i hate you i hate you i hate you. totally hates you now!
"you are going to get breast cancer."
you are too much okiie?!!
"cause you wear bra to sleep"
your words just make my heart boils.
"i dont want you ready"
dirty all over!.
"cause you wear bra at night."
i hate to ever think about the word. because i fear it. my imagination dont allow me to.
"im your boyfren and i care for you."
you+ i= forever.
"so what am i suppose to do? to listen to you because you CARE?"
if one day, i was to break with you- you know why.
"you are making my love "dirty" than "pure and innocent" "
if one day, you was to break with me- i know why too.
"im not somebody sexy, neither am i somebody hot. i dont let you touch."
love maurice=)
hate maurice
Sunday, July 29, 2007
secrets
you are so mysterious. everything is a secret. it isnt funny at all.
i dont really know who are you. i dont really understand you.
you know what kind of people is the scariest people? it is those who hide everything within themselves, the "opaque man", i shall call it.you wore a musk and hide yourself in a place where nobody really knows. i cant predict you anymore. an angel and a monster in one. one moment you are the sweetest angel in my life, the next moment you turn into a monster that eat and kill. teach me how to know you?
many a times, you just get angry with me. i dont know why. simply no idea. yet ur silence refuse to reveal a single word. guess guess guess?? whats the point of guessing if there isnt going to be any answer anyway? i hate to say "sorry"- especially when i dun noe wad am i "sorry" of. i hate seeing this cycle repeats and repeats itself over and over again.
teach me what to do?
teach me.
love maurice.
i dont really know who are you. i dont really understand you.
you know what kind of people is the scariest people? it is those who hide everything within themselves, the "opaque man", i shall call it.you wore a musk and hide yourself in a place where nobody really knows. i cant predict you anymore. an angel and a monster in one. one moment you are the sweetest angel in my life, the next moment you turn into a monster that eat and kill. teach me how to know you?
many a times, you just get angry with me. i dont know why. simply no idea. yet ur silence refuse to reveal a single word. guess guess guess?? whats the point of guessing if there isnt going to be any answer anyway? i hate to say "sorry"- especially when i dun noe wad am i "sorry" of. i hate seeing this cycle repeats and repeats itself over and over again.
teach me what to do?
teach me.
love maurice.
a poor organiser
self-control. im losing that.
simple signs from the alarm clock- the snooze button goes for hour. sometimes it "didnt ring at all". - i dont know is whether i off it, and forgot it. or it really never ring.
i let my body do what it wants to do instead of what my mind want to do.- my body feels totally worn out, tired and restless. my mind tell me "go bath first, then rest well". in the end i still couldnt control: fell into a totally uncomfortable sleep with my jacket on, earrings with necklaces.
piorities- i know which is the most important thing- God, study, fun, work. in my mind, i know what should come first, what should go behind. what is important and what can wait. however, i just dont have the self-control to execute them. in the end, it wents totally upside down and becomes fun, study, work and God.
my procrastination is mainly due to the lack of self control.
work on it!
simple signs from the alarm clock- the snooze button goes for hour. sometimes it "didnt ring at all". - i dont know is whether i off it, and forgot it. or it really never ring.
i let my body do what it wants to do instead of what my mind want to do.- my body feels totally worn out, tired and restless. my mind tell me "go bath first, then rest well". in the end i still couldnt control: fell into a totally uncomfortable sleep with my jacket on, earrings with necklaces.
piorities- i know which is the most important thing- God, study, fun, work. in my mind, i know what should come first, what should go behind. what is important and what can wait. however, i just dont have the self-control to execute them. in the end, it wents totally upside down and becomes fun, study, work and God.
my procrastination is mainly due to the lack of self control.
work on it!
Thursday, July 19, 2007
the tears of the poison apple.
do you think apples cry??
nope. " a cutter never cry". thanks for the poison apple. thanks for that kiss on the apple. it is bravery!!
haii. projects overlaod.
just screw up the IS project presentations. late late late, how many times have we reminded you not be late especially on this important day?? we call to check you in the morning, you said you are reaching yet are still late by an hour plus. this is not the first time. you went MIA for most of our meetings and interview sessions, saying that its okie you will do the video editing. in the end, you never come, and the videos left undone. efforts wasted.
i dun want to make comment. no comment to make. its the trust, the responsiblity and the attitude.
just the difference in our working style.
i nerd, noob and toot.
nope. " a cutter never cry". thanks for the poison apple. thanks for that kiss on the apple. it is bravery!!
haii. projects overlaod.
just screw up the IS project presentations. late late late, how many times have we reminded you not be late especially on this important day?? we call to check you in the morning, you said you are reaching yet are still late by an hour plus. this is not the first time. you went MIA for most of our meetings and interview sessions, saying that its okie you will do the video editing. in the end, you never come, and the videos left undone. efforts wasted.
i dun want to make comment. no comment to make. its the trust, the responsiblity and the attitude.
just the difference in our working style.
i nerd, noob and toot.
Friday, July 13, 2007
i lurveee you all!
God. i love you.- your are my everything.
music. i love you.- you are my passion.
children. i love you- i lurve to see you jump and shout and scream. i love to see you sing and dance. i love to see you enjoy your life to the fullest, innocent and pure.
maurice. i love you- emmm. sercret.
hazel. i love you- i love your rosey cheeks. i love your honesty and transparency. i love the friendship between us.
books. i love you- i love to immerse in the imagination you set me in.
sleep. i love you- i love to throw away everything and just be empty.
food. i love you- i love the taste i love to try new things.
drawings. i love you- i love to guess the painter behind you- even if i never got the answer
contact lens. i love you- i love my naked eyes.- the burden of the specs.
i love you alll!!!!. yet i dont have time for you all. such an irony. wait. im fighting time for you all.
" patient"- be patient wif mi.
music. i love you.- you are my passion.
children. i love you- i lurve to see you jump and shout and scream. i love to see you sing and dance. i love to see you enjoy your life to the fullest, innocent and pure.
maurice. i love you- emmm. sercret.
hazel. i love you- i love your rosey cheeks. i love your honesty and transparency. i love the friendship between us.
books. i love you- i love to immerse in the imagination you set me in.
sleep. i love you- i love to throw away everything and just be empty.
food. i love you- i love the taste i love to try new things.
drawings. i love you- i love to guess the painter behind you- even if i never got the answer
contact lens. i love you- i love my naked eyes.- the burden of the specs.
i love you alll!!!!. yet i dont have time for you all. such an irony. wait. im fighting time for you all.
" patient"- be patient wif mi.
Sunday, July 01, 2007
sorries
there is so much sorries that i want to say.
sorry God for not spending time with you at ALL. ever since the start of the poly life, i have been struggling to cope with new life, and i used all the busy schedules of the poly as an excuse for not spending time with you. but you have still been so good to me, all the blessings that you've given me. i love you.
sorry maurice for whatever has happened. although i dun really know what has happened, but i know that the reason is because of me. all the "dun noe", " see how", and "up to you" really cast me down. but you have been so good to me, sacrificing your desire for me. i love you.
sorry hazel for not spending enough time with you. again and again, i said i wanted to go out with you, yet there's always something pops up that makes me to reject our dates. i know i had disappointed you so many times that makes you to loose trust in me. but you have been so good to me, whenever im sad and confused, you are still always there right beside me.
sorry my family for not spending enough time in the house. day by day, my chores accumulated, because im always out very early in the morning and back home very late at night. some of the days i didnt even come home at all, due to camps and retreats. you have been helping me with my chores all the while. now we seldom have a proper dinner time when everybody sits down and eat and chat and share like the way we used to have. joyce, every week i see you lesser and lesser no. of hours: i really want to spend just that little half and hour to learn "entertainment" from you. my brothers: i really wish i can do my part as a good sister, to help you with your school work and start to watch over you for the no. of hours you spend on computers, the type of frens and activities you did outside. but you have been so good to me, always there to encourage me and assist me in areas where i need help.
maurice love naomi ever
(by hazel. thanks)
sorry God for not spending time with you at ALL. ever since the start of the poly life, i have been struggling to cope with new life, and i used all the busy schedules of the poly as an excuse for not spending time with you. but you have still been so good to me, all the blessings that you've given me. i love you.
sorry maurice for whatever has happened. although i dun really know what has happened, but i know that the reason is because of me. all the "dun noe", " see how", and "up to you" really cast me down. but you have been so good to me, sacrificing your desire for me. i love you.
sorry hazel for not spending enough time with you. again and again, i said i wanted to go out with you, yet there's always something pops up that makes me to reject our dates. i know i had disappointed you so many times that makes you to loose trust in me. but you have been so good to me, whenever im sad and confused, you are still always there right beside me.
sorry my family for not spending enough time in the house. day by day, my chores accumulated, because im always out very early in the morning and back home very late at night. some of the days i didnt even come home at all, due to camps and retreats. you have been helping me with my chores all the while. now we seldom have a proper dinner time when everybody sits down and eat and chat and share like the way we used to have. joyce, every week i see you lesser and lesser no. of hours: i really want to spend just that little half and hour to learn "entertainment" from you. my brothers: i really wish i can do my part as a good sister, to help you with your school work and start to watch over you for the no. of hours you spend on computers, the type of frens and activities you did outside. but you have been so good to me, always there to encourage me and assist me in areas where i need help.
maurice love naomi ever
(by hazel. thanks)
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