-Im sorrie-

morning? 1st thing i wake up is answering your call.. so why?? why have you been so fad up?? yet behind your voice of shouting and screaming is the sound of your tears.. i dun wan to upset you, i realli dun mean to.. u noe how hard is it to be in the middle?? all of your words, i heard it nt the 1st time, bt mani mani times fr others.. datz why i rejected your request of going out todae. i dun wan, or can sae im fear of the words dat gonna hit me by others. todae its not your fault, realli is not. i want you to understand dat, i always treated you as my friend! you are important to me, you are more precious than my time and everything else, i wanted to spend my time wif you, every possible minute.. being wif you has been so much fun and laughter! im sorrie.. i din noe my existance is so important to you, u spend 2 hrs convincing me to go wif out with you, yet my ans still 'no'! you hv done so much for me... im so sorrie, i hv made another wrong choice todae, i wonder izit worth?? izzit worth to hv such a big quarrel wiif you over such a small small matter.. i wanna see you!! in the instant second... to tell you: im sorry!

-MoViE-

INITIAL D!!.. nice movie, bt mainly because of its character bahx..all look so cool de bahx!.. haha, bt den de story line so-so onli.. but overall nice show lahx!!, everi of dem look so cool and handsome, deir driving technique oso super pro de worx!!..haha, funni and exciting..

-BaNd-

haha, it's about band agian!! hiax... the whole day in skool for band, so gt nthing to sae bt band agian.. it's realli better todae, hee.. maybe is becox baoxuan is dere?? hee, dere is somebody who can really laugh with me, hold my hand and jump around like mad!! lunch?? we had our lunch in a big big round table as a section!! for the 1st time bahx??.. realli hv fun laughing wif one another!! things are getting better when you are back in band!!..

-BaNd-

- band-?? a whole dae of band.. im realli realli tired of dat!! it has been wrong in the begining!! why has joanne chosen me?? if nt, i can be as normal as others, i dun hv to be in the 1st clarinet, i dun hv to be the s.l.. i dun hv to be aniting lyk dat, i may hv a chance to be in the 3rd.. hee!! bt all is wrong in the begining!!.. in band?? i hv always been suffering and suffering, trying to get wad is expected of me, trying trying trying... sometimes, it gets so tough dat i realli wanna cry.. to realli lean on somebody who listens. Yesh, sec 1: y.y?? realli realli makes me want to cry le, tears already in my eyes le, lucky dat time joanne came in time.. for resue, accompani do silly stuffs, we counted every holes in clarinet, press every holes in clarinet... she accompanied me run and run and run around the corridors juz becox i cant play some simple notes and rhythem! u noe how crazy is y.y?? ( u get 1 wrong notes, u run 1 round!).. so u can imagine i ran how mani rounds dere!! now in band?? is exactly the same things happening in punggol again!

why is she asking for so much?? i realli cannt cannt cannt mahx.. here in punggol is worse, far far worse den damai dere!! at least dere, when im sad.. somebody is dere for me! but now here, i realli realli feels tired, wanna cry.. nobodi is dere! looking around the whole room, couldnt see somebody dat realli can make me smile! ( baoxuan and frenzie arhx: pls come for band mahx!! one day without you is like one day without smile, i hv tasted it.. ) pls let us nvr nvr give up supporting each other, emotionalli and physicalli!! we need your support..i found comfort in you! who reali understands and listens..

-lOuSy DaY-

IM REALLI LOUSY!! IM A LOSER!! i cant do a single thing right.. my onli happi moment is onli dat few min at baoxuan house.. when we did our sista tok and sharing... at band?? i feel lyk a complete idiot of myself.. i dun wan to be wad sectional leader, wad librarian!! i dun even want to be in 1st clarinet!! can't i be juz a normal normal band member?? like bao xuan?? free of trouble and responsibility.. i want to run away!! i cant handle all... im such a stupid loser lorx, tiny tiny stuff oso cant do it!! cant even conduct a section as a sectional leader, wad kind of sectional leader is this!! a useless one.. how can a section look up to such a person??.. realli stupid lorx! hide away when supposed to be conducting... realli an idiot! but still muz thank rachel, jie qi, jia hui and bao xuan for dat little encouragement.. at least it makes me feel better!! thankie! i want be a normal normal band memeber, i dun wan any post any position any thing!! i wan tto be normal!... can i?

-MaLaYsIa-

HEe.. mAlAySiA, I duN Wan to be back singapore!!! i wanna stay dere longer.. i wish the time would stop dere, de moment little cousin fell asleep in my arms.. i miss him!! how i love this little cousin of mine.. the way he smile at you, the way he hold your hands and laugh with you, the way he takes care of you, the way he talks, walks, run, the way he sleep in you arms.. the smell of his hair, the touch of his soft skin... i miss his everything! i wish i can be dere to protect him to take care of him, to see him grow up!! i love little kids!the Indonesia Food Festival at Genting was so nice de lrox!!.. hee, i see every food, i take ( almost lahx) cox cannt resist the temptation mahx!! hee... but take so much cant onli eat veri little little niex, all becox of my irritating infection on my tongue.. can onli see see the food and drip my saliva, bt den cannt realli taste the food!! so poor thing!

wE wATch de mR. AND Mrs. smith.. i didnt expect it to be such a nice show lorx.. but den it turned out to be realli cool movie, haha.. cant keep my mind off the movie liao! the perfect couple!! so power and cool!!... high class!! hai.. i miss the most exciting part niex!! the ending?? can somebody pls pls tell me the ending?? i keep imaging the ending, how would it be like?? all sorts of stuff i hv thiink!!.. haha...

hAO tiNG!! I MISS YOU the most!! in the whole excusion!!.. i would nvr forget the way u hold my hands, the little hug dat u gave me.. the sweet sleep in my armx!! how i wish to be always be dere.. you are my comfort, melted my heart!!

-OvErsEa-

haha, dis few days we gt ' homework marathon' at baoxuan house niex.. everyday at least 4 hours of homework homework and homework!!.. but nevermind, spending time with her, doing such stuff i dun mind.. haha.. going oversea tml le,still gt so much stuff haven complete yet.. haha. so dun noe for the how many days could nt use computer.. no more updating til sunday le banx.. haha

- wOrK-

mY 1St worK For this june holiday niex.. " distribute flyers", haha.. at 1st thought would give tuition to dat boi boi once a week niex, bt dun tink hv dat time.. hai, never mind, here gt another job experience! 4th one!! haha.. collect collect!! hee, actually nt dat tiring after all, this is one of the simplest task, i dun hv to communicate with them, no rejection, no attitude, no complaint.. wow!! sweet and simple.. actually oso learn a short lesson today lahx, *( smile, and the world will smile with you!)*, *( if you reach out ur hand to try, there is a 50/50% chance, bt if u wait for ppl to reach their hand, the chances are onli 0.001%)*! two lessons! cool

- FrIeNdS-

so where is my place in your heart?? can we be friends?? a really true friends... although we hv known each other for almost 5 or 6 yrs lex, bt hv you treated me as a friend?? in the past, i hv been suffering under you, being bullied by you.. but as time goes by, i learnt to take things easy. i tried to take them as some stupid jokes, and laugh the matter off, i tried to be strong for most of the time.. " lan li de lan pi,lan li de pig head,lan li de pig, lan li de pentium one, lanli de lag, lan li sux, lan li de noisy, lan li de stupid, lan li de ah gua,lan li de clown." and the list goes on and on, like never ending... and do you know i can't always be that strong? when i get weak and soft, all these words really hurts.. you can say is i sensitive, but it all goes inside my heart..ALL!..hai, saddie.. am i only a clown to you all these years?? a clown for you to make fun of, a clown for you to laugh at??.. how can i be accepted as a friend to you?? how can i be respected??

i have always treated friends in school with good care, i respected them well..they are wad they call friends you can lean on when things go wrong.. but becox of you, kaser is following exactly the same things, calling me all those stupid names, i dun need them anymore!! i dun wan all these to be spread among all my school mates.. i treasure our respect for each other, i treasure our bond with each other. they are my friends.. i dun want to feel hurt and insulted by friends, can we be friends?? a good friends..

-cLaSs tEe-

Yoz.. 2B having a class tee leix!! pls pay up niex..$12.65( i know it sounds a bit day light robbery, but we cant cancel the any order now, we have already paid the deposit).. I dOtz kaser said she confirmed everybody okie with class tee, but now it seems nt like.. soRrIe, but class tee iznt a bad thing right?? $12.65 is worth a name frm 2B, all our 2B memories.. the fun, the troubles we hv been through as a class.. lets not leave out any one from our 2B family, lets stay friends forever!

- SuDdEn mEmOrY-

HAi, today is suppose to blog abt wad a busi and tired day we hv trying to find a manufacturer walking to north to east to north of singapore.. bt i never expect him to appear while i blogging dis entry..
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This nick of his??? i dun feel anything at all... i know this nick isnt for me anyway, no more anger, no more jealousy and no more sadness and pain.. it is in msn messenger that brings me back to him, it is also this msn messenger that tears us apart. how i wish, i wish i could just go back to dat dae, wonder what had went wrong that day, wonder did i do the right thing that day, maybe just a little change, our ending would be different... there had been alot of chances fly away, he had been asking pratically every day, but what did i said ??"dun noe"..

yes, of course i still miss him... i miss the times we had toghether(^^). it has change so much between us now, the silence, the lies are getting stronger..... can we nt be dat way please??

i promise myself: not to fall for any guy from messenger!! i hv learn frm my lesson.. they can sweet talk me, but they cant last...

-My TiMe-

woW.. i need my time!!! please please don't steal away my own time any more, i need a moment with myself, to think, to organise my stuff. there are too much things going on, although they are mostly fun stuff, but they are also tiring. both fun and work stresses out my mind and soul!! what i want is just a moment for myself to be alone, to just hv my time to slag a bit.. hai, can somebody please fulfil my this tiny, little wish?? thankie!

- NiCe MuSiC-

gee, today went to y.y de concert* SiNGAPORE WIND SYMPHONY*-youth winds in concert-!! sounds so cool rite?? hee, realli gotta a good chance to listen to good music.. It is reallli a nice band, with good sound( good tone+ good articulation= good sound). The French Horn player is soooo the powerful!! He can swept his sound across the concert hall, the clarinetist are so talented also... they can do realli fast running notes with good toungueing!!.. how i wish to be like one of them!!... im so inspired by their band, we got so much to learn from them!
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-Prelude to a New Era
-Marsch
-Irish Tune From Country Derry
-Song for a New Generation
-Sixth Suite For Band
-Invictus, The Unconquered
-Children Of Sanchez
-Let Me Entertain You}
-Puszta
- ( our own on- song)
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> To our band members: LeT'S coNTiNuE to StRiVe HaRd tO bEcoMe pRofEsSiOnaLs LiKe tHeM!

-Im So SoRrIe-

GeE, i gt so mani soRrIe To SaE.
1. ( HiM)- Im sorrie for deleting away my friendster blog. i dun wan you to remember our past, i want you to lead a life of happiness and joy... dis blog is nt meant for you animore, i hv transfer all our memory here, i realli cannot forget you.. it is realli a wonderful memory dat i shall nvr erase!

2.( ShErmIn, JuStIn, ElaIne)- although dis blog had been here for months, but its nt until now den i come and update, sorrie guyz to let you wait and tag empty bloggie.. by the way, thx for coming and tagging, i feel so touch niex... you are the onli ones who would wanna come tag empty bloggie(^^). my bloggie is done!!