bye bye 2006.

todae marks the end of 06' its gonna to be a new year in less than 8 hrs.

how's the year?

i cant remember anything much happening this year except mugging for exam, studying and studying. datz e major event of the year le bahx..

haix... i don't know wad happen between us le, ever since that day, dere is unspoken barrier dere.( everytime i ask abt it, u juz wun say). maybe not seeing you is the best solution, just leave it dere and move on with our own lives. if i knw this will be your reaction, i wont tell you a single word right frm the begining, i told you becuz i thought you would be happy for mi, but seems dat im VERY WRONG. i also dont know how am i feeling. angry?depress? helpless? sorry? frustrated? its so tormenting!! how i wish i could have a STM and forgot all abt it. im wearing this mask that seems " it's ok, i dont care abt it anymore. i will just carry on with my life happily." but actually underneath this mask, im already froze. i cant seem to function at all.. all the smiles are just so fake.

-unresoleved conflict: are you stealing my joy away??

school reopening..

school reopening soon.. next wednesday, dont know wether its a "yea!" or a "haix.."
"yea!"- it means the start of something new and exciting, make new friends and join a cca..
"hiax..."- it means its the end of the holiday.. got to wake up early to go to sch, still cant get used to it..

and i thought our school will be starting at 8a.m.... but unfortunally NO, just received a bad news frm nyjc's ppl, we got to report @7.00a.m...wahx!!.. some more the grouping are all so different from shuyi and elaine..means i know nobody in my group, will be so lonely *sob sob*.

today went to a steamboat dinner with my family at parkway... wow, just love the soup so so much!!...bt still prefer the steamboat at marina!!

out agian

this afternoon i had a little gathering with baoxuan, elena, and jaslyn @ kovan today. its great. at least, everybody can be friends again, all the misunderstand are now all gone. cheers!! haha, we went to pizza hut to eat..

at night, elena and i went to anglican high school concert@ singapore conference hall. and we met kok guan and winnie during the interval. we sit together and take a few photos. after the concert we even went to east coast to hv a little supper- chicken wing and satay..(yummy, thx!) before they sent us back home.

yea, the concert is great. it has my favourite cartoon( little mermaid)'s theme song by the percussions and my favourite animation movie"( spirited away). song by the whole band. the band did play really well, dere are lots of solo parts frm differecnt sections...and that reminds me of my "phobia"for band. i want to continue to join band in my 3 mth jc, but still wondering wether to take back clarinet... notes to0 high, i cant play well ( sounded like a duck, and like mad ppl screaming!!), notes too fast, i cant play ( yea, my fingers are forever that retarded.. dont ever ask mii to play piece like "clarinet candy"or "fligths of bumber bee"), slow pieces, i gt no breath.. well, i cant think of any part in which i can play well. in the past, after going for a concert, i often felt encouraged to be a better player, finding more rooms where i can improve myself( whether its the tone or the skills etc) but now, dun know why the attitude changes. after going for concert, my worry grow more intense, everybody is like so pro... i cant seem to be able to catch up with them. maybe its becuz after more than half a year never touch my intrument, i lost all the confidence..

wonder how it would feel to play a clarinet agian when go to that new school, i hope by that time all my "phobia"would be gone!!. :)

so wad happen?

yea... we went to the hwa chong concert this tuesday, everything is great in the first place, right from the begining ( other than a bit of ticket problem, which was eventually solved in the last minute), even before we went to dat concert, we were full of anticipation. its good all the way... after sending my sis back, we went to meet xuan hao at library. then we went for a lunch at mac( and saw wee loon, such a coincidence!), then travel down to tajong pagar to meet other band members- amanda, jia hui, nadherra, larry, qi wei, kok tong, hui jun, meiling, leonerd and his gang...

then something goes wrong... it's raining, something is wrong when you went to share umbrella with jia hui... then things go wrong after that all the way till even now!! you wouldnt talk about it... and i dont know how you feel... im sorry if i had done anything to upset you, i guess i know the reason why. bt if i was you, i will give you all my blessing and wish you well, i will make it the greatest night ever.

the concert is indeed the worst concert i had ever went to. its not because of their performance, i cant deny that they did play well. i really enjoy the music that they played for us. its AWESOME!!...especially JERICHO, and CLARINET CANDY, almsot gave mii a fright, i guess i wun ever want to play a clarinet anymore because i wun be able to play such fast music in my entire lifetime..my fingers are just dat retarded!!!...yea, i enjoy their music. but this is the WORST concert because i leave i with a really heavy heart. it's all because you, to see you so unhappy, how can i be happy???... you almost blurted out something that i will really kill myself for it... you are just so blue and downcast...the music becomes nothing to me anymore. i really wish we would work out something, tell mii.....

i really dont wish dat becuz of dat tuesday night, you would not go the concert tml... i want you to go. maybe toghether, we can make that concert a pleasant night and it will resolve all things between us and we will start a new year afresh!! :)

cell retreat

yea.. todae went for the cell retreat. its quite good, we've got worship, bible study, caroling, games and blah blah blah... yea, learnt quite alot of stuffs and have much fun there also!! ( just that bev in the end still did not come.. * sob sob*)

yea.. bought the "phantom of the opera" soundtrack today. finally. had been hoping to buy that for a long time. now still looking for " spirited away" soundtrack, wonder wether is it available??

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Arxhhh... aarhxx... arhxhhxx... ARRRXH... seven square?

izit juz another joke

broke!!

im broke..
1. im jobless for about 2 months le- meaning only cash OUT, not much cash IN to replenish it.
2. my spening expenditure has been increasing tremendously. take today for example
- morning breakfast with yujie: 2 roti prata and tea $2
-pendum frm causeway point $10.90
-movie" eragon" $7.50
- pop corn + drinks $6.50/2
-dinner $10.70 + a total of 15% tax/2
- birthday present for jia hui ( secret, its a PRESENT. ) just to give you an idea, its 2 digits/2....

well, just one day, i can finish my whole weeks allowances!!... this means that im gonna to STARVE for the rest of the week le. *sob sob*.

btw, today had been a good day.
morning watch sunrise@ punggol end.( actually wanted to upload some AWESOME pictures de, but my brother lost my cable.. so just got to wait till we find the cable.. be patient okie?)- thanks yujie.

den watch movie with xuan, danny, levon, kahray, surin, and jusiang...yea.. "eragon", quite a nice show -dragon rider. den we had dinner at the place where weisheng, kangyan and bailin worked. its so expensive!! our dinner of $10.70+++ only includes the fries and a lemonade. its not even a main course. just the side dishes. you can imagine.

chinese

lol... today went to the library with baoxuan for a short while.. we borrowed some books. Ever since after our chinese 'o' level in june, i hadnt touch chinese till now.. it's only when my mum ask mi to write a new year card to be sent to granny, i realised i even forgot how to write "kuai le",( happy).. and i got my 9 year old sister to write it for me...

wahx.. how can this be? haha... so i decided its time to touch a bit chinese, i hope reading will do some tricks.

tedious day

hiax... todae early in the morning waken by mummi to do all the boring chores...
wash bed sheets, sweep the floor, wipe the floor.. this and that and this and that.. wash toilet, pack the room, this and that and this and that... NEVER ENDING!!... just hate to do such things.

. ARHXX...ARHHHX...arhxX....

stop ordering mii around.. " come and do this for me", "come and do that for me", " where are you now", " why are you so slow", " why is this still not done yet", " why is this still so dirty"... ARHHXXX... just one more nagging i will explode le!!!

lucky manage to spend 2 or 3 hours out with chai min and aunty carol to discuss about cell retreat...it's like "wow", finally manage to breath some fresh air!! ( hope that the cell retreat will have a good turn out..- bev, we miss ya!)

back..

its joyce here to greet you...

we are back in singapore!!

we stayed one night @ Beverly Hills Condo.. I shared a room with Putrina and my two brothers while the two little girls share a room with the two mums..


our room key!



joyce + qiu xuan( the perfect sista*)

we went to this cowboy town and animal world safari..

this is my first time heard of a 4D movie, where you can see, hear, touch, smell and blah blah blah...( but in e end we didnt go there *sob sob*)..

the most unforgottable sight will be the fireworks and the animal show ( especially the elephant!)


the fireworks were just like a beautiful curtain covering the sky.



spot the cowboys??


mii + putrina


mii + bro


..
my fav.. amoy e elephant..(a naughty one indeed, oweas use its trunks to bully us de.. dont know make us fall down how many times le!!..)

but ever since after falling in lurve with the animal planet in the TV, i start to feel bad for these animals who are locked up and trained to perform.. i think i would be happier seeing them stomping around in e wild field bhax!!

family outing..

haha... tml going malaysia with my family- my mum, my sis, my two brothers and our neighbours...
haha.. guess joyce would have a lovely time with qiu xuan bahx... they are close as a sister!!
how i hope i can get this chance to know about her sis.. i dont even know her name by now, just know that she is older than me by 1 or 2 years..

it's a short trip, will be back by friday bahx... then granny will come s'pore, we will have some family gathering again bahx, with my little cousin felice and raydon and aunts and uncles... wouldnt be able to go cell this week le, hope that chai min wld do the worship well!! (: good luck).. how i hope bev is back soon, miss her a dozen!! she has been dispearing, how i hope she will just reappear, back to the bev we know!!... (: miss you lots... be back soon okie??.. will wait for you de!!)

.23 may. e day it started. e little secret imagination. it started with a dream.
.9 mar. a very nice choir song from " one litre of tears"

food??

hiax... dont know why this few weeks have no appetite for food leix... almost everyday eat one meal only, either lunch or dinner....

breakfast?? i don't usualli have the time for breakfast, got to rush to meet friends... or maybe when nothing is going on for the day, i would sleep until maybe 11... and it becomes a "breakfast cum lunch"..

lunch? only when im outside with my friends.. and it is either a mac or kfc...

dinner? ever since my mum seldom cook at home.. i seldom hv a proper dinner le..

cook by ourselves ( too disgusting... most of them are uneatable, tastless)
mum bought us dinner ( always the same old food... sick and tired of it, so i just take a bite and threw away the rest of the food when she's nt looking)
go out to eat on our own ( juz too lazy to go down, sometimes just too engross in doing my stuff... and my brother refuse to go down to buy for mii)

haix... just dun feel like eating much.. haix.. no appetite!!!...im not going on a diet or what... but just dont feel like eating... haix...

food: how i wish to be your friend once again!!

my testimonial...

haha, yea.. we went back to school and collect our testimonial today, its great to be in our uni and go back to sch again, although its only a short 15 min... well, the next time might be when we go and collect our o level result le bahx...

e cca card wrote sth funny too....
we gt 3 " inter- house basketball" recorded!!!- haha, how can this be ?? we don't even know how to dribble a ball properly...haha, basketball?? whahaha....

then the testi also mentions about the cooking competition yunjie and i took part last year.. ( we emerged as CHAMPION somemore!!) wahhaa, looking at that really wanna make me laugh le, we spill e most important ingredient at the last minute, everything becomes a mess, we even had to borrow some left over honeydew from our competiter and sneak out to buy frm canteen... everthing is a chaos, we didint even get to try the desert before we serve.... all we were thinking were : anything lahx... everybody is waiting for us, we got no time to do all the perfecting work le... whatever it tastes, just let it be bhax, we got no more time le..

despite the comments that our friends give, " tasteless", " weird", "funny", " disgusting"( i agree..), we are actually FIRST in the competition. its a surprise... i guess its e its outer appearance ( our presentation), and the nutition level bahx!!... it becomes like some "bueaty food contest", where our unique melon hair style clench the prize!!

hiax, i wouldnt want to participate in such a thing again!!!... (almost gave us a heart attack!!!, however, it comes with a good experience, all the laughter... still can't forget that day!!!)

holidae?

haha, gonna go back sch and collect our testimonial this week le... wonder what will the teacher write about me..

now has 3 main goals to complete by this short december holi.
1. zakarland- to finish e zakarland piano piece!!.. nice song frm final fantasy

2. puzzle- to finish my 1000 piece puzzle which just started yesterday( the one e cell give for my christmas.. grow in e dark de!!.. wonder if it really works, yea.. gt to finsih then know bahx.., wish to try that 3D puzzle, but guess left too little time now le, maybe next year bahx..)




2005( did it with xuan)
2006( grow in dark?)
2007( a 3D one??)

3. books- to finish at least one book a week. ( i really mean it!!... up to now, i finish e "clay marble", " stones in the water"," if i had a wicked stepmother, where is my prince", " amy", "daughters of eve", starting a new book today le!!..

yea... datz all abt my holiday aim!!

im so stupid

stupid. stupid. stupid. stupid. stupid. im so stupid.... i should hv known it earlier. i really need you. ARRRRHXX.... JUZ LET MI SCREAM: "ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHXX!!".. where are you??

i dont know what do say now, i also dont feel like saying anything. leave mi alone, juz let mi sit down by e playground and stare at the night sky, let the night breeze to carry away my silly thoughts.

juz let empiness fill my mind....