Treat me the way Parlou treats her

I went Alan house to put my guitar and go through the woship songs in the morning before meeting Beverly at TAMPines to hunt for classic disney movies. LOL! Im so not used to MRT concession. I can never remember to tap my EZ Link card when alighting the bus. Hais, public transport can be real expensive as well.

We went to Beverly house to watch Little Mermaid I and II. Heh, my favourite disney princess!! Im in love with the song " part of your world" and "for a moment "!!!! I wonder why all disney movies ends with " happily ever after" while the actual story I read by Hans Christian Anderson ended with the little mermaid dissolving into foam. Heh, only if i can write my life as a fairy tale like this(:

Haha. then slack around in Beverly house, didn't know what to do, play facebook. LOL! 2 person slacking is much better than slacking at home alone!! Evening meet my sister, mum and her friend for dinner at Marriot Hotel.

Sentosa Again

I went to Sentosa again! but this time is with Beverly, Charlene and Chai Min(: It is really a great day and time passes real fast. Heh, we took the Luge and Skyride at a student price of $6. I like that ride.

I am the double-chin sand man (: it's awefully fun.

A Monster's wing.

I never say you can walk out of my life like this. Don't make me miss you this way. There is nothing you can do to make me regret my decision.

Sorry, I really didint know how to leak the poison drip by drip out from the cuts. So I had a plastic surgon to lift up her knifes and do that for me. Thanks Jun Lin(: The greatest poetic friend I ever have!

A Monster’s Wings

I watched an angel spread her wings
To reveal a silvery melody
I watched by fascination, jealousy
One day, that Angel will be me

To wear that beautiful saintlike skin
You’ll never know what lurks beneath
Yes pretty me, I hide the black
So look at me, I’m near perfect

But why, beyond that flawless mask
I shot your acceptance into dust
And blinding me was just the fact
I’m imperfect ‘cause I’m too perfect

Cover up, you hypocrite
Close your eyes, I don’t want you to peep
I smile because I play pretend
Come join me, hate me, take my hand

I spread my wings and watched you scream
As silver peeled my pretty dream
I tried to follow what you feel
Sorry, I lied that I was real

James 1

2-8 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds. because you know that the testing of your faith develops perserverance. Perserverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generoulsy to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will recieve anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.



12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who loved him.



13-15 When tempted, no one should say," God is tempting me." For God canot be tempted by evil, nor does he tempt anyone; but each one is tempted when, by his own evil desire, he is dragged away and enticed. Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, whn it is full grown, gives birth to death.



19-21 My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man's anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires. Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word plnated in you which can save you.



22-25 Do not merely listen to the word, and so decieve yourselves. Do what it says.Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what is says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not frogetting what he whas heard, but doing it- he will be blessed in what he does.



26-27 If anyone considers himself religious and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless. Religion hat God our Father accpets as pure and fultless is this : to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep onself from being polluted by the world.







How can I again and again let you down Lord? Again and again and again and again and again. I can sense your disaapoinment in me.

IM SORRY

I'm sorry for being so stupid, so bad and so lousy. I have betrayed all your trust and faith in me. Maybe today is the day that I should shed off my silvery angelic skin and reveal my black dead skin that hid so beneath. I know why I hate myself so much, it is because I am acting like one with perfection yet the fact is that I'm made of purely imperfection and ugliness. I denied my natural self. or pretend. finding every sort of excuses to cover up the holes that might gives a peep of my skin. Your pretendence is fake! I hate it! Now I tell you, open your eyes wide, penetrate to the soul of me. You will know what I mean. Maybe you will find a complete different character. I cry because I hate myself. Im a monster wearing a pretty suit.

I still want to thank Hazel, Dom and Dorian. Thank you for accepting my good and my bad. Thank you for giving me a second chance to re live my life to ammend for my mistake. Thank you for not walking out of my life just because I am not worth. Yay, indeed im the lousiest person you can ever meet. Thanks for the advice and respect you have given me. Thanks for continuing to be my friend. I love you all!

Sentosa Trip

Tuesday we went to sentosa with Dorian, Hazel, Dom, Jie Qi, Boon, Ester,Aaron, Derik and Jing Shui. It was fun. We played volleyball, basketball, football, swim and eat. Photos not with me yet):

Happy Birthday Hazel

This morning wanted to go for service, in the end overslept again! Hais. everytime oversleep oversleep, not just annoy others, even myself is annoyed! Hais, I have got too much bad bad bad habbits that I cant even stand myself.

I took cab down to church for the Cell Leaders Training. Just hope that I will be able to stay commited to follow through the training. I think availability is really important in this case for me.

In the evening, Jaslyn, Hazel & I went to Marina Square to celebrate Hazel be-be lated birithday. Sorry girl, for dragging for like 1 1/2 months!, but we have never forgotten it! We went to Yuki Yaki for buffet(: Happy Birthday!! Hee, we have promised to spent every birthdays together for the rest of our lives! Heh, my bestest girlfren for life indeed!

Our birthday girl!

Our handmade ice cream (JNH- Jaslyn, Naomi, Hazel) of combined flavours of vanilla, chocolate, peppermint and yam. Topping of chocolate chips, chocolate rice and rainbow chips(: