Sunday, January 31, 2010
favoritisim
I seen it all the while. Just that I took it positively, as freedom and independence.
Why did you just bring her to meet your so called "high-class" friends? While they never even seen him before. Busy is not the true reason, just a facade. I know what you are really scared of, a disgrace to your image. Like what most of us do when an unexpected guest visits , secretly push our dirty clothes under a bed, show only the branded.
In secondary 2, go to work, go to work. You start pushing me to the work force, to stop the nagging and have peace in my ear, partially getting away from you. I landed in a job with MacDonald as the youngest worker. Want to bet? You wouldn't even get her to do that till after secondary 4!
"Don't go JC. Don't study university. Just go poly. Get a job!"take the SAF scholarship!", " take the NEVY scholarship!", " take the Chinese teaching scholarship!". Oh, please. You didn't even bother about what I want, you didn't even bother ASKING what I want. All you are interested in is to go to wherever that don't require you to pay.Yay. Wherever is the perfect word. So I went to a polytechnic, pick up a course WITH A SCHOLARSHIP that appealed to me the most. EWT. And I remembered, being overly-truthful I told the panel of interview judges that if not for this scholarship, I would not even pick this course. Phew, I was still granted a scholarship despite my blunder statement! Thank God, if not for it, I'm sure that I would be forced to quit school half way through! Now, you wanted me to go to work instead of college. Same reason of course. But, don't worry. I understand you full well. I will get a sponsor myself and would not spend a single cent of yours.
But if money was that important to you, what I do not understand was why would you encourage her to go Raffles girls. Independent school that charge $300 per month instead of our normal school that charge at least 10 times lower. Why do you want her to get into a school with direct route to A levels? What's with that change of thinking?
And you too. Happily indulging yourself in a game of masak-masak. You get to pick who to be your child, who you want to fetch home and who you want to leave out of the game. The only difference will be that the food is edible this time round, and that knife is real.
I know she must have find it ridiculous, even I myself thought so too.For no apparent reason, I ignored her. And her coughing. But I just don't feel like talking to any of them. I felt so eaten up by the word, favoritism.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Dialogue in the Dark
I went to Dialogue in the Dark(DID) with my WISP class. This is what it looked like, pitch black, zero trace of light. An hour experience of blindness.
It's about senses, imaginations and teamwork now. Personally, I like market the best! They had a wide variety of textures and fragrant. It is the first time I hold and examine a cabbage so closely with my nose. I like brushing my fingers against the refreshing waterfall, and crossing that shaky bridge and climbing over the bicycle wheels. I like the way our hearts pound together with the increasing speed of the beeping traffic light. I like the way we swing our walking stick so hard that annoyed the people in front, the way we got lost and scream for names across the room, and finally finding back the familiar smell of the jacket that belong to my dear fly, my security. We would sit down at the cafe with our drink and start fumbling over the tiny silver hole to poke the straw. Finally, our tour guide, Angeline, who is visually impaired (all of the staff in DID are visually impaired, just of different degree) would lead us back to the light. She never get to see us, neither do we. What remains of her in us are her breath and voice, friendliness and cheerfulness. It is a unique experience(:
Sunday, January 10, 2010
POP EXCEL meeting
We had a POP EXCEL meeting from 2 to 4 p.m today. 2010 marks my first decade in POP EXCEL! I will be taking Sec 1 Mathematics for the time being(:
My first goal in POP EXCEL this year is to be more committed and punctual! I want to be someone who can be depended on to take a class or maybe just to do anything. Being consistent.
Second goal will be to remember names! I really suck at remembering names and faces! Ehh?..Ermmm. FINE. I suck at remembering ANYTHING. I am famous for my goldfish memory. Just yesterday, Cherry mentioned that Aunty Imm wanted to find a day to meet all of us. It's like OMG, we were her students more than 10 years back! And she remembers our faces and names. Not just that, she even remembers our siblings! *Clap Clap*. To be honest, I can't even remember the names of my favourite kids in POP EXCEL. I can ask their names every other weeks for like 4,5 years or more!
And seriously, POP EXCEL should last forever! It's one thing that allow me to safely take up other courses like environment, water and energy because I know that even though I may not have a career to do with children, but I will never lose touch and connection with them. I am still able to teach and play with them in POP EXCEL. Children is one thing that I think I would not want to give up.
Anyone who wish to volunteer in a church tuition group??
Saturday, January 09, 2010
The pre-teen's first inch of the wing.
After school, I met my goldfriends, Beverly, Charlene, Raishun, Sophine, Cherry, Fiona and Teressa for dinner @ Dhoby Xchange, Just Acia ( Pronounce it with me, "Ah. Cai").
It's the end of my sissy Joyce first week of school in Anglican High School. She' s really tired and won't be back home till tomorrow): I miss her! I want to know what CCA she joins, I want to know about her teachers, friends and the school, e.g the ultra long staircase, I want her presence, I want her to walk round the house telling everyone " i'm bored" a thousand million times. I want her to beg me stay for lunch at home. I want her to beg me to play badminton with her. I want her to off my alarm button in the early morning. I want her and I miss her.
I think it is the fear of losing her. Just like how we lose Xuan Hao in the beginning. A good school suck him away, totally. Study study study, test test test. First week this, 2nd week that, 3rd week,4th week, one month, two months, three months, not a pause. Time passes and he typically vanished out of our lives, out of the cell. Maybe that's what will happen to my sister too?? First week, Friday cannot come back, next week need to do project, next next week going out with friends, next next next week having exam etc etc, and just like that, a pre-teen expanded her first inch of the wings. I will miss her. 2 more years, it will be me begging her to stay home for lunch(:
Friday, January 08, 2010
Happy Birthday Yong Jie
After a long day's lesson of 8a.m to 7p.m, I went for Yong Jie's birthday celebration at Simpang Bedok. Thanks to her sweet sister, ah Chong, it turned out to be a heartwarming dinner with all his loved ones, a gathering of more than 20 plus 30 friends from different groups of friends and of course his own beloved family.
Happy Birthday Yong Jie
I wish that you will do well in your science related diploma.
I wish that your will always be surrounded by such caring and supporting friends.
I wish that you will find joy and comfort in God word.
Don't believe in scandal.
Toy R Us Job
I went for the stock taking with Charlene, first time working with her! But the working hour is like REALLY short! 4 hours only. And the first hour, we were like resigering our groups, sitting on the sales floor listening to the repeated briefings, and even learning to write 1-9! Like 1 shouldn't have a head, 4 shouldn't join together, 6 should underline, 7 should have middle stroke, 0 should be full circle etc etc. I felt like I was a kindergarden kid once again. Supper and taxi claims were provided at the end too.
2 days we only earned $40, but it was another experience gained(:
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
The fickle fashion
Monday, January 04, 2010
Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence
First time, it was just another emo, sad piece.
Put it to the repeat button, it's not that bad after all.
Now I wanted to watch the its film, Merry Christmas, Mr Lawrence. First he say the show is too old, then he say the file is too big! But the music wouldn't complete without its story! What's "Once Upon a December" without Anastasia? I simply love movie sound tracks!
Which kind soul would help me to get the dvd? download the movie for me or simply direct me to a website to that streams old movies??
Sunday, January 03, 2010
Hospital Log Book Day 7
Andy is discharged (: Home Sweet Home!! 3 keyholes surgery, with each size of 10mm. The lump of flesh with tiny hairs of strings sticking out all over is abit gross. Sim said the clothes can get caught in the stitches sometimes too. Eeeww~!
After- Without the tubes
Speedy Recovery, Andy! Same goes to Sim!(:
Hosptial Log Book Day 6
Sorry that this blog has some how turn into a medical journal of my brother. Just one more day, I promise. The doctor promised too.
Andy is now free from all tubes and wires now! Whining to get discharged(:
Now I am the one in deep trouble! If the doctor would take a look at my project load, he would have dosed me with morphine! - A strong drug to numb the pain.
I tried doing my project in the hospital while visiting, but some how I couldn't. I simply couldn't start on a thing with a sight of my brother being so weak and in pain. I know anxiety wouldn't help much, but there's nothing much we can do except to be anxious either.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
Happy New Year
New Year Eve
Even the doctor says firework is visible from the window of Andy & Sim's Ward. Maybe they will do the count down together by the window side.