- happie bdae-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! SHERMIN turns 15 on this dae.. hope you will hv all your wishes come true, may u hv the most blessed birthdae ever!!! smile....

wahaha.. im saving these few daes for the big FOP coming up next saturdae.. no matter wad, i would'nt miss it!!! even if it means telling white lies to mummi!! no way, im gonna to miss it! i wun let anybody spoil my dis great dae! it's gonna be the greatest event im hoping forward.. with my crazy friends, cell members.. wahx!! i can't wait to spent the whole night messing around with them, most impt in the presence of YOU!!! i want to feel you...

[wiLL u sTil GivE mi a ChanCE foR waT i dId to u iN thE pAsT?i wIsh We cAn sTarT oVEr]
guardien angel says: i dun hope dat the " u" to be me, i juz hope that you could be happie.. you will get her back de!! hope you can pass dat test of yours!! to prove yourself, you are not a flirt, you are someone who is special...

-MARIA!!!-

haha, im becoming a philipino maid todae!!! can you belive it?? earli in the morning, gt to serve the class, the madm nt veri happie coz i walking too slow... in the afternoon, gt to serve baoxuan.. cooked mee goring for her, the madm nt very satisfied oso, washed up the dishes for her, bt i think the madm very happy with my todae's performance!!! give me a cheeze den sent me back to philipine!! whaha... later gonna eaten by brother andy!! haha...

thinking of tml band den sianx ready!!! i dun wan to get involved in any scores scores thing!! making me headache onli lorx!! im going crazy.. 5-7 scores lei, without cooperations frm the commitee.. wahhaha!! haix.. onli if im free of trouble and responsibilities!!! i dream..

-AnOtHeR fRiEnD fOuNd-

im so glad to hear from elena dat she can really relate to me!!! yea, i walked her home todae from baoxuan house to punggol den frm punggol walked back senkang (my home), and we talk all the way, and get to know her quite a bit more.. i owaes thought dae she would hate me de leix, maybe because during band... im almost complaining to her every seconds!!, i thought she would get sick and tired of me.. annoyed by me or wad de?? bt instead, we turn out quite well.. we actualli talk quite a bit on the way home..

our school team robotics: jia you worx!! take another chaimpionship back for our school.. wahaha, another honour and pride!! do your best okie??

leave me alone!!!

-cloThES-

wahhaa.. todae at baoxuan house gonna force by her to try clothes.. well, found out one thing!! wearing clothes? it's not as simple as people think!! it needs quite alot of things.. [CONFINDENCE, ATTITUDE/CHARACTER, FIGURE] hee.. gt ranking the horx!! haha, and found out dat i actualli gt zero out of the three! whaha... and we updated together a bit on our sistar bloggie.. it's realli fun, we shared about our past memories from a stranger to a sista.. and it's nt realli easy things, we went through so much toghether.. ( for more information, pls visit our sistar blog!!)

after, yesterdae's crying.. yea, i learnt one thing about myself!! acutally im also quite a spoilt ger.. i'm not spoilt for being wanting materials thing, not the physical stuffs, if i dun get upset if i cant get my mp3, or cd player or wad.. i'm realli spoilt for freedom!! i do get realli angry and upset,when i can't get my freedom.. i want to go wherever i want to go, meet whoever i want to meet, well.. it's my life after all!! i can't stand ppl restricting me here and there.. maybe, it's because of the way i grow up bahx.. i do everything by myself, i plan everything my ownself, i dun get ppl to disrupts it, i dun get ppl to control me, bt now... yea, now i learnt to grow up bahx, no more a kid who crys for whatever he wants , bt a young ppl who learnt to earn respect, and trust to fight for freedom.. yea! i want to grow up!! how i wish i am 21 now!!

- SundAy, my meeting dae with God-

well.. muz sae im sorry Lord for being absent for our meeting, my reason: the same old one!!

people: dun sae that im a saddie, instead, show me the way to a brighter thinking..

todae went ntuc to market for mummi coz her back pain.. whhaha, long long time nvr had a nice tour around ntuc le, almost take 1 1/2 hour to buy all the stuff!! later,went out with bao xuan to top up card, to buy new school shoe and sher's birthdae presents and take neo prints.. whahaha, i like taking neoprints with her alone, at least we dun fight for the screen like others, we get a chance to decorate and get a fair share.. hee, sistar forever!! yea, our sistar blog is coming up!! visit us at www.sistarever.blogspot.com!! remember to drop a msg for us.. im so exicted abt this..

-DeAr BlOgGiE-

Dear bloggie,
you are suppse to be my story keeper, to keep all of my story, all of my events.. bt sorrie dat i've made you into a soul keeper instead, to keep all my feelings, all my emotions.. why?? it's easy to tok abt happy events to everybody, even to 'not so close' friends, so i've forgotten to tell bloggie you.. bt when it comes to complicated things such as feelings- anger, sadness, sorrow, confusion etc.. whom can i turn to?? no more venting my anger on others, who will listens, who will care?? well, i dun noe... i dun wan to bottled things up in myself, so where can i truely be myself to express it?? well, bloggie.. dat's you!! so you've gt so much of those unplesant stuff, i have change you skin now, hope you will look as cheerful and bright on the outer appearance bahx!!

haix.. so nobody stand by me, everybody pointing finger at me.. ronnie, physically sitting in my "group"( suppose to support me) went on and on "nagging" at me just like the others!! juz wanna tell you, if you are with dem, den you go sit with dem, nt by my side!! kok guan, toking to me alone.. so it's all about those stuff?? saying i mixing with bad company or wad?? and the announcement you made are just shooting right into me!! saying "it's defeating the purpose of coming to church,", " dun mix with bad company", "just do wad your parents said"... wahx!! wad is all of these lorx, sometimes i juz feel like " well, must well as dun go church at all the best??!!, like dis, i wun hv to upset my mum, i wun hv to cause so much unhappiness for dem..it's juz like all in one!! izint dat the best?"..and i realli wanna tell you lorx, dey are not bad companies, dey are my FRIENDS okie?? wad " im being brain-washed by the ppl in church?",well.. im not lrox, it's my free will to go dere to find my comfort to find my joy lorx.. you tink wad??

JeSus: i love you.. why is it so hard to remain in you?? why is dere so much of things dat prevents me getting closer and closer with you?? i really want to know more about you, to learn about you, why do i not even have a chance.. sometimes, i feel like being so close and so close with you till the state where i found dat i can't stand in your presence because you are too holy.. yet sometimes, i wonder where are you, you feel so far so far away frm me.. like now!can you pls pls pls help me clear all these trouble?? show me the way to you..

-another entry-

haha.. todae too many things happening le arhx.. haha, juz another entry for todae bt a short one i think, todae skool gt the " i love punggol" carnival run by the sec 2, i realli wanna go support dem de lorx, to support the skool too.. bt den gt band todae too, so the whole gang of us realli wanna skip band de lorx.( elena, baoxuan, mi , vera).. haix, bt den the 3 great major frm band come down catch us niex.. whahahaha, den of cuz gonna caught lor, haha.. wahx, still threathen to punish us, to pump us or wad de, den still "bao dou" us to miss ten, wahahah.. no choice go to go up le.. at 1st still very scared scared de, so requested a huggie frm jia hui to cool me down, den she volunteer to sent us up.. hee, at 1st dot ms ten would face black black one and sure scold us de.. bt den so surprised de, we juz greeted her and she said nth.. not a single questioning, no scolding, no punishment, nothing... so surprised!! whaha.. so the wole section onli gt the 4 of us + jia jing.. so happie to hear dat we gonna to hv another music exchange, with bedok green.. haix, hope can met some pri skool frends dere bahx, how i wish we can hv a music exchange with DAMAI!! i miss the band mates dere.. i miss everybody dere!!

- A dae Of parting-

first.. bao xuan: you can start to prepare me a glass coffin le, i drank a cup of bubble tea todae!! whaha..den muz sae gud bye to mr chua le, *sob sob*.. muz sae he is realli a good teacher lor,( although he dun teach me), bt he gave me moral support, listens to me and guide me, being a frinedly and approachable teacher, well.. maybe the first cher whom i share almost everytihng bahx?? every idea, every confusion, every memorable event..haha, there is a period of time when i realli share EVERYTHING with him niex, cheers me up when i feel down, answer all my questions, and teach me to look on the brighter side of life. haha,, the most memorable was when i realli realli feel upset and stupid abt myself for being such a useless SL, i realli feel like crying and screaming all over, i expected him to sae sth to remove dat feeling off me, maybe" it's onli the start, you will get use to it de" or maybe "dun feel so bad abt it" all sorts lahx, bt know wad he said?? " glad you know it!"... wahx, after hearing this oso dun noe how to react anymore, dun noe to laugh or to cry, whahaa...( hope he wun read dis, abit oso mushy-mushy.. )

well, partings?? i hate it.. i realli hate it!! i remembered..
- many many years ago, when my mummi parted me, i cried for two daes; without sleep, without much food and drink,(although daddy and granny inisited i shuld eat somehing, bt i juz lost dat appitite) two full dae and night of tears..
-2000, when i parted with daddy and granny to go singapre, agian i cried.. wad am i suppose to do?? do i realli hv to made a choice btw dem?? maybe datz y i dun lyk making choices, im afraid of making the wrong choice.. im nt even sure if coming to singapore was a right choice.. the disappointment, the sadness is all shown in their eyes,how can i ever forget dat?
-2002, when i leave damai..i have onli been dere for six months, i dun expect anyone to do anything for me, after all,im nt realli the kind of popular ones in the class,im nt those pretty ones either, 6 months of friendship, how strong can dat be? yet dey do sth so sweet for mi.. the whole class , and i mean the whole class of 40 ppl and the teacher stay back after skool to bring me a surprise! with my best friend, holding my hand side by side, dey sang me " friends forever".. with voices in unity, we cried, together we cried..

" and as we go on, we remember, all the times we had together; and as our lives change, come what ever, we will still be friends forever"

many many partings in life, we've gt to look forward..mr chua, you've gt to be a good teacher again in your new skool worx!!

-we ArE sIsTa-

If we hold on together.. yes, of course we will hold on together!! we are never gonna to fall apart de.. okie?? no matter wad, we are gonna to hold on toghether and endure them through, we are the best sista ever!! haha.. todae realli spent a nice time with you leh, i realli enjoy the time when we eat together, share together, do work together and especailly when we are singing songs together.. whaaha, sing until window broke le still like dun care, sing like bird, sing like choir, sing like opera, sing like ghost.. all sorts of singing. out of tune, in tune.. we dun care, the most important thing is that we enjoy ourselves. loads.. datz all... we laugh like crazy, at ourselves, at each other, at almost everything.. bao xuan, thx for being my guood sista!!

-sKoOl AtTeNtIoN-

HAHA, bao xuan and i are gonna to study hard!! no more play play, no more lame excuses for ourselves le.. i now gt listen in class le leix, or at least trying lahx ( coz dat chemistry no matter try how hard oso dun noe wad is dat?? ever since frm the 1st chapter bahx).. haix, too much distraction le, where is my attention?? haha.. you make me miss you so much, thinking of you every moment, waiting for you, hoping for you, all of my soul, my mind and all of my heart is wiht you, even though i opened up a book, all i can see and think is still you, you and you alone.. i hope you dont do the same thing as me,being so stupid and silly..you've gt your national exam coming up, you've gt to go to good colledge, you've gt so much so much thing to put your attention on!.. im not gonna to let dis affect you and me, our future ahead! we've gt to look far.. haha, i still muz thank bao xuan for all this inspiration, to motivate me!! hee..

-sUnDaY SeRVicE-

HAix.. i wanna attend sunday service!! bt mummi dun allow, sob sob.. haix, my lunch with bev dey all gone case le, my time with Him shorten le.. wahaha.. i muz be a good testimonial to my mum!! i muz show her that knowing Him is the best thing in this world, and He changes my life to the good and the pleasing.. hee, morning is already felt realli bad after being banned by her nt going to church, haix.. hope that later on, going for fiesta concert at botanic garden would be great, the weather would be fine, everybody would enjoy themselves! ( too bad, he din go.. how i wish he would be there too) haix.. nvm!! juz wish would hv a fun time later on, heex!

- sPeEcH dAy-

wow!! todae is the speech day le lei!! whaha.. i'm glad dat everything went smoothly.. the weather is juz perfect!! when it is almost gonna to rain, we are hving parade downstairs, soo cooling, so nobody fainted too!! hee, den when it started to rain, we were already up dere in the concert hall... so it doesn't really affects our procedures!! so thx the Lord.. hee, den very surprise dat at the end of our band performance, we've gt a realli good response from the audience!! loud loud clap lei!! haha, dun noe the one sitting beside me during prize giving gt clap for us mahx?? haha, during rehearsal say wad our band can " da han" onli.. haha, hope every one realli enjoy this speech day!! i know yang tuo realli like our band performance veri much worx!! saying our spongebob squarepants very cute bt too bad din get a chance to shake hands with him, and band is like the best performers of all, haha!! so happie todae..

-my BiRThdae-

haix, dey almost make me wanna to cry le.. esp when ju siang and danny bought me dat big big winnie the pooh bear, i see shermin and elaine cry, it makes me wanna to cry too.. i din noe guys can be that touching too, i din expect dem to give me such things or can sae i din expect anything from them, yet they give the cutest present of all.. thx jusiang and danny!! u are really my friend.. oso dun noe wad happens todae, actualli alot alot ppl veri veri fun de lrox, it doesnt matter where we eating or wad we eat, wad's imprt is that we spent time toghether with each other mahx, eating long john silver can be as fun as eating pastamania or pizza hut.. it doesnt matter! bt den in the end we go in separate ways, haix.. so sad de lorx, if we juz give in abit abit, less complaints and everything would be perfect!!and thx for the card and the bag from all cell group! i read everi little alphebet and every little full stop dere.. they are so touching, they make me feel so loved and appreciated, every little blessings..thankyou to the cell group!! hee... pls dun be so good to me mahx, i realli feel like crying le.. tears of joy, tears of apreciation in my heart( die die oso cannt let ron see i want to cry)!!

-A good Saturdae-

i realli realli enjoy myself todae!!.. frm the begining till de end of the dae!! the morning rehersal went quite well, EXCEPT for marching part bahx? hee, can't realli memorize the score oso, out of the so many marching pieces, i onli can memorize 1 without fault.. hee, den keep gonna said by ms ten lorx, dun noe i nt loud enough or wad bhax? haix, roystan din come todae, if nt sure dun hv dis problem de.. den at 1st quite angry and paiseh de.. bt den after dat think think think, also got nothing wrong mahx, haha den went on quite happily agian le.. haha!

at tuition is the funniest thing le lrox, with that crazy kat and bev and chai min and teressa!! making me laugh till my head droppping off le.. realli realli the most fun time of the week bahx, realli realli realli... datz why i die die oso muz go for tuition todae bahx.. at home oso a wonderful night! haha, 1st time no nagging from my mum leix... hee, somemore gt soooo mani presents waiting for me!
1st time my bro giv mi present lei, my sis, my mum.. the onli time i receive so mani presents from dem!! no matter how stupid the presents maybe .. i owuld still be veri veri glad de!! thankie everybody!

- LOR 135-137-

HeE.. WAD is dat dat lor?? law135-137.. juz tell me mahx?? i won't hate you de.. haha, im nt dat petty bahx?? hee. keeping me in suspend?? it is the greatest birthdae ever in my life!!.. although it is still days before the actually day, i hv already felt very touch by the candle-light party at pasir ris last week, and today's little "surprise" present, although it's an exchange one with mingchu.. hee, and the law 135-137? a great plan.. i dun noe wad is that but i know it's something great and embarrasing bahx.. no matter your law 135-137 realli works anot, i would still be realli realli grateful for all the pPL's time and effort for coming up with that!!.. Thanks for all!(^^)

-LoNg loNg neVeR uPdAtE lE-

ToO LoNg NeVer uPDate my blog le... haix, i gt so many things i want to tell everybody!!, bt due to space constraints, i think i could only say a few bahx! the Sec 3 camp? it is fun... i enjoyed myself, i made a few new friends, i get new experience! hee, kayaking!!! the most exciting one bahx, it is my 1st time..some more with Patrick, ppl gt cert one worx!! bt dun noe why oso can hit until my head!!... i like the cheers! when everibody team up and shout!! wahx!! i want to thank everyone, the trainers and all the members of Mohawk group for making this a enjoyable camp! i wana esp thank yingying for being such a friend, even for just a short 3 days, it makes a difference!

Then it was the prayer concert at expo! when i first heard it, i thought that it was gonna to be damn boring.." prayer?" !!... but in the end i still went, it wasnt that what i thought, it was really cool in the end, for the 1st time i can really worship with my heart.. in the past, i was always very paish to lift up my hands, to sing out loud with a joyful heart, to really praise Him, bt during that time, every one was singing wholeheartedly.. at there i realli gt the urge to lift my everyting to HIm, i want to submit myself to Him, i want to jump for joy..

ThE LaST thing i would ever want to talk about is about my mum!! i have been in a bad relationship with her since i came back from camp, nagging and nagging.. how do you expect me to finish all house work for you while im dere out at camp?! and how can you put my hamster outside just because this is YOUR house, so ami not a member of this house? and do you know how much that hamseter meatn to me? it's my birthday present from my band mates.. and so if i get home late? it is the 1st timei gt people to celebrate my b'day for me, to sing me b'day song, to care to get a cake for me, to put up candles for me.. den you? hv you ever do these to me? my b'dae? juz anohter forgotten dae.. nth left! so wad if you banned me frm going out? it's "war of the world"!! how can you juz do so? toking to you?? like the most difficult task to do now le!! why?