bye bye 2006.

todae marks the end of 06' its gonna to be a new year in less than 8 hrs.

how's the year?

i cant remember anything much happening this year except mugging for exam, studying and studying. datz e major event of the year le bahx..

haix... i don't know wad happen between us le, ever since that day, dere is unspoken barrier dere.( everytime i ask abt it, u juz wun say). maybe not seeing you is the best solution, just leave it dere and move on with our own lives. if i knw this will be your reaction, i wont tell you a single word right frm the begining, i told you becuz i thought you would be happy for mi, but seems dat im VERY WRONG. i also dont know how am i feeling. angry?depress? helpless? sorry? frustrated? its so tormenting!! how i wish i could have a STM and forgot all abt it. im wearing this mask that seems " it's ok, i dont care abt it anymore. i will just carry on with my life happily." but actually underneath this mask, im already froze. i cant seem to function at all.. all the smiles are just so fake.

-unresoleved conflict: are you stealing my joy away??

school reopening..

school reopening soon.. next wednesday, dont know wether its a "yea!" or a "haix.."
"yea!"- it means the start of something new and exciting, make new friends and join a cca..
"hiax..."- it means its the end of the holiday.. got to wake up early to go to sch, still cant get used to it..

and i thought our school will be starting at 8a.m.... but unfortunally NO, just received a bad news frm nyjc's ppl, we got to report @7.00a.m...wahx!!.. some more the grouping are all so different from shuyi and elaine..means i know nobody in my group, will be so lonely *sob sob*.

today went to a steamboat dinner with my family at parkway... wow, just love the soup so so much!!...bt still prefer the steamboat at marina!!

out agian

this afternoon i had a little gathering with baoxuan, elena, and jaslyn @ kovan today. its great. at least, everybody can be friends again, all the misunderstand are now all gone. cheers!! haha, we went to pizza hut to eat..

at night, elena and i went to anglican high school concert@ singapore conference hall. and we met kok guan and winnie during the interval. we sit together and take a few photos. after the concert we even went to east coast to hv a little supper- chicken wing and satay..(yummy, thx!) before they sent us back home.

yea, the concert is great. it has my favourite cartoon( little mermaid)'s theme song by the percussions and my favourite animation movie"( spirited away). song by the whole band. the band did play really well, dere are lots of solo parts frm differecnt sections...and that reminds me of my "phobia"for band. i want to continue to join band in my 3 mth jc, but still wondering wether to take back clarinet... notes to0 high, i cant play well ( sounded like a duck, and like mad ppl screaming!!), notes too fast, i cant play ( yea, my fingers are forever that retarded.. dont ever ask mii to play piece like "clarinet candy"or "fligths of bumber bee"), slow pieces, i gt no breath.. well, i cant think of any part in which i can play well. in the past, after going for a concert, i often felt encouraged to be a better player, finding more rooms where i can improve myself( whether its the tone or the skills etc) but now, dun know why the attitude changes. after going for concert, my worry grow more intense, everybody is like so pro... i cant seem to be able to catch up with them. maybe its becuz after more than half a year never touch my intrument, i lost all the confidence..

wonder how it would feel to play a clarinet agian when go to that new school, i hope by that time all my "phobia"would be gone!!. :)

so wad happen?

yea... we went to the hwa chong concert this tuesday, everything is great in the first place, right from the begining ( other than a bit of ticket problem, which was eventually solved in the last minute), even before we went to dat concert, we were full of anticipation. its good all the way... after sending my sis back, we went to meet xuan hao at library. then we went for a lunch at mac( and saw wee loon, such a coincidence!), then travel down to tajong pagar to meet other band members- amanda, jia hui, nadherra, larry, qi wei, kok tong, hui jun, meiling, leonerd and his gang...

then something goes wrong... it's raining, something is wrong when you went to share umbrella with jia hui... then things go wrong after that all the way till even now!! you wouldnt talk about it... and i dont know how you feel... im sorry if i had done anything to upset you, i guess i know the reason why. bt if i was you, i will give you all my blessing and wish you well, i will make it the greatest night ever.

the concert is indeed the worst concert i had ever went to. its not because of their performance, i cant deny that they did play well. i really enjoy the music that they played for us. its AWESOME!!...especially JERICHO, and CLARINET CANDY, almsot gave mii a fright, i guess i wun ever want to play a clarinet anymore because i wun be able to play such fast music in my entire lifetime..my fingers are just dat retarded!!!...yea, i enjoy their music. but this is the WORST concert because i leave i with a really heavy heart. it's all because you, to see you so unhappy, how can i be happy???... you almost blurted out something that i will really kill myself for it... you are just so blue and downcast...the music becomes nothing to me anymore. i really wish we would work out something, tell mii.....

i really dont wish dat becuz of dat tuesday night, you would not go the concert tml... i want you to go. maybe toghether, we can make that concert a pleasant night and it will resolve all things between us and we will start a new year afresh!! :)

cell retreat

yea.. todae went for the cell retreat. its quite good, we've got worship, bible study, caroling, games and blah blah blah... yea, learnt quite alot of stuffs and have much fun there also!! ( just that bev in the end still did not come.. * sob sob*)

yea.. bought the "phantom of the opera" soundtrack today. finally. had been hoping to buy that for a long time. now still looking for " spirited away" soundtrack, wonder wether is it available??

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Arxhhh... aarhxx... arhxhhxx... ARRRXH... seven square?

izit juz another joke

broke!!

im broke..
1. im jobless for about 2 months le- meaning only cash OUT, not much cash IN to replenish it.
2. my spening expenditure has been increasing tremendously. take today for example
- morning breakfast with yujie: 2 roti prata and tea $2
-pendum frm causeway point $10.90
-movie" eragon" $7.50
- pop corn + drinks $6.50/2
-dinner $10.70 + a total of 15% tax/2
- birthday present for jia hui ( secret, its a PRESENT. ) just to give you an idea, its 2 digits/2....

well, just one day, i can finish my whole weeks allowances!!... this means that im gonna to STARVE for the rest of the week le. *sob sob*.

btw, today had been a good day.
morning watch sunrise@ punggol end.( actually wanted to upload some AWESOME pictures de, but my brother lost my cable.. so just got to wait till we find the cable.. be patient okie?)- thanks yujie.

den watch movie with xuan, danny, levon, kahray, surin, and jusiang...yea.. "eragon", quite a nice show -dragon rider. den we had dinner at the place where weisheng, kangyan and bailin worked. its so expensive!! our dinner of $10.70+++ only includes the fries and a lemonade. its not even a main course. just the side dishes. you can imagine.

chinese

lol... today went to the library with baoxuan for a short while.. we borrowed some books. Ever since after our chinese 'o' level in june, i hadnt touch chinese till now.. it's only when my mum ask mi to write a new year card to be sent to granny, i realised i even forgot how to write "kuai le",( happy).. and i got my 9 year old sister to write it for me...

wahx.. how can this be? haha... so i decided its time to touch a bit chinese, i hope reading will do some tricks.