Joyce's Birthday AGAIN.

Happy Birthday Sissy Joyce! ACTUAL birthday(:

Mr. Michael Palmer, MP for Pasir Ris- Punggol GRC, even dropped by our house to shake her hands and wish her happy birthday!!! Just how precious is my little sister! When I told him I am 19, and she is 12, he reached out both of his hands and started counting the differences. LOL! Imagine if he was to visit Jun Lin and his brother? 10 fingers would not be enough.

Our Suggestions.

1. Nearer Bus Stop. (His guy from LTA took out his map to explained why it is not possible to have a bus stop at the Crescent itself. I had never thought of that)

2. More Lights. The Pathway from the bridge to home is simply unsafe. It's so narrow, dark and quiet.An ideal place for robbers, rapists and floating white figures to wait for their prey. ( OK! Definitely.)

3. More Buses. Especially a direct bus to Bedok. (His guy from LTA will look into it. Possible.) Pray hard it will come true someday soon(:

4. Cinema. - ( Possible but wait long long, only after Punggol area is developed.)

5. 24 Hour Eatery. ( Possible. Maybe the Macdonald at Rivervale Mall)

6. BBQ Pit. ( Highly Possible. His eyes beam with that idea)

That's the end of our conversation. With another handshake for my sister.

Hazel & Dom planned a Steam Boat dinner at my house(: Lovely.

Outbreaks

A Pimple Outbreak ):

When I look into the mirror, every dot is BIG. But when I look to the newspaper about the Swine Flu Outbreak, they seem BIGGER!

Mum,

Can you just stop your long chains of naggings?
It stings.

If you feel so troubled and difficult doing the chores.
Just leave it. No one is asking you to do.

There willl come to a point where we couldn't stand it. And we will helped ourselves with it. But now that your mess tolerance level lower than us. Then that's too bad for you. If you remember, we grew up in a mess.

I think you should save your breath for somethings more encouraging.
He need it. They need it. I need it.

Courage.

He is a young boy of 9 years old.

He toyed with his bubble gum from his mouth to his hand, from his hand to the air, from the air back to his mouth, with no disugst. But sitting less than one arm length away from him, we were totally disgusted by it. Who knows the next minute it will stick to my hair or my Grandpa's Merc?

This same young boy taught me courage.

He can have such strong refusal against everyone when we try to persuade him to just spit it out of the window. (Yay, even me. The "supposedly environmentalist" the "anti-global warming and saving our earth " kind) . He stood firm in his belief that littering is wrong. Although he may not be good in the mouth, he lose every arguments and reasonings with us, he still chose to do what he believes him and never compromise under pressure.

This is courage. He taught me with 0% of words, and 100% of action.

And this was my prayer. (2 weeks ago)

" Lord, give me the courage of this young cousin of mine. Having strong refusal to compromise to the believe I have, but Lord, grant me the courage to stop fearing the eyes fo man, but start the fear of the Lord for in 1 Sam 2:30." you have promised you will honour those who honour you." Lord, let me honour you with my decision and choices. Let me honour you with the courage to stand up for what I believe in, and that is You. To have the courage to stand up for you. For you did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline (2 Tim 1:7)"

To you: I want you to have the courage of my this little cousin. I pray that courage will go with you(:

This is the boy of courage. Max. (In blue)

Beloved Sister Joyce's Birthday

A little in-advanced birthday celebration for my little sister Joyce.
12 Years Old. A year to scribble the last few notes of her CHILDHOOD. I hope it's a lovely chapter of her life.

Joyce, the little princess of our household.

My family. With Qiu Xuan, Joyce's bestest friend for 6 years.

Thanks for Kok Guan's faithful guitar lessons and Alan's 1 minute of online msn guitar tutorial, I played a song for my sister(:

Sadly,blogger sucks at loading videos):

Queen of Majong

Today I met up with Wee Loon, Raishun, Wilson, Shie Chiat and Eric for dinner at Tampines. We sat down at a food court for dinner and had chit chats. Then we went exploring the new mall Tampines One.

After that, I went to Dom's house for Mahjong. A round with Hazel, Dom, and his parents. And this Hazel of mine is really lucky!!! Just when Dom is started nagging that we should leave before it was too late for last bus, Hazel responded " One last game."

And this is how the last game was played.

1. Hazel , the dealer, threw a dice of 12.
2. Hazel got a set of tiles with a flower.
3. Hazel got another flower on a flower draw.
4. Hazel drew another tile on the flower draw.
5. And that's it. She won.


That's what we called the Heavenly Hand. (天胡).

Wikipedia says: " This refers to the scenario where the winner, as the dealer, wins the round on the first turn (ie. with the tiles given after dealing and flower/animal replacement). Because of its rarity, this criterion is often awarded the limit no matter how many points is the limit"

Her cards.



My first time of seeing it in a real life!!!

And we are so amazed by it, that we started working out all kinds of possible combination of numbers for a 4D(:

And because the last game was so quick. We managed to catch our last bus home(: Thanks Hazel for the game, it's really an eye-opener!

Brothers

The most important person that I held dearly to my heart in this world is my brother.

I have not really shown it. Irritance often took over!! That's what BROTHERS are best at doing! Isn't it? But I'm still working on it. I feel the responsiblity to love them. If I don't, who will?

And I'm really really really proud and impressed to see my brother so motivated and determined about his studies. This is the first trace of seriousness I experience from him. And I'm really proud of him. I went out with friends late, he will wait till I'm home for that few question. If he accidentally fell asleep while waiting, he will pull me up next morning at 6 before he goes to school.( It is irritating of him to steal my precious moments of sleep with some algebra or trigo or whatever it is.). Sometimes I will get so annoyed that I just shot him with " I don't know! Leave the question aside first for your tuitor!!" but the actual fact is that I have not really taken a glance at it. I thank God for his PATIENT tuitor Nicholas(: admire!

I bought him a dictionary for his birthday 2 years back. Maurice said it was a bad idea. I still did anyway. And now I see him uses it everyday, I felt that I was right of buying it 2 years back.

Here it is.





He is truely deserving of this determination award.(: I am the witness.

I love you. Not your grades, but YOU.

Immidiate Joy

I typed the message of like 2 or 3 pages along. And I knew that I have to send it out. I just couldn't keep it within me. But the question is WHO?

Names flashed through my mind. Hazel. Jinshui. Yu Jie.Meixian. Nigel. Raishun. Chaimin and the list goes on. I realise your name don't just appear automatically like before anymore. And similarly, I guess my name is already being replaced by your important someone. Any excited news, fuming comments, complaints and worries from you they either never reach me at all or comes second handed. No more immidiate news.

I know you love to play double dates. I used to.

1. you got to spend time with your girlfriend.

2. you don't have to pay so much attention to your girlfrend because somebody else will.

You can play it with Jaslyn, you can play it with Yishan but not with me. I don't need any "part-time boyfriends" if that's what you call it.

What's the effect of silence on human relation?

"Embarrasement." One of the lines from Tuesday with Morrie. I finished the book, Morrie's lessons are inspiring, but what really moves me is the attitude and positivity in this dying old man. I am now moving on to " The last lecture" by Randy Pausch, another book introduced by Yujie. I think this is the year that passion for reading return.

Joyce's and Jeevan's NTU friend is crazy! I only mentioned that I lived in Sengkang. He figured out that I lived in Rivervale Crest, even with the block number and alphebet behind! And he did by wild guess, first try. (though he didnt manage to get the floor number right) I asked how he did that. His answer was " because there's a recycle bin somewhere near." LOL!! And I didn't even knew that we have a recycle bin nearby after living for 6 years here! Yep. This is my new lunchmate(:

I dreamed a dream.

Susan Boyle, 47. One really impressive woman. Truely Awesome singing from Britain's got Talent 2009! I dreamed a dream.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY (MUST WATCH!)
I wanted to blog her video, but failed for 3 long attempts.

I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used,
And wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung,
No wine untasted.

But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hopes apart
As they turn your dreams to shame.

And still I dream he'll come to me
And we will live our lives together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms We cannot weather...

I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seems
Now life has killed The dream I dreamed.

Excuse me, are you a model?

BE Bold.

BE Pure.

BE Real.
BE Patient.

And I realise, I will lose 75 marks if you marked me on this. This makes me a failure.

But Lord, tell me. This isn't what I will be, give me a pinch of hope. I want to be like them, not looking down to mourn but looking up and smile. And you know the absolute reason to why they smile.

deviantart.com

2B- Punggol Sec Meet up

Friday evening, I met up with my secondary school friends at Compasspoint Pizza Hut for dinner. All of us seated on the long table, and had long gossips and cathing ups !! And ghim siang was spicing all things up by his endless and weirdest theories of relationships. A good advice would be to laugh out loud and shit them out with the pizzas the next day. Meet up more often! I feel like we were seeing each other only like once in a year, for yunjie is like I haven't seen her at all since graduation.

thanks to shermin, elaine, yunjie, kaserin, huishan, ghim siang, ju siang, daniel, chin zhi, chee yong, baoxuan (that's hazel!) for making this day(:

Perdonare.

You taught me the meaning of perdonare. But you didn't teach me how.

I finished " for one more day" today, very nice. Depressing story(: Now am moving on to "tuesday with morrie".

Thanks Kim Zui for the today's lunch at Hougang Point. And thanks for Alicia for dating me for lunch, and thanks for cowcow for the book. My addiction(:

Mitch Albom

Heh! Thanks to Jeevan and Joyce! I found new lunch mates! Proudly introduce Sir Bernerd from NTU, and one more NTU guy, and Alicia from RJC [ Attached to NEA till June(:]. We had our usual extended lunch at Tan Tock Seng Hospital today, my last meal with my beloved Meixian, Joyce and Jeevan! I miss you.

Cow lent me the book "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom. It's nice. I finish 3/4 of the book within one day. I wonder why people like to portray mother's love as so great. Hazel do, in her secondary school chinese compo, she will write amazing motherly love stories that would be publized in school collection. Kim Shui can say " My mum is the most beautiful woman I know". Adam Khoo made all of us cry (a bunch of sec 4 teens, both guys and girls) by telling how great is our mum, how hard they have been through to bring us up. Everyone cried. And so I did, but is more out of self-ptiy, because I don't understand why I don't see any of these in my mum, while everyone else felt so touch by it.I don't see the kind of sacrifical love all have described. All I see is a calculative mum. A calculation of how I can be useful to her.

Anyway, it's a great book.

I need money. Im checking for my mailbox for signs of my pay cheque everyday.

Lunch Mates

Especially thanks to Meixian - CPG ( Novena), Joyce and Jeevan- NEA (Newton) for being my faithul lunch partner!! I love it when the lunch bell rings. I love it when I get to eat with my friend and chit chatted abit, from stories to jokes to complaints to gossips. All sorts. I love it when we auto- extend our lunch time to an hour and half. I just love them.

From next week onward, they will be back to school. I am so gonna to miss them!! Who is going to by my lunch partner, the silentness of the laptop is killing me. 8 hours work day in Newton office, I had only handphone to practice what's call "communication" and the few minutes where I get to meet my supervisor to sign attendance.

Really, thanks to all my friends!! I love you guys(:

Maybe, tomorrow will be my last day experiencing this previledge call "companion". I will really miss this few lunch dates I had with you all ):

Why do I even bother to look at the artificial vase of orchid?

Because I cant help it. I will approach you barefooted, bent down and smell your plastic petals. Then push you down the window, hear the crashing of the broken vase. And there you are, united with the soil. That is where you should be.

I, will climb into the green window back into my room, lie on my bed in my green dress. Smile to the ceiling and have a good sleep without the nightmare that you used force upon me.

I WANT YOU AND DONT WANT YOU. AT THE SAME TIME

When you don't come, I think about you.Worrying if there's anything wrong, everyday hoping for you to come.

And now you came, I complaint about you. You gave that kind of unbearable pain that I wish you were not here.

This is woman's irony. A monthly issue.

Grandpa's 67th Birthday!

First, I shall give Hazel and Dom a million thanks for sending me there. I'm right about my idiotic sense of direction, Golden Mile is just a such a complicated way to go.

Hazel's token of a Lollipop, and her Dad's Ang Pao blessing to bid me bon voyage(: That's just so sweet of them.

ALMOST everyone was here. Except the twinny, Felice and Raydon who were stuck in Singapore because both of them are infected with Hand-Foot- Mouth disease just few days before departure.

Happy birthday Grandpa!! We had 2 tables of close relatives, but beside us were 9 tables of friends of relatives of this old granny who was celebrating her "DA SHOU", the dynamic of celebration was really different. And we started discussing how should we celebrate granpa's "DA SHOU" next time, then he just came up with an absurd idea of booking an entire plane, and celebrating it in the midst of the flight. My grandpa can be really creative. But, wait. I will turn this ideality into reality one day when I grew rich!

Timothy sent me a letter yesterday.

I'll be leaving for Malaysia for my granpa's birthday in another 2 hours time!! My family left with my uncle in the morning and I had to take the coach myself there. Night bus leaving at 10.45 and reaching around 5 a.m. Such a caring mum huh?? >.< Kidding. It's because there isn't much options left.

I am really kind of worried. More worried of my blurrness and the idiotic sense of direction, and the fear and relunctance to open my mouth to ask. I really admire people like Qian Fang and Hannah, I wonder how they can be so independent and manage everything so well on their own in a foreign land.

LUCKY! I've got good friends, Hazel and Dom who are going to see me off till I board the bus(: REALLY THANKSS!! Sometimes, I feel that they are the only few ones who will take practical actions to offer the comfort rather than just talking about it in the mouth. Thanks Dear>.< MY FOREVER DEAR.

define our friendship. dear. can you?

Tuesday, David Achuleta is in town! He had an autograph session at Bugis' new mall, Iluma. And thanks to Nick's craze over him, I finally managed to meet up with my poly friends!!! Haha, it has been like what? 5 weeks! Misses~~

While Nick and friend went screaming with the fans and waited 3 hours for his precious handshake and signature, all of us went Fish & Co. for a good dinner!

Nick's hard sweat and time to get this shot (: I love this boy's songs.

thanks for the day: Jeevan, Jeremy, Weiyi, Khai, Nick, YiZi, JunLin. (Geraldina, Felicia, Meixian and Cathrine)!!

THE LYRICS CAME TO LIFE.

Sunday I met Yujie to find her earpiece. LOL! I need favour from her too(: When are you going to remember to lend me the book (the series from " the 5 people you meet in heaven")? and lend me the guitar tuner????? Haha.The first thing I'm going to buy after I get my first pay will be a guitar tunner.

Then met Hazel my darling to sing kbox at night! Thanks for her sissy's treat(: I think this is the first time I really scream my lungs out. I think Hazel will be the only one who have the "previlege" to hear this loud and ugly voice. Don't know if she's consider lucky or unlucky?

The lyrics, every words, they just make sense.

PASAR MALAM.

Saturday was Pasar Malam Day! LOL! I'm as facinated as the kids by the cute and colorful little stationaries, toys and snacks, especially the Ariel Notebook!

Normal tongue Vs Raishun's monster tongue (from the monster sweets she reward herself from the Pasar Malam goodies!)

You are the pair of red Louis Vuitton boots that she saw

Friday Dr. Katayon paid us a visit at the Envi building with Mr Koh and Mdm Cheng. Heh, the attachment is going smoothly, there isn't any complaint from our S.O. Reports will be dued in 1 1/2 months time. Hais, just how am I going to write about all the administrative work that I am doing and will be doing for the next 2, 3 weeks?? Please inspire me with words.

I had lunch with Kian Seng at Far East(one bus stop away) before heading to the NIKE at Shaw House to pay Charlene a short visit(: "that woman" is doing well there!

After work I met my gold friends at Orchard again. Yay, from now onwards, to save the time and energy I will just convert the names of Beverly, Charlene, Chai Min, Solphine, Cherry, Jia Rong ++ to 2 words." GOLD FRIENDS". BEVERLY and CHARLENE is WEIRD ~~

I felt the numb on my fingers once again.

I practiced the guitar today(: After loosing its touch for 2 whole months or 3 since the series of unfortunate events started. Because the guitar is all about you, the guilt, shame, frustrations and misery have robbed me of the strength to pick it up. Today, I found the familiar numbness of my finger tips again. But it's rusty and out of tune!! I need a tunner to tune it right again. Hais! I want a tuner!!

Attachment is now all about data entries, sorting out files, fillings! I faced the whole series of numbers and numbers, papers and files. They are driving me to sleep, driving me nuts, driving me to anti-socialism. Overall, it's a total boredom! I hope the finalisation and billings can be quickly completed and I can move out of this place soon.

Happy April Fool's Day

After work, I met with Charlene, Beverly, Solphine for movie at the Bugis new shopping centre iluma. Confession of a Shopaholic(: I love it! The story it's abit like the Devil wears Prada, but much more comical. I really admire the friendship between Rebecca and Suze, just remindes me so much of Hazel, I hope we can be like them! So heart-warming! Crazy, fun-loving and a soul mate!

And Rebecca's situation just reminds me of my problems. So what if you are capable and many people are looking up to you, hoping for more of you?? All these reputations and image will just one day fall to the pit by the secrets you have been trying to hide. Somebody will be there to exposed it.

Because she had chosen the wrong dress, she almost lost her friendship with Suze.

But what's different of her from me is that, she has got the courage to salvage back what is lost. She can give up all that she is. Her desires and her addiction, even to the extent of her green scarf. But can I? Can I give up all that I want? Do I just have that determination like her? I need the support just like her shopaholic anonymous group friends.




Happy April Fool. You have fooled me. Tell me it's just an april fool joke, and you did not and did not and did not. I need some self- rehabilitation at the island of Madagascar.