a hand

haix.. todae lead worship in cell group.. super super super scared niax... almost start to tremble and shiver le!!!.. words just cant flow from my mouth.. i tried to hold the hand of the one sitting beside me, at least it makes feel that i am not alone.. bt it just slip off.. why?? i couldnt find the warmth and the security, the support and the encouragement i found in baoxuan's hand.. i couldnt find the sweetest, the warmest hug i found in yu jie which melts all the worry and fear.. i couldnt find the *blink and the wink* when i scan around the room, i can only find it in band, they didnt hv to do anyting, didnt hv do sae a single word, just give a wink and a blink which lightens up my spirit, knowing that they are there to support and cast all my worry and fear away.. but when i scan around, i only found the stares of disapproving, thank you so much ppl, thank you for the actions that cease all my worry and fear silently.. although we don't it at work, we can feel it.... just simple gestures, holding hands tight together, hugging together, giving a sign of a blink and a wink... its more than enough