-Im sorrie-

morning? 1st thing i wake up is answering your call.. so why?? why have you been so fad up?? yet behind your voice of shouting and screaming is the sound of your tears.. i dun wan to upset you, i realli dun mean to.. u noe how hard is it to be in the middle?? all of your words, i heard it nt the 1st time, bt mani mani times fr others.. datz why i rejected your request of going out todae. i dun wan, or can sae im fear of the words dat gonna hit me by others. todae its not your fault, realli is not. i want you to understand dat, i always treated you as my friend! you are important to me, you are more precious than my time and everything else, i wanted to spend my time wif you, every possible minute.. being wif you has been so much fun and laughter! im sorrie.. i din noe my existance is so important to you, u spend 2 hrs convincing me to go wif out with you, yet my ans still 'no'! you hv done so much for me... im so sorrie, i hv made another wrong choice todae, i wonder izit worth?? izzit worth to hv such a big quarrel wiif you over such a small small matter.. i wanna see you!! in the instant second... to tell you: im sorry!

-MoViE-

INITIAL D!!.. nice movie, bt mainly because of its character bahx..all look so cool de bahx!.. haha, bt den de story line so-so onli.. but overall nice show lahx!!, everi of dem look so cool and handsome, deir driving technique oso super pro de worx!!..haha, funni and exciting..

-BaNd-

haha, it's about band agian!! hiax... the whole day in skool for band, so gt nthing to sae bt band agian.. it's realli better todae, hee.. maybe is becox baoxuan is dere?? hee, dere is somebody who can really laugh with me, hold my hand and jump around like mad!! lunch?? we had our lunch in a big big round table as a section!! for the 1st time bahx??.. realli hv fun laughing wif one another!! things are getting better when you are back in band!!..

-BaNd-

- band-?? a whole dae of band.. im realli realli tired of dat!! it has been wrong in the begining!! why has joanne chosen me?? if nt, i can be as normal as others, i dun hv to be in the 1st clarinet, i dun hv to be the s.l.. i dun hv to be aniting lyk dat, i may hv a chance to be in the 3rd.. hee!! bt all is wrong in the begining!!.. in band?? i hv always been suffering and suffering, trying to get wad is expected of me, trying trying trying... sometimes, it gets so tough dat i realli wanna cry.. to realli lean on somebody who listens. Yesh, sec 1: y.y?? realli realli makes me want to cry le, tears already in my eyes le, lucky dat time joanne came in time.. for resue, accompani do silly stuffs, we counted every holes in clarinet, press every holes in clarinet... she accompanied me run and run and run around the corridors juz becox i cant play some simple notes and rhythem! u noe how crazy is y.y?? ( u get 1 wrong notes, u run 1 round!).. so u can imagine i ran how mani rounds dere!! now in band?? is exactly the same things happening in punggol again!

why is she asking for so much?? i realli cannt cannt cannt mahx.. here in punggol is worse, far far worse den damai dere!! at least dere, when im sad.. somebody is dere for me! but now here, i realli realli feels tired, wanna cry.. nobodi is dere! looking around the whole room, couldnt see somebody dat realli can make me smile! ( baoxuan and frenzie arhx: pls come for band mahx!! one day without you is like one day without smile, i hv tasted it.. ) pls let us nvr nvr give up supporting each other, emotionalli and physicalli!! we need your support..i found comfort in you! who reali understands and listens..

-lOuSy DaY-

IM REALLI LOUSY!! IM A LOSER!! i cant do a single thing right.. my onli happi moment is onli dat few min at baoxuan house.. when we did our sista tok and sharing... at band?? i feel lyk a complete idiot of myself.. i dun wan to be wad sectional leader, wad librarian!! i dun even want to be in 1st clarinet!! can't i be juz a normal normal band member?? like bao xuan?? free of trouble and responsibility.. i want to run away!! i cant handle all... im such a stupid loser lorx, tiny tiny stuff oso cant do it!! cant even conduct a section as a sectional leader, wad kind of sectional leader is this!! a useless one.. how can a section look up to such a person??.. realli stupid lorx! hide away when supposed to be conducting... realli an idiot! but still muz thank rachel, jie qi, jia hui and bao xuan for dat little encouragement.. at least it makes me feel better!! thankie! i want be a normal normal band memeber, i dun wan any post any position any thing!! i wan tto be normal!... can i?

-MaLaYsIa-

HEe.. mAlAySiA, I duN Wan to be back singapore!!! i wanna stay dere longer.. i wish the time would stop dere, de moment little cousin fell asleep in my arms.. i miss him!! how i love this little cousin of mine.. the way he smile at you, the way he hold your hands and laugh with you, the way he takes care of you, the way he talks, walks, run, the way he sleep in you arms.. the smell of his hair, the touch of his soft skin... i miss his everything! i wish i can be dere to protect him to take care of him, to see him grow up!! i love little kids!the Indonesia Food Festival at Genting was so nice de lrox!!.. hee, i see every food, i take ( almost lahx) cox cannt resist the temptation mahx!! hee... but take so much cant onli eat veri little little niex, all becox of my irritating infection on my tongue.. can onli see see the food and drip my saliva, bt den cannt realli taste the food!! so poor thing!

wE wATch de mR. AND Mrs. smith.. i didnt expect it to be such a nice show lorx.. but den it turned out to be realli cool movie, haha.. cant keep my mind off the movie liao! the perfect couple!! so power and cool!!... high class!! hai.. i miss the most exciting part niex!! the ending?? can somebody pls pls tell me the ending?? i keep imaging the ending, how would it be like?? all sorts of stuff i hv thiink!!.. haha...

hAO tiNG!! I MISS YOU the most!! in the whole excusion!!.. i would nvr forget the way u hold my hands, the little hug dat u gave me.. the sweet sleep in my armx!! how i wish to be always be dere.. you are my comfort, melted my heart!!

-OvErsEa-

haha, dis few days we gt ' homework marathon' at baoxuan house niex.. everyday at least 4 hours of homework homework and homework!!.. but nevermind, spending time with her, doing such stuff i dun mind.. haha.. going oversea tml le,still gt so much stuff haven complete yet.. haha. so dun noe for the how many days could nt use computer.. no more updating til sunday le banx.. haha