-this sudden blue-

Feeling down? Got the blues? You're not alone. Everyone gets sad. Yes, everyone you've ever met. Some people have sad feelings just once in a while, and others may have sad feelings pretty often. More than half of teenagers go through a sad period at least once a month and plenty of younger kids do, too.
When you're in a sad mood, it may feel like it will last forever, but usually feelings of sadness don't last very long - a few hours or maybe a day or 2. A deeper, more intense kind of sadness that lasts a lot longer is called depression (say: dih-preh-shun).
What Is Sadness?Sadness is a feeling - it's one of the many normal human emotions, or moods, we all have. Sadness is the emotion people feel when they've lost something important, or when they have been disappointed about something, or when something sad has happened to them or to someone else. When they're lonely, people often feel sad.
When you're sad, the world may seem dark and unfriendly. You might feel like you have nothing to look forward to. The hurt deep inside may crush your usually good mood.
Sadness makes you feel like crying, and sometimes the tears are hard to stop. Crying often makes you feel better.
Sometimes when your mood is sad, you just feel like being alone for a little while. Or you might want someone to comfort you or just keep you company while you go through the sad feeling. Talking about what has made you sad usually helps the sad feeling melt away.
When sadness starts to go away, it can feel like a heavy blanket is being lifted from your shoulders.

http://kidshealth.org/kid/feeling/thought/sadness.html

sad right?? feeling lonely and sad.. having no one to talk to, to share.. only can find articles from the internet to cheer myself up.. to relate my problems to similar situation and emotions!! haha.. -this sudden blue-

soo soo long le... it has been months

haha... it has been months since i last updated my blog...haha.. this time come update because i knew one more new friend!! horray.. Gerline.. haha, joined our cell group todae..yea, a pretty and cheerful girl.. easy going and friendly!! yea.. new company, great!! (especially when bev and chai min is nt here.. i thought i might so so and so bored)!! i also get to know rui shan better.. in the past seldom talk to her one, bt todae we can actually quite alot, and laught with them so hard... haha!! also praise the Lord that Gerline has accepted Christ!!... it's so great to get to bond well with my cell group!! hope to see more and more ppl coming in..

a simple friend VS a real friend

A simple friend, when visiting, acts like a guest.
A real friend opens your refrigerator and helps himself.

A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend has shoulders soggy from your tears.

A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after he has gone to bed.
A reall friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it.

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend calls you after you had a fight.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!

- it isnt easy after all-

OoO.. It isnt any other simple choice, it is= giving up tons of important things in my life

yea, i should be happy.. years and years of bottled up stuffs-[ all my anger+ sadness + fruastrations+ disapointment, hurt] are once and for all broken.. no more hiding, no more pretending, no more acting as some idiot out there, just to please them, hoping that i could be part of them, hoping that ppl would care to notice my presence.. i can be myself once again!! to have the right to be myself all over again, no more a clown, no more a nobody, i want to be able to stand up tall and tell myself confidently and proudly that "i am lanli" LANLI- a name that ought to be respected, not a name to be mock at, to laugh at.. im gonna to make "LANLI" a beautiful name..

bt it isnt this simpe- i cant imagine how i will go on, what other consequences i would face, other than a set of a very very very long friendship.. in fact, the longest friendship i have ever lasted bahx... giving up it, its simply difficult, after trying for years and years to be nice to them, to be friendly approachable, to bring up things to discuss with them, trying to stay connected with them, to be part of them, bt now?? getting sick and tired of it.. finding it useless act... i feel like i hv wasted every of my effort, i hv fail something which i hv tried sooo hard to achieve... and most importantly, God! is my relationship with You gonna to suffer becuase of this? is this risk too big, is it worth it?? i doubt soo... Lord, would you hv a path for mii? show mii the way that is gonna be good to all... is there suppose to be some kind of solution? or can i juz do by avoiding the problem, hiding the problem away 1st..

since that day, nothing is gonna to be the same with us ever again... i wish all of you a merry chiristmas!

Genting competition??

wahhaha... they just came back from genting- for band competition!! with secondary skools and JC from both malaysia and singapore bands!! they've gt a silver.. hearing sooooo much of their stories, so envy worx!! whhaha.... if onli im still part of their big family, go on such trips with them... afterall such chances and experience dun come easy, the chance the build up a stronger bond a stronger relations with each others, hv fun!! wahaha... i wanna hear more of their stories!!!

guys: if you've gone to the genting trip too, pls care to share your stories with me!! always welcome!

The Chronicles of Narnia

The Chronicles of Narnia- The lion, The witch and the wardrobe

i would sae it's a realli nice movie.. a five star movie, i dont mind living in a world of fantasy like it!!

Aslan the lion- king of Narnia, is willing to sacrifice himself for the sin of man, without any complaint, any defence for himself (although he would hv the power to do so ).. lay in the hands of the white witch!

The witch - claiming to be the queen of Narnia ( obviously she's not).. deceive edmund, making him to betray all his brothers and sister, causing alot others to fall into the hands of the witch.. the witch also makes Narnia always winter, but never christmas!

Peter, Susuan, Edmund and Lucy- the 4 siblings who accidentally found the land of Narnia, fight in the war for Aslan, save the land of Narnai.. become the kings and queens!!King Peter the Magnificent, Queen Susan The Gentle, King Edmund The Just, Queen Lucy The Valiant.

The Wardrobe- the link way from the usual, normal life to the exciting world of Narnia!!

The significance:
Aslan: Aslan represents Jesus. He acts as Jesus because he dies on Edmund’s account. Jesus was known as “The Lion of the Tribe of Judah.”`

Stone Table: It represents two things. First it represents the Ten Commandments because it has the deep magic written in it. Second it is the cross because that is where Aslan dies.

Edmund: He represents the people that have sinned because he was a trader.

The White Witch: She represents the devil. She convinces Edmund to sin like the snake had done to Adam and Eve. The White Witch had convinced Edmund to sin using the addictive Turkish Delight. She then told him to bring his one brother and sisters, but he didn’t so his blood belonged to her.

Aslan’s army: It represents the followers of Jesus (Christians).


The story is simply exciting and fantastic.. how i wish i can live in the world of Narnai..
a fantasy, a dream..

a dae @ marina

thursdae: went for bowling with beverly, chaimin, kaserin, alan, nicholas and xiao qiang @ marina bay.. wahhaha, it's some fun cuz it had realli been a long time since i last bowl.. im nt realli a gud player either, haha, most of the ball went inside the drain most of the time!! whahaha.. i can realli clap a hand for those ppl who bowls well siax!!..

then we go arcade for short games, nonono... should say SEE PEPLOE play bahx, whahah... nvr can understand those chim chim games da guyz play... haha, im nt in to it either ( dat creates quite a big gap wif mii and those guys, cuz all they know is games, and i know nothing abt those ) how i hope can somewhat i can connect to them somehow... we share no common interest, no common topic..no connection.. somewhat im out of the place..

went steamboat in the evening.. hv a realli big dinner, all the prawns, fishballs, crabmeats, soups, burnt chickens, sotongs... everything!! whahaha... so nice, i realli like all the soup siax... haha