hope

yea. i know you are back from camp. so what?

too tired to meet.
too tired to talk.
my saturday i gave it to GOd and the children.
my sunday i gave it to work cause i need the money.

disappointment.
waiting for messages dat never will come.
even a simple good night msg means something. but no, it never comes

waiting for calls dat never will come.
waiting for you to date me out.
waiting for you to give me a surprise visit.
waiting.
waiting.
waiting.
waiting.

all NEVER comes. NEVER means- not even once.( after u back from the camp)
how tired it is to wait for something that will not come? ( like the article about organ donation waiting list in the papers) wait wait wait wait wait, until all the organs starts to fail, and gt remove of the waiting list( almost = getting a death certificate)

stop giving me excuses that im too busy. in the midst of busy-ness, you still holds a place. i love to be disturb in the midst of it. ( same to hazel!! stop saying im too busy im too busy and im too busy!!..2,3 hours realli makes a great difference.. even 1 second with you, i want to fight for it!)

so what? whose fault..
my fault. i hope in the wrong thing.
i place hope in him. hope to see hope to hear hope to touch hope to smell hope to taste him. its a big big mistake. why did i place my hope in man even though i know they fails me?

naomi. turn back to the right focus. place your hope in christ. always, for we know that God will never fails us.

psalm 27
The Lord is my light and my salvation- whom shall I fear. the Lord is the stronghold of my life- of whom shall i be afraid?when evil men advance against me to devour my flesh. when my enemies and my foes attack me, they will stumble and fall. though an army besiege me my heart will not fear; though war break out against me,even then will i be confident.one thing i ask of the lord, this is waht i seek: that i may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. for in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling ; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock. Then my head will be exalted above the enemies who surround me; at his tabernacle will i sacrifice with shouts of joy; i will sing and make music to the Lord. hear my voice when i call, o lord; be merciful to me and answer me. my heart says of you," seek his face!" your face, Lord, i will seek. Do not hide your face from me. do not turn your servant away in aner; you have been my helper. do not reject me or forsake me, O God my Saviour. Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lrod will receive me. teach me your way., O Lord; lead me in a straight path because of my oppressors. do not turn me over to the desire of my foes, for false witness rise up agaisnt me, breathing out violence. i am still confidenmt of this:i will see the goodness of the Lrod in the land of the living. wait for the lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lrod.

Lord. it you whom i truely seek.