, we remember, all the times we had together; and as our lives change, come what ever, we will still be friends forever"
many many partings in life, we've gt to look forward..mr chua, you've gt to be a good teacher again in your new skool worx!!
well, partings?? i hate it.. i realli hate it!! i remembered..
- many many years ago, when my mummi parted me, i cried for two daes; without sleep, without much food and drink,(although daddy and granny inisited i shuld eat somehing, bt i juz lost dat appitite) two full dae and night of tears..
-2000, when i parted with daddy and granny to go singapre, agian i cried.. wad am i suppose to do?? do i realli hv to made a choice btw dem?? maybe datz y i dun lyk making choices, im afraid of making the wrong choice.. im nt even sure if coming to singapore was a right choice.. the disappointment, the sadness is all shown in their eyes,how can i ever forget dat?
-2002, when i leave damai..i have onli been dere for six months, i dun expect anyone to do anything for me, after all,im nt realli the kind of popular ones in the class,im nt those pretty ones either, 6 months of friendship, how strong can dat be? yet dey do sth so sweet for mi.. the whole class , and i mean the whole class of 40 ppl and the teacher stay back after skool to bring me a surprise! with my best friend, holding my hand side by side, dey sang me " friends forever".. with voices in unity, we cried, together we cried..
" and as we go on, we remember, all the times we had together; and as our lives change, come what ever, we will still be friends forever"
many many partings in life, we've gt to look forward..mr chua, you've gt to be a good teacher again in your new skool worx!!
-we ArE sIsTa-
If we hold on together.. yes, of course we will hold on together!! we are never gonna to fall apart de.. okie?? no matter wad, we are gonna to hold on toghether and endure them through, we are the best sista ever!! haha.. todae realli spent a nice time with you leh, i realli enjoy the time when we eat together, share together, do work together and especailly when we are singing songs together.. whaaha, sing until window broke le still like dun care, sing like bird, sing like choir, sing like opera, sing like ghost.. all sorts of singing. out of tune, in tune.. we dun care, the most important thing is that we enjoy ourselves. loads.. datz all... we laugh like crazy, at ourselves, at each other, at almost everything.. bao xuan, thx for being my guood sista!!
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
-sKoOl AtTeNtIoN-
HAHA, bao xuan and i are gonna to study hard!! no more play play, no more lame excuses for ourselves le.. i now gt listen in class le leix, or at least trying lahx ( coz dat chemistry no matter try how hard oso dun noe wad is dat?? ever since frm the 1st chapter bahx).. haix, too much distraction le, where is my attention?? haha.. you make me miss you so much, thinking of you every moment, waiting for you, hoping for you, all of my soul, my mind and all of my heart is wiht you, even though i opened up a book, all i can see and think is still you, you and you alone.. i hope you dont do the same thing as me,being so stupid and silly..you've gt your national exam coming up, you've gt to go to good colledge, you've gt so much so much thing to put your attention on!.. im not gonna to let dis affect you and me, our future ahead! we've gt to look far.. haha, i still muz thank bao xuan for all this inspiration, to motivate me!! hee..
Sunday, July 17, 2005
-sUnDaY SeRVicE-
HAix.. i wanna attend sunday service!! bt mummi dun allow, sob sob.. haix, my lunch with bev dey all gone case le, my time with Him shorten le.. wahaha.. i muz be a good testimonial to my mum!! i muz show her that knowing Him is the best thing in this world, and He changes my life to the good and the pleasing.. hee, morning is already felt realli bad after being banned by her nt going to church, haix.. hope that later on, going for fiesta concert at botanic garden would be great, the weather would be fine, everybody would enjoy themselves! ( too bad, he din go.. how i wish he would be there too) haix.. nvm!! juz wish would hv a fun time later on, heex!
Saturday, July 16, 2005
- sPeEcH dAy-
wow!! todae is the speech day le lei!! whaha.. i'm glad dat everything went smoothly.. the weather is juz perfect!! when it is almost gonna to rain, we are hving parade downstairs, soo cooling, so nobody fainted too!! hee, den when it started to rain, we were already up dere in the concert hall... so it doesn't really affects our procedures!! so thx the Lord.. hee, den very surprise dat at the end of our band performance, we've gt a realli good response from the audience!! loud loud clap lei!! haha, dun noe the one sitting beside me during prize giving gt clap for us mahx?? haha, during rehearsal say wad our band can " da han" onli.. haha, hope every one realli enjoy this speech day!! i know yang tuo realli like our band performance veri much worx!! saying our spongebob squarepants very cute bt too bad din get a chance to shake hands with him, and band is like the best performers of all, haha!! so happie todae..
Monday, July 11, 2005
-my BiRThdae-
haix, dey almost make me wanna to cry le.. esp when ju siang and danny bought me dat big big winnie the pooh bear, i see shermin and elaine cry, it makes me wanna to cry too.. i din noe guys can be that touching too, i din expect dem to give me such things or can sae i din expect anything from them, yet they give the cutest present of all.. thx jusiang and danny!! u are really my friend.. oso dun noe wad happens todae, actualli alot alot ppl veri veri fun de lrox, it doesnt matter where we eating or wad we eat, wad's imprt is that we spent time toghether with each other mahx, eating long john silver can be as fun as eating pastamania or pizza hut.. it doesnt matter! bt den in the end we go in separate ways, haix.. so sad de lorx, if we juz give in abit abit, less complaints and everything would be perfect!!and thx for the card and the bag from all cell group! i read everi little alphebet and every little full stop dere.. they are so touching, they make me feel so loved and appreciated, every little blessings..thankyou to the cell group!! hee... pls dun be so good to me mahx, i realli feel like crying le.. tears of joy, tears of apreciation in my heart( die die oso cannt let ron see i want to cry)!!
Sunday, July 10, 2005
-A good Saturdae-
i realli realli enjoy myself todae!!.. frm the begining till de end of the dae!! the morning rehersal went quite well, EXCEPT for marching part bahx? hee, can't realli memorize the score oso, out of the so many marching pieces, i onli can memorize 1 without fault.. hee, den keep gonna said by ms ten lorx, dun noe i nt loud enough or wad bhax? haix, roystan din come todae, if nt sure dun hv dis problem de.. den at 1st quite angry and paiseh de.. bt den after dat think think think, also got nothing wrong mahx, haha den went on quite happily agian le.. haha!
at tuition is the funniest thing le lrox, with that crazy kat and bev and chai min and teressa!! making me laugh till my head droppping off le.. realli realli the most fun time of the week bahx, realli realli realli... datz why i die die oso muz go for tuition todae bahx.. at home oso a wonderful night! haha, 1st time no nagging from my mum leix... hee, somemore gt soooo mani presents waiting for me!
1st time my bro giv mi present lei, my sis, my mum.. the onli time i receive so mani presents from dem!! no matter how stupid the presents maybe .. i owuld still be veri veri glad de!! thankie everybody!
at tuition is the funniest thing le lrox, with that crazy kat and bev and chai min and teressa!! making me laugh till my head droppping off le.. realli realli the most fun time of the week bahx, realli realli realli... datz why i die die oso muz go for tuition todae bahx.. at home oso a wonderful night! haha, 1st time no nagging from my mum leix... hee, somemore gt soooo mani presents waiting for me!
1st time my bro giv mi present lei, my sis, my mum.. the onli time i receive so mani presents from dem!! no matter how stupid the presents maybe .. i owuld still be veri veri glad de!! thankie everybody!
Thursday, July 07, 2005
- LOR 135-137-
HeE.. WAD is dat dat lor?? law135-137.. juz tell me mahx?? i won't hate you de.. haha, im nt dat petty bahx?? hee. keeping me in suspend?? it is the greatest birthdae ever in my life!!.. although it is still days before the actually day, i hv already felt very touch by the candle-light party at pasir ris last week, and today's little "surprise" present, although it's an exchange one with mingchu.. hee, and the law 135-137? a great plan.. i dun noe wad is that but i know it's something great and embarrasing bahx.. no matter your law 135-137 realli works anot, i would still be realli realli grateful for all the pPL's time and effort for coming up with that!!.. Thanks for all!(^^)
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
-LoNg loNg neVeR uPdAtE lE-
ToO LoNg NeVer uPDate my blog le... haix, i gt so many things i want to tell everybody!!, bt due to space constraints, i think i could only say a few bahx! the Sec 3 camp? it is fun... i enjoyed myself, i made a few new friends, i get new experience! hee, kayaking!!! the most exciting one bahx, it is my 1st time..some more with Patrick, ppl gt cert one worx!! bt dun noe why oso can hit until my head!!... i like the cheers! when everibody team up and shout!! wahx!! i want to thank everyone, the trainers and all the members of Mohawk group for making this a enjoyable camp! i wana esp thank yingying for being such a friend, even for just a short 3 days, it makes a difference!
Then it was the prayer concert at expo! when i first heard it, i thought that it was gonna to be damn boring.." prayer?" !!... but in the end i still went, it wasnt that what i thought, it was really cool in the end, for the 1st time i can really worship with my heart.. in the past, i was always very paish to lift up my hands, to sing out loud with a joyful heart, to really praise Him, bt during that time, every one was singing wholeheartedly.. at there i realli gt the urge to lift my everyting to HIm, i want to submit myself to Him, i want to jump for joy..
ThE LaST thing i would ever want to talk about is about my mum!! i have been in a bad relationship with her since i came back from camp, nagging and nagging.. how do you expect me to finish all house work for you while im dere out at camp?! and how can you put my hamster outside just because this is YOUR house, so ami not a member of this house? and do you know how much that hamseter meatn to me? it's my birthday present from my band mates.. and so if i get home late? it is the 1st timei gt people to celebrate my b'day for me, to sing me b'day song, to care to get a cake for me, to put up candles for me.. den you? hv you ever do these to me? my b'dae? juz anohter forgotten dae.. nth left! so wad if you banned me frm going out? it's "war of the world"!! how can you juz do so? toking to you?? like the most difficult task to do now le!! why?
Then it was the prayer concert at expo! when i first heard it, i thought that it was gonna to be damn boring.." prayer?" !!... but in the end i still went, it wasnt that what i thought, it was really cool in the end, for the 1st time i can really worship with my heart.. in the past, i was always very paish to lift up my hands, to sing out loud with a joyful heart, to really praise Him, bt during that time, every one was singing wholeheartedly.. at there i realli gt the urge to lift my everyting to HIm, i want to submit myself to Him, i want to jump for joy..
ThE LaST thing i would ever want to talk about is about my mum!! i have been in a bad relationship with her since i came back from camp, nagging and nagging.. how do you expect me to finish all house work for you while im dere out at camp?! and how can you put my hamster outside just because this is YOUR house, so ami not a member of this house? and do you know how much that hamseter meatn to me? it's my birthday present from my band mates.. and so if i get home late? it is the 1st timei gt people to celebrate my b'day for me, to sing me b'day song, to care to get a cake for me, to put up candles for me.. den you? hv you ever do these to me? my b'dae? juz anohter forgotten dae.. nth left! so wad if you banned me frm going out? it's "war of the world"!! how can you juz do so? toking to you?? like the most difficult task to do now le!! why?
Sunday, June 26, 2005
-Im sorrie-
morning? 1st thing i wake up is answering your call.. so why?? why have you been so fad up?? yet behind your voice of shouting and screaming is the sound of your tears.. i dun wan to upset you, i realli dun mean to.. u noe how hard is it to be in the middle?? all of your words, i heard it nt the 1st time, bt mani mani times fr others.. datz why i rejected your request of going out todae. i dun wan, or can sae im fear of the words dat gonna hit me by others. todae its not your fault, realli is not. i want you to understand dat, i always treated you as my friend! you are important to me, you are more precious than my time and everything else, i wanted to spend my time wif you, every possible minute.. being wif you has been so much fun and laughter! im sorrie.. i din noe my existance is so important to you, u spend 2 hrs convincing me to go wif out with you, yet my ans still 'no'! you hv done so much for me... im so sorrie, i hv made another wrong choice todae, i wonder izit worth?? izzit worth to hv such a big quarrel wiif you over such a small small matter.. i wanna see you!! in the instant second... to tell you: im sorry!
Friday, June 24, 2005
-MoViE-
INITIAL D!!.. nice movie, bt mainly because of its character bahx..all look so cool de bahx!.. haha, bt den de story line so-so onli.. but overall nice show lahx!!, everi of dem look so cool and handsome, deir driving technique oso super pro de worx!!..haha, funni and exciting..
-BaNd-
haha, it's about band agian!! hiax... the whole day in skool for band, so gt nthing to sae bt band agian.. it's realli better todae, hee.. maybe is becox baoxuan is dere?? hee, dere is somebody who can really laugh with me, hold my hand and jump around like mad!! lunch?? we had our lunch in a big big round table as a section!! for the 1st time bahx??.. realli hv fun laughing wif one another!! things are getting better when you are back in band!!..
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
-BaNd-
- band-?? a whole dae of band.. im realli realli tired of dat!! it has been wrong in the begining!! why has joanne chosen me?? if nt, i can be as normal as others, i dun hv to be in the 1st clarinet, i dun hv to be the s.l.. i dun hv to be aniting lyk dat, i may hv a chance to be in the 3rd.. hee!! bt all is wrong in the begining!!.. in band?? i hv always been suffering and suffering, trying to get wad is expected of me, trying trying trying... sometimes, it gets so tough dat i realli wanna cry.. to realli lean on somebody who listens. Yesh, sec 1: y.y?? realli realli makes me want to cry le, tears already in my eyes le, lucky dat time joanne came in time.. for resue, accompani do silly stuffs, we counted every holes in clarinet, press every holes in clarinet... she accompanied me run and run and run around the corridors juz becox i cant play some simple notes and rhythem! u noe how crazy is y.y?? ( u get 1 wrong notes, u run 1 round!).. so u can imagine i ran how mani rounds dere!! now in band?? is exactly the same things happening in punggol again!
why is she asking for so much?? i realli cannt cannt cannt mahx.. here in punggol is worse, far far worse den damai dere!! at least dere, when im sad.. somebody is dere for me! but now here, i realli realli feels tired, wanna cry.. nobodi is dere! looking around the whole room, couldnt see somebody dat realli can make me smile! ( baoxuan and frenzie arhx: pls come for band mahx!! one day without you is like one day without smile, i hv tasted it.. ) pls let us nvr nvr give up supporting each other, emotionalli and physicalli!! we need your support..i found comfort in you! who reali understands and listens..
why is she asking for so much?? i realli cannt cannt cannt mahx.. here in punggol is worse, far far worse den damai dere!! at least dere, when im sad.. somebody is dere for me! but now here, i realli realli feels tired, wanna cry.. nobodi is dere! looking around the whole room, couldnt see somebody dat realli can make me smile! ( baoxuan and frenzie arhx: pls come for band mahx!! one day without you is like one day without smile, i hv tasted it.. ) pls let us nvr nvr give up supporting each other, emotionalli and physicalli!! we need your support..i found comfort in you! who reali understands and listens..
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
-lOuSy DaY-
IM REALLI LOUSY!! IM A LOSER!! i cant do a single thing right.. my onli happi moment is onli dat few min at baoxuan house.. when we did our sista tok and sharing... at band?? i feel lyk a complete idiot of myself.. i dun wan to be wad sectional leader, wad librarian!! i dun even want to be in 1st clarinet!! can't i be juz a normal normal band member?? like bao xuan?? free of trouble and responsibility.. i want to run away!! i cant handle all... im such a stupid loser lorx, tiny tiny stuff oso cant do it!! cant even conduct a section as a sectional leader, wad kind of sectional leader is this!! a useless one.. how can a section look up to such a person??.. realli stupid lorx! hide away when supposed to be conducting... realli an idiot! but still muz thank rachel, jie qi, jia hui and bao xuan for dat little encouragement.. at least it makes me feel better!! thankie! i want be a normal normal band memeber, i dun wan any post any position any thing!! i wan tto be normal!... can i?
Monday, June 20, 2005
-MaLaYsIa-
HEe.. mAlAySiA, I duN Wan to be back singapore!!! i wanna stay dere longer.. i wish the time would stop dere, de moment little cousin fell asleep in my arms.. i miss him!! how i love this little cousin of mine.. the way he smile at you, the way he hold your hands and laugh with you, the way he takes care of you, the way he talks, walks, run, the way he sleep in you arms.. the smell of his hair, the touch of his soft skin... i miss his everything! i wish i can be dere to protect him to take care of him, to see him grow up!! i love little kids!the Indonesia Food Festival at Genting was so nice de lrox!!.. hee, i see every food, i take ( almost lahx) cox cannt resist the temptation mahx!! hee... but take so much cant onli eat veri little little niex, all becox of my irritating infection on my tongue.. can onli see see the food and drip my saliva, bt den cannt realli taste the food!! so poor thing!
wE wATch de mR. AND Mrs. smith.. i didnt expect it to be such a nice show lorx.. but den it turned out to be realli cool movie, haha.. cant keep my mind off the movie liao! the perfect couple!! so power and cool!!... high class!! hai.. i miss the most exciting part niex!! the ending?? can somebody pls pls tell me the ending?? i keep imaging the ending, how would it be like?? all sorts of stuff i hv thiink!!.. haha...
hAO tiNG!! I MISS YOU the most!! in the whole excusion!!.. i would nvr forget the way u hold my hands, the little hug dat u gave me.. the sweet sleep in my armx!! how i wish to be always be dere.. you are my comfort, melted my heart!!
wE wATch de mR. AND Mrs. smith.. i didnt expect it to be such a nice show lorx.. but den it turned out to be realli cool movie, haha.. cant keep my mind off the movie liao! the perfect couple!! so power and cool!!... high class!! hai.. i miss the most exciting part niex!! the ending?? can somebody pls pls tell me the ending?? i keep imaging the ending, how would it be like?? all sorts of stuff i hv thiink!!.. haha...
hAO tiNG!! I MISS YOU the most!! in the whole excusion!!.. i would nvr forget the way u hold my hands, the little hug dat u gave me.. the sweet sleep in my armx!! how i wish to be always be dere.. you are my comfort, melted my heart!!
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
-OvErsEa-
haha, dis few days we gt ' homework marathon' at baoxuan house niex.. everyday at least 4 hours of homework homework and homework!!.. but nevermind, spending time with her, doing such stuff i dun mind.. haha.. going oversea tml le,still gt so much stuff haven complete yet.. haha. so dun noe for the how many days could nt use computer.. no more updating til sunday le banx.. haha
Monday, June 13, 2005
- wOrK-
mY 1St worK For this june holiday niex.. " distribute flyers", haha.. at 1st thought would give tuition to dat boi boi once a week niex, bt dun tink hv dat time.. hai, never mind, here gt another job experience! 4th one!! haha.. collect collect!! hee, actually nt dat tiring after all, this is one of the simplest task, i dun hv to communicate with them, no rejection, no attitude, no complaint.. wow!! sweet and simple.. actually oso learn a short lesson today lahx, *( smile, and the world will smile with you!)*, *( if you reach out ur hand to try, there is a 50/50% chance, bt if u wait for ppl to reach their hand, the chances are onli 0.001%)*! two lessons! cool
Sunday, June 12, 2005
- FrIeNdS-
so where is my place in your heart?? can we be friends?? a really true friends... although we hv known each other for almost 5 or 6 yrs lex, bt hv you treated me as a friend?? in the past, i hv been suffering under you, being bullied by you.. but as time goes by, i learnt to take things easy. i tried to take them as some stupid jokes, and laugh the matter off, i tried to be strong for most of the time.. " lan li de lan pi,lan li de pig head,lan li de pig, lan li de pentium one, lanli de lag, lan li sux, lan li de noisy, lan li de stupid, lan li de ah gua,lan li de clown." and the list goes on and on, like never ending... and do you know i can't always be that strong? when i get weak and soft, all these words really hurts.. you can say is i sensitive, but it all goes inside my heart..ALL!..hai, saddie.. am i only a clown to you all these years?? a clown for you to make fun of, a clown for you to laugh at??.. how can i be accepted as a friend to you?? how can i be respected??
i have always treated friends in school with good care, i respected them well..they are wad they call friends you can lean on when things go wrong.. but becox of you, kaser is following exactly the same things, calling me all those stupid names, i dun need them anymore!! i dun wan all these to be spread among all my school mates.. i treasure our respect for each other, i treasure our bond with each other. they are my friends.. i dun want to feel hurt and insulted by friends, can we be friends?? a good friends..
i have always treated friends in school with good care, i respected them well..they are wad they call friends you can lean on when things go wrong.. but becox of you, kaser is following exactly the same things, calling me all those stupid names, i dun need them anymore!! i dun wan all these to be spread among all my school mates.. i treasure our respect for each other, i treasure our bond with each other. they are my friends.. i dun want to feel hurt and insulted by friends, can we be friends?? a good friends..
Saturday, June 11, 2005
-cLaSs tEe-
Yoz.. 2B having a class tee leix!! pls pay up niex..$12.65( i know it sounds a bit day light robbery, but we cant cancel the any order now, we have already paid the deposit).. I dOtz kaser said she confirmed everybody okie with class tee, but now it seems nt like.. soRrIe, but class tee iznt a bad thing right?? $12.65 is worth a name frm 2B, all our 2B memories.. the fun, the troubles we hv been through as a class.. lets not leave out any one from our 2B family, lets stay friends forever!
Thursday, June 09, 2005
- SuDdEn mEmOrY-
HAi, today is suppose to blog abt wad a busi and tired day we hv trying to find a manufacturer walking to north to east to north of singapore.. bt i never expect him to appear while i blogging dis entry..
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[U wILL aLwaYs bE my One n Onli gAl iN mY heArt n WiLL neVeR leAve u AlonE...N goIng to miSs u WhEn u AwAy(Luv Lirek) ]
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This nick of his??? i dun feel anything at all... i know this nick isnt for me anyway, no more anger, no more jealousy and no more sadness and pain.. it is in msn messenger that brings me back to him, it is also this msn messenger that tears us apart. how i wish, i wish i could just go back to dat dae, wonder what had went wrong that day, wonder did i do the right thing that day, maybe just a little change, our ending would be different... there had been alot of chances fly away, he had been asking pratically every day, but what did i said ??"dun noe"..
yes, of course i still miss him... i miss the times we had toghether(^^). it has change so much between us now, the silence, the lies are getting stronger..... can we nt be dat way please??
i promise myself: not to fall for any guy from messenger!! i hv learn frm my lesson.. they can sweet talk me, but they cant last...
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[U wILL aLwaYs bE my One n Onli gAl iN mY heArt n WiLL neVeR leAve u AlonE...N goIng to miSs u WhEn u AwAy(Luv Lirek) ]
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This nick of his??? i dun feel anything at all... i know this nick isnt for me anyway, no more anger, no more jealousy and no more sadness and pain.. it is in msn messenger that brings me back to him, it is also this msn messenger that tears us apart. how i wish, i wish i could just go back to dat dae, wonder what had went wrong that day, wonder did i do the right thing that day, maybe just a little change, our ending would be different... there had been alot of chances fly away, he had been asking pratically every day, but what did i said ??"dun noe"..
yes, of course i still miss him... i miss the times we had toghether(^^). it has change so much between us now, the silence, the lies are getting stronger..... can we nt be dat way please??
i promise myself: not to fall for any guy from messenger!! i hv learn frm my lesson.. they can sweet talk me, but they cant last...
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
-My TiMe-
woW.. i need my time!!! please please don't steal away my own time any more, i need a moment with myself, to think, to organise my stuff. there are too much things going on, although they are mostly fun stuff, but they are also tiring. both fun and work stresses out my mind and soul!! what i want is just a moment for myself to be alone, to just hv my time to slag a bit.. hai, can somebody please fulfil my this tiny, little wish?? thankie!
Monday, June 06, 2005
- NiCe MuSiC-
gee, today went to y.y de concert* SiNGAPORE WIND SYMPHONY*-youth winds in concert-!! sounds so cool rite?? hee, realli gotta a good chance to listen to good music.. It is reallli a nice band, with good sound( good tone+ good articulation= good sound). The French Horn player is soooo the powerful!! He can swept his sound across the concert hall, the clarinetist are so talented also... they can do realli fast running notes with good toungueing!!.. how i wish to be like one of them!!... im so inspired by their band, we got so much to learn from them!
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-Prelude to a New Era
-Marsch
-Irish Tune From Country Derry
-Song for a New Generation
-Sixth Suite For Band
-Invictus, The Unconquered
-Children Of Sanchez
-Let Me Entertain You}
-Puszta
- ( our own on- song)
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> To our band members: LeT'S coNTiNuE to StRiVe HaRd tO bEcoMe pRofEsSiOnaLs LiKe tHeM!
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-Prelude to a New Era
-Marsch
-Irish Tune From Country Derry
-Song for a New Generation
-Sixth Suite For Band
-Invictus, The Unconquered
-Children Of Sanchez
-Let Me Entertain You}
-Puszta
- ( our own on- song)
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> To our band members: LeT'S coNTiNuE to StRiVe HaRd tO bEcoMe pRofEsSiOnaLs LiKe tHeM!
Saturday, June 04, 2005
-Im So SoRrIe-
GeE, i gt so mani soRrIe To SaE.
1. ( HiM)- Im sorrie for deleting away my friendster blog. i dun wan you to remember our past, i want you to lead a life of happiness and joy... dis blog is nt meant for you animore, i hv transfer all our memory here, i realli cannot forget you.. it is realli a wonderful memory dat i shall nvr erase!
2.( ShErmIn, JuStIn, ElaIne)- although dis blog had been here for months, but its nt until now den i come and update, sorrie guyz to let you wait and tag empty bloggie.. by the way, thx for coming and tagging, i feel so touch niex... you are the onli ones who would wanna come tag empty bloggie(^^). my bloggie is done!!
1. ( HiM)- Im sorrie for deleting away my friendster blog. i dun wan you to remember our past, i want you to lead a life of happiness and joy... dis blog is nt meant for you animore, i hv transfer all our memory here, i realli cannot forget you.. it is realli a wonderful memory dat i shall nvr erase!
2.( ShErmIn, JuStIn, ElaIne)- although dis blog had been here for months, but its nt until now den i come and update, sorrie guyz to let you wait and tag empty bloggie.. by the way, thx for coming and tagging, i feel so touch niex... you are the onli ones who would wanna come tag empty bloggie(^^). my bloggie is done!!
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
-ExAm. StReSs-
HaI, todae gt chinese paper worx!! difficult siax.. neber expect to have dis type of question cum out.. haha. todae tok wif wende so funni de lrox, gt da funni funni slang when he tok mandarin, haha.. prefer he tok english bahx!! haha.. i would neber tok to him in mandarin agian!!! ARHXX!!...
ppl out dere, dun put too much hope on me anymore, i would onli disappoints you guyz.. or rather place your hope on shi jing or irene?? dere are betta, stop giving me stress le!!.. i can onli promise i will try my best, i cant promise i will top da whole cohort agian. and [ do not place any bet on me]!! i hated dis, i realli hated dis.. its a fair competition, just let it be.. pls give me a place of my own! Dear:[ i noe how exam can be stressful, pls take gud kair of yourself and all da best for your exam worx]
ppl out dere, dun put too much hope on me anymore, i would onli disappoints you guyz.. or rather place your hope on shi jing or irene?? dere are betta, stop giving me stress le!!.. i can onli promise i will try my best, i cant promise i will top da whole cohort agian. and [ do not place any bet on me]!! i hated dis, i realli hated dis.. its a fair competition, just let it be.. pls give me a place of my own! Dear:[ i noe how exam can be stressful, pls take gud kair of yourself and all da best for your exam worx]
Saturday, April 30, 2005
eXaMiNaTiON
exam is onli around da corner le!! so fast.. bt i dun tink i hv learn much in dis semester leix.. how am i going to sit for the exam??.. die diex!!
hAI, we long long neber msg lex.. eberitym in msn lyk nth to tok de, so sad* i wanna tok to him.. we din msg as much le, dun noe wether he gt misz mi mahx?? hahax.. maybe he is juz to busy bahx.. i dun noe! btw, who am i dat he should misz?? i feel lyk a nobody to him.. am i realli a nobody to him?? can u tell mi da answer? i want to hear from you.. *only you alone*.. eberi minutes and secondz i cling on to my fone and waited waited waited.. but his name din appear.
> to him: i will be here waiting and waiting until one dae m love for you fades.. do we have a chance?? can u tell me?
hAI, we long long neber msg lex.. eberitym in msn lyk nth to tok de, so sad* i wanna tok to him.. we din msg as much le, dun noe wether he gt misz mi mahx?? hahax.. maybe he is juz to busy bahx.. i dun noe! btw, who am i dat he should misz?? i feel lyk a nobody to him.. am i realli a nobody to him?? can u tell mi da answer? i want to hear from you.. *only you alone*.. eberi minutes and secondz i cling on to my fone and waited waited waited.. but his name din appear.
> to him: i will be here waiting and waiting until one dae m love for you fades.. do we have a chance?? can u tell me?
-bAnD. HiM-
sOb SOb.. band now lyk so strict le, late a little bit gonna punish.. hai, but its good for the band also lahx, more disicplin, ppl wun be so slack anymore, dere is a sense of urgency and displine.. haha, hope can see improvements in band also! (^^).. at least dere would be more efficient bahx!! but its a bad news for ppl lyk mi!!.. hai, ask a pentium one ppl to work so fast and rush here rush dere, it't a difficult task leix!! im juz so "shi bai" lorx.. i cant do a single thing well. without roystan, i gt no confidence to play my clarinet.. i oways rely on him, to hear him play, at least i gt da confidence.. i should be prepared to be independent player, bt im nt.. when is roystan coming back?? i need him! im nt fit to be a librarian for band, a sotong cannt manage it!! im gonna corrupt soon, is anybody gonna give me a hand?? oh, wad isit now mahx?? am i waiting for him or is he waiting for my answer?? i will definetly answer him with confidence a "yesh", but i cant do it now.. i shouldnt.. im waitingfor him now! for wad?i dun noe.. maybe for a right time?? i dun noe.. we haven been lyk this for 1 mth le, 30 dayx.. haha, happie 1 mth anniversary lex.. sounds lame..gee~(")~ but still so happiex..
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
-tO mIsS-
I REALLI MISSES YOU... dis de 1st dae i neber bring my hp to skool ever since i know you, becox i noe u now dun msg me as frequent le..* sob sob* it is so weird and funny lorx, i cannt keep my mind off you.. i wanted to get back home to see my hp as soon as possible.. i cant wait le, i realli hope to see your name appear in my inbox!! wahx.. <<>> : do not be depress le worx^^
Monday, April 18, 2005
-GuArDiEn AngEl-
I cAn'T dEnY WhAT hE SaiD is wRONG.. i was not realli upset by wad he sae, i expected it, i felt de same way too...den wad should i do now? i noe if we continue to drag on, the percentage will become lower and lower until one dae dere would be absolute zero. i know he loves his stead, of coz he should.. but now everibodi is confused, all he can sae to me is " dunnot dunnoe" .. i can tell that he is realli beri stressed and confused, esp when he coulnt forget her ex.. i did not press on for more, i dun wan to make him difficult.. dere is owaes a reason and i believe it. i realli want to help him, listening to him is such a pleasent thing to do, to help him relief his pain and confusion, i want to share his burden and nt add a burden to him.. toking to him abt great ideas and views is realli a nice chat, at least both of us are toking our mind. it is so soothing and pleasing, dere is no worry, no fear and pain.. i want to be his guardien angel[ to watch over him, to help him when in need, to give him all my support silently] i noe he wun realise and appreciate, but i could be able to be guard him, watch him through is realli a fantastic job le. i dun ask for regonition, position in his heart, becox i noe it is impossible..** [guardein angel]: nobody realli knows de existence of guardien angel, bt she is owaes dere to give to help secretly..** now, i wish he could make a good decision tad wun make him regret.. " you are strong"!! ~ the story of a little mermaid ~
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
-SYF-
SYF!! COMINGSOON.. 15 APR 2005 !! BAND, we muz work hard worx.. all our hard work is shown through tis.. we will neber want to see our effort gone down to zero, all our hard works deserve a medal!! WOW.. jia you worx!!
Saturday, April 09, 2005
HiS gOoD, pLeAsInG, PeRfEcT pLaN
WoUlD i ReGrEt If I lEt hIm Go?? I duN noE.. bt dere isn't really much time and choice left, i will hv to tell him my ans by fri ( SYF competiion)!! chagning topic and delaying my time doensnt work anymore.. bt, i tink he knows my answers ready, i dun really intend to tell him at 1st.. he is right, no matter what my answer is, somebody will sure be heartbroken.. i would rather it is me, than anyother body.. maybe dere will be other good, pleasing and perfect plan that God has planned..
Friday, April 08, 2005
-ThANkYoU JESUS-
LoVe NEvEr fAiL... tHAt is what He said, and i believe Him. He is the only who show the greatest love to all. Yesh, and He proves his love too. Im just too stupid dat i din realise it, i have been taking Him for granted. Yesh, He has seen me through all the hard times, He has been helping me silently, without me knowing. He has been dere for me when im in need, He has sent me His Love and Help. For how many times?? He knows when im upset..He postphone all my busy schedules( my social study test and a. maths test both at de same dae), He knows i dun really have a heart to study to learn, i hv been so slumpy all these days.He give me time- a whole night, He give me a fren- yujie dere to comfort me, to listen to give advice.. Although i dont see Him, but He has been so real to me, i cant imagine. He cares so much for me, He know i din study at all and would surely flung all my test, He postphone dem for me, i din ask for all these.. bt He gives me.. Im really thankful to Him! Jesus, I LOVE YOU
Thursday, April 07, 2005
-iS Dis WoRtH-
Iis this worth it?? i have been thinking these few days, i slept at 12+ almost everydae, juzt to wait for his msg... bt is this worth it at all?? he din realli lyks me, i dun stand a place in his heart.. i noe all these, bt im holding him.. why?. am i juz lying to myself?? or am i realli scared if i lost him?? maybe i sholdnt even exist, it's realli all my fault.. im sorrie, ~gurl: sorrie, i neber meant to hurt you.. please treasures him, you are de one whom he really cares and loves. hope you will know this one dae. i give you all my blessings!!(^^)~ its me who causes all these pain, i will take dem all. i will carry dem, im not going to let him carry this.. i wish him happiness, i dun wan him to see me cry.. bao xuan, im sorrie, i cant make our fairy tale come true le, dey are juz dreamz dat will be treshed.. bt i dun wish yours to be lyk mine, u shld realli realli treasures someone who truely loves you, or you will regret.. go ahead without me, create your own fairy tale, juz dun be lyk mine, broken stories filled with pain and misery only.. you are my best friend.. we are SISTAs.. i want u to be happie and joyful, dun end up pain and hatred. ~fAiry tales? doesnt exist anymore~
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
-wHy MuZ iT bE dIs wAy-
WhY wHy WhY ?!! I realli hated myself.. what am i doin now?! i am telling myself everdae and everdae tat im nt going to be two tym by him, im not going to be a third party either.. bt i juz couldnt, i found myself falling deeper and deeper each dae, i miss him so muchx tat i lost control of my limit... im sooooo bad, is this de real me?? i oso dun noe.. he says he will cum back find me one dae!! is this true?? am i nt dreaming ?? bt i hope, i hope tat he will cum be 'whole heartedly'.. i will be happie whenever he cums back. i will wait.. ~i can~*[[ dear dear arhx.. dun be a two-timer worx, i will hate you forever de]]*
Sunday, April 03, 2005
-wAd A bAd DaE-
SuNdaY.. what a bad day!! dozens of homework to be finish( gee, all becoz i last min den do), the whole afternoon still gt S.S project to do (yucks, i hate S.S).. den go back use com still gt to listen to ppl nagging!! (tats the worst!!!). bt can see him online, it is worth all these things!muahaha... i cant miss every single chance to tok to him!! i really hope he would treasure me one day, bt i muzbe dreaming .. haha.. todae went out wif bs wif her *****, damn paiseh lorx, nobody is toking, in a so awkard situation lyk tat.. haha..
Saturday, April 02, 2005
~...Hai, bt sO cOnFuSeD lORX.. can anyone tell mi wad should i do?? of coz i would want him to cum back to mi, bt would he be serious wif mi? if he can do this to his gurl, he can do this to mi... if only, if only that our timing are right, these confusion will not occur.. i dun wan to make a wrong choice, i dun noe if i would regret if i let him go. bt would i regret if i accept him?? one day he might juz do de same thing do mi.. i dun wish to be hurt. then, wad abt his gurl?? why is he doing this to his gurl?! i will neber ever be a third party.. hai, should i or should i not?~~ 'my ex-crush'~~ "pls be a good stead, dun do anything silly"
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