-lOuSy DaY-

IM REALLI LOUSY!! IM A LOSER!! i cant do a single thing right.. my onli happi moment is onli dat few min at baoxuan house.. when we did our sista tok and sharing... at band?? i feel lyk a complete idiot of myself.. i dun wan to be wad sectional leader, wad librarian!! i dun even want to be in 1st clarinet!! can't i be juz a normal normal band member?? like bao xuan?? free of trouble and responsibility.. i want to run away!! i cant handle all... im such a stupid loser lorx, tiny tiny stuff oso cant do it!! cant even conduct a section as a sectional leader, wad kind of sectional leader is this!! a useless one.. how can a section look up to such a person??.. realli stupid lorx! hide away when supposed to be conducting... realli an idiot! but still muz thank rachel, jie qi, jia hui and bao xuan for dat little encouragement.. at least it makes me feel better!! thankie! i want be a normal normal band memeber, i dun wan any post any position any thing!! i wan tto be normal!... can i?