absent

1 day of sweetness Xchange for 7 days of his absence. hope you are doing fine in your camp. miss you lotz! 4 monthly-vesary =)

just come back from the primers camp- haiii. that when i realize that i really need to brush up on my teamstyle, communications and everything. if not im never going to be a good team player and contribute to the fullest.

work- im going to be a workaholic, money money money money. no money!!!.i really need to learn to save up le. seeing my bank account digits drop, really getting anxious over each day.
yep! just work all day way from 12.30 p.m to 1a.m. more than 12 hours! (help to do stock taking).

hair- just dye my hair todae. wahh. too bright le!!! the person still tell mi the color will appear darker de.. in the end?? so bright!!!.. arhhxxxx.. still trying to get used to this color hair.

camp briefing- went for the mix- and- splash camp briefing later in the afternoon. haii. geraldina, felicia and maurice are all at OBS camp, only nicholas and i went. and nicholas is like late 1 1/2 hour?? leaving me alone dere with nobody i knew.

holi- xciting week ahead.

the sweetest day

wah. that is really the sweetest day i have had for the holiday!!- every little stuffs are so heartwarming.

we watch rat-a-too-ee( aiya, whichever way it spells) on the sofa leaning agianst each other.
mum broke the sauce for the spagetti, so we went down to NTUC and buy one. wahhh!!!. super sweet scene.. holding dat busket and starts to quarrel with me over that chicken.

" you sure this chicken meh?, you know how to choose chicken anot? ".
" ewwww.. you dont disgusting lah, you dont put chicken in the busket just like that! put plastic bag!! i go take.."

we continue to stroll through NTUC and pick the spagetti sauce, chips and drinks.

i serve him the spagetti and the soup ( 50% my cooking, 50% my mum's) another round of quarrel starts.

"fail fail fail fail fail! sauce too diluted, too much chicken, where is the mushroom? spag too thin, all stick together, soup very weird blah blah blah"

" ok ok ok.. any positve comments?? must balance up..if not i will get discourage de wor!"

"errr.. err errr.. cannot think of any!!. next time you will re- do and let me try!!. dont care you must do until perfect!"

"wahh. i know! we shall cook together next time!with you side by side! deal!"

"sleep"

later we went tampines to search for my brothers birthday present.


"i choose i choose i choose clothes for you!" ( open up my wardrobe and start browsing through)
" this one! this one good.."
"ewwwhh.. dont want that, iznt it the same shirt as im wearing now, just one is FILA the other is GEODANO?"
"this one... i want to see you wear this!" (pointing to the prom dress)
"nehh.. we going TAMPINES only.. whahaha"
" try this, buy readi haven wear before yet"

i took shirt and just put it on over my pink polo tee.
" no no no!!. its gonna to be too transparent. wear something inside. wear green spag"
"emm.. no no no!!.. green spag too striking color, im juz going to wear the black!"

after my shower with the new shirt and black spag inside..
"dont move, i help you cut the string here." ( as he helps me to cut the all the loose strings around, and button up my sleeves) "you smell nice..=)"
i just look into the mirror and smile as i see him help me button some and unbutton others, tie the knots, and cut the strings. juz so sweet.
"dadaaaa... nt so weird le! pretty indeed!"
he continue to choose the necklace for me and helps me to put it on!! (wahhh.. you know as i look into the mirror.. it realli melts my heart!)

at the mall..
"buy computer games for your brothers."
"no im not going to encourage them to play games some more, they are areadli turing into some gaming addicts!"
" i shall buy them dictionary since the one in the house has alreadi few pages missing"
" naomi, your brother wun even bother to look at it de! wad kind of birthday present is this, if you give me that,i will also throw that aside."
yea. sturborn me still go my way, bought a dictionary. yea. bt after seeing maurice that kind of face, i got no choice, buy another two more maple cards for them.

den we head to Ikea to buy some storage boxes to tidy up my stuffs and candles for maurice's mum. before that we share a plate of chicken meat ball!! so nicee... yummy!

"how to you go?? you work in ikea right?"
"emm. yea. but i always used the workers entry seldom de custormers entry."
in the end, we walk one big big big big round with all the beds and furnitiures, kitchen and dinin areas..( we just follow the arrows around)- anotehr super sweet scene! i enjoy dat big round!
" see see see?? it is just dere!!. wahh.. you make us walk one whole big round!!"

then i show him my work department, and some of my colluges..

"i shall put you in that trolly and push you around!"
"fat!!"

so sweet right? in the end we push trolleys together ( sounds ordinary, but with him?? its totally eXTRAordinary!)

den he stay in my house untill 11+ and help mii fix my boxes tidy my rooms.
i show him my secondary class photos, (not bad. he can spot hazel in one glance)
he accidentally found my past photos (realli realli ugly! no kidding)
he laugh like crazy!
"wahh! this on really ultimate!!!"
as i try to fight back my photos..
"no no no!!.. this one really ultimate!! no one can fight you le!!..muwahah wahahah heahhedkadh" and started laughing crazily all over!!

in the end, i sent him to get a cab. he wave mii goodbye.. thats when i found out, he steal photo!! the very "ultimate one"!!!!!!!

i really love this day. the whole mroning till late night! i love our little couples quarrels!!...

love you maurice=)

mac sauce

do you miss me?
yes you do.
i know it..

can you see that?
naomi and hazel.

thanks hazel for remembering me.

that's curry sauce and mac fries btw way.

blogging

yep. study on one chapter of bio today. looks little, still some form of achievment!. hee.

whaha. see so many ppl blog with photos and images. so nice. i wanted to have nice and beautiful blog with nice images too. lol, but cable lost, no bluetooth in lappy, upload every image is a chore! hemm.. bt realli nice!! go see sher's blog and you will understand.

mugging

i need to mug. i need to mug. i need to mug. i love mugging i love mugging i love mugging.
time to mug time to mug time to mug time to mug.mugmugmugmugmugmugmug!!!

arrhhhxx!!!!

exam exam exam. no more procrastination to myself.. keep telling myself i will study later, i wll study tml... no more no more no more. NOW!!!.

can i just seat down and take out my hydraulis and practice a few question and cauculations, take out my maths and do a few sums, look at some formulas? memorize my bio notes??...
one whole week for 3 subjects, stop telling me you have no time.

Lord, give mii the heart to study. the mind to study. refresh me Lord.

bless ya=)

school

yesterday i went back secondary school with elena and maurice. hazel should have come along!

yea, suppose to take some prize. its a trophy with a certificate ( the O level meritourious award). at first still complaining why there isnt any money like the past few years or what, later then i realise this is better than money, after spending the money, everything will be slowly forgotten, a trophy in the cabinet will always serve as a recognitiono of the hard work and the achievement. Glory to God..

later suppose to look for samantha to pass her back the "i recommend", in the end pass to wee yon instead,( cant find sam and ppl). talked to him for quite awhile with elena, see?? hazel you should have come!!! regret le bahh?? he even sent us out to the gate worr!!( mau mau to shy to even go up, waiting outside general office alone....)

we walk elena to her block, and elena sent us to the bus stop..( never ending sendding each other off) and we head off to watch rush hour 3. see?? everytime is the last time of enjoyment.
maurice sent mi back home.

hazel, come along with us. no more making sacrifices for us. come with us.

love maurice=)

into the mirror

looking into the mirror what do i see?

beautiful eyes, with too thick brows
beautiful face, but with ugly skin
a petite figure but with ugly legs.

im too short.
im dark.
im too hairy
im too....

is that what i see?

are those really matters so much to me? its God's perfect creation.

into the mirror.
i want to see God's image.
a truely reflection of You.- not a blurring and a distorted one.
when i look into the mirror, i want to see you LOrd.

be my reflection.

time alone with hazel

its in the middle of the night now.
hazel is juz sitting right beside me. playing her blockade. level 1. wearing her hello kitty pajamas.
i love her i love her i love her.

yep, dun be jealous. im one of the lucky who who can sleep on her bed, chat with her through out the night, giggling, laughing along..

happy nationday day 4 days ago. we spend the whole day together.- singing naitonal day song together. watching fireworks( on the screen)

secret. the jay chou's secret. we even had a couple seat at cathy. which is like so weird... emmm, not really, we are lesbian fren after all! ( its a realli nice movie.! recommend ya!)

playing piano. singing song. totally in lurve with jay chou.

join my family for lunch.
join her family for dinner.
eat eat eat eat eat eat!

sense of urgency

where is my sense of urgency?
my tutorials for hydraulics is not done.
my bio practical is not done.
i haven study on my fme.
i haven study on my eco.
i haven prepare anything for the exams.

yet...
i can go and watch2 movies on friday.
an additional movie on sunday.
and say that i have no time to study.

what am i thinking of?!

hazel, i didnt mean to lie to you, i really did INTEND to mug and mug and mug and mug the whole of these two weeks de. but there is something really really wrong about my mind.

can it be the heart of pride? thinking that i have the ability to handle all.
or can it be the maurice dimple smile that blinded my mind? blinded "YES" to whatever he says.

no matter which way it is. it is still not right.

God, teach me to be still in my heart. To have the right mind to analyze the things and the events around me. teach me to be still and not to be overwhelmed and anxious over everything. trust in you. totally.

i lost my bible. i think i lost it when i teaching my p4 girls. i hope can find it back. losing a bible, doesnt mean that i lost God's word. they are all deeply carved inside my heart. lead me with your Holy Spirit Lord.

love maurice=)

kids+ God

i enjoy teaching you all, my darlings.
the sense of sastisfaction. to know that i can use my talent to serve others, to know that i am helping you all, giving to you. its really a pleasure.

but can i ask one thing of you please?
can you not be so ROWDY... i hate to spend most of time controlling your noise level, rather than giving you all substential knowledge which can benefit you all.

i enjoy singing and dancing with you all. so enthusiastic, so energetic and full of fun! i love the noise that you make to God... i love playing games with you all, all the laughter and screaming. its one thing that i would not forget. i recorded all your innocent voice. =)

it's really great that you give me the opportunity to teach the kids about God, just like what you have doing for us for the past few years. yesh! of cause i would like to be a servant of God, to touch the lives of others and to share about God's love. but i really dont think that im up to that job. i cannot even connect myself back to God now, how can you expect me to connect the kids to God? give me sometime.

love is kind.
Lord, teach me to be kind to everyone.




love maurice=)